it's okay. i believe in what i believe. and i'll prove myself right.
-------------------------------------------------------
well, back in msia, as always, it's nice to feel at home. But this room has so much of memories. So much of memories sometimes i cant bear to stay in my room for too long a time cos i'll start thinking back a lot. So in a way, i made myself go out everyday.
At least I won't feel so bad. Haha.
Of course, sometimes it is nice to just lie on the bed and not do anything.
But then again, it is when u're too free that u'll start to think a lot right?
Kor, i bet u'll agree with me on this.
So far. My holiday... has been... fulfilling? I cant find a word to fit in. Haha.
I've pretty much cover most of my friends. Wanni, tara, collegemates, asyila, kevin, zuikok...
Hmmm. Only havent seen dailou (k la, im goina face him for like another 3.5 years but i'd really hope he could have join us in kl), vik (im goina see u soon :) after like soooo long) ;
Havent seen michella, rica and s.ling.. Tasha--tak payah cakap, orang pun tak ade kat sini.
High schoolmates... Hardly any.. :( I hope Moon's doing well in US.
I miss a lot of u cos that day i found a pendrive i used to use when i was in high school and found out lots of our pics. I started missing all of u.
I wanted to upload all the pics. But I gave up on facebook. =P
Been up and down singapore & msia.
Anyways, talking to wan ni reminds me of those uni days in first semester. SUCKS. like shit.
Nevertheless, I hope I've found a motivation for me to work harder, better and smarter for all my coming sems. I'M GOINA MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
wo zhu ni xing fu
SO U GUYS! WATCH OUT!
I'M GONA KICK SOME ASS!
bueks. =P
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
never knew i needed
O to the M to the G.
I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee this song!
~never knew i needed by ne-yo~
makes me wana watch princess and the frog :(
first heard it on radio where this girl who requested it was sobbing.. :(
it's a love at first sight! Gah.
okay... i dont 'SEE' a song... so it's a love at first..heard?
Haha. chyi's sleeping beside me now =)
aww, she poor thing!
she's sick!
may u get well soon. god bless. lovess =)
I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee this song!
~never knew i needed by ne-yo~
makes me wana watch princess and the frog :(
first heard it on radio where this girl who requested it was sobbing.. :(
it's a love at first sight! Gah.
okay... i dont 'SEE' a song... so it's a love at first..heard?
Haha. chyi's sleeping beside me now =)
aww, she poor thing!
she's sick!
may u get well soon. god bless. lovess =)
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
LAW SHEOW LING!
where have u been!!?!
omgosh. i can't believe i just cried when i saw ur pics in facebook.
i dont know why!
u're like one of my bestest friend once upon a time and it's like we kinda lost contact.
u dont come online often. No, let me put it this way, u come online once in a blue moon. In one year, i probably see u online once or twice.
U dont even have facebook or nethin like that. ( I bet u used bryan's account to add me)
U dont reply sms.
and i just didnt continue to think abt it.
it's probably almost a year or more since i've last seen u.
and i cant believe we were once so close..
where are u now.. :'(
omgosh. i can't believe i just cried when i saw ur pics in facebook.
i dont know why!
u're like one of my bestest friend once upon a time and it's like we kinda lost contact.
u dont come online often. No, let me put it this way, u come online once in a blue moon. In one year, i probably see u online once or twice.
U dont even have facebook or nethin like that. ( I bet u used bryan's account to add me)
U dont reply sms.
and i just didnt continue to think abt it.
it's probably almost a year or more since i've last seen u.
and i cant believe we were once so close..
where are u now.. :'(
Friday, December 18, 2009
HELLO ALL =)
GREETING FROM NETHERLANDS! =D
miss ya all =D
will be back in a few days more i think.
Hmmmm... so far, been to vatican, rome, venice, switzerland, germany and yep, currently in netherlands. =)
In Amsterdam. AND korrrrrrr! haha, i dont know if u would see this, but yeahhh! we went to the red light district and saw.. hahahahaha! remember the movie u showed me? the one the 2 guys went on a euro trip or sth? ahahahahahahaha. I remembered u the moment we went there! hahahaha.
hmmmm. what else. well there'll be more updates when im back in msia. But i think it'd be toooooo long for me to tell in my blog. I've like probably more than thousands pics already! hahaha. Well, there are like 4 cameras u see... =P
all of u are missed. yes yes yes.. everyone that's reading my blog now. you know who u are =)
miss ya all =D
will be back in a few days more i think.
Hmmmm... so far, been to vatican, rome, venice, switzerland, germany and yep, currently in netherlands. =)
In Amsterdam. AND korrrrrrr! haha, i dont know if u would see this, but yeahhh! we went to the red light district and saw.. hahahahaha! remember the movie u showed me? the one the 2 guys went on a euro trip or sth? ahahahahahahaha. I remembered u the moment we went there! hahahaha.
hmmmm. what else. well there'll be more updates when im back in msia. But i think it'd be toooooo long for me to tell in my blog. I've like probably more than thousands pics already! hahaha. Well, there are like 4 cameras u see... =P
all of u are missed. yes yes yes.. everyone that's reading my blog now. you know who u are =)
Thursday, December 10, 2009
goodbye all..
leaving to airport in a while.
getting ready.
thought it would be appropriate to say goodbye before i leave =)
BUT dont have enough credit.
hopefully u guys will read this =)
Will take lots of photos back for ya all as souvenirs as promised.
thank you all.
loves.
hugs.
getting ready.
thought it would be appropriate to say goodbye before i leave =)
BUT dont have enough credit.
hopefully u guys will read this =)
Will take lots of photos back for ya all as souvenirs as promised.
thank you all.
loves.
hugs.
FIGHT
No. Jinni, why should u be a coward and back out urself?
Why let it defeat you??
This shouldn't be the way.
This isn't Jinni.
Grhhhhh! Arrrrrrrr! YES. Fight!
我应该更积极地面对
I should not run away and hide.
I should not feel reluctant to face a fact that I have to face sooner or later.
I should make a change.
If circumstances won't change for me,
I change myself.
I'll look at it more positively.
I'll strive harder to make it good.
I will not make my university life miserable.
I wana be on top of myself. Hmph.
I won't compete with others.
I compete with myself.
I wana reach my goal.
And I will do it.
That's the way it should be.
That's the way it should be.
And for now, I shall enjoy my europe trip and holidays
AS MUCH AS I CAN.
Cos I dont know when's the next time I can enjoy all these again. =/
Gah. Who cares! Live every moment to the max.
*cheers* ;)
Why let it defeat you??
This shouldn't be the way.
This isn't Jinni.
Grhhhhh! Arrrrrrrr! YES. Fight!
我应该更积极地面对
I should not run away and hide.
I should not feel reluctant to face a fact that I have to face sooner or later.
I should make a change.
If circumstances won't change for me,
I change myself.
I'll look at it more positively.
I'll strive harder to make it good.
I will not make my university life miserable.
I wana be on top of myself. Hmph.
I won't compete with others.
I compete with myself.
I wana reach my goal.
And I will do it.
That's the way it should be.
That's the way it should be.
And for now, I shall enjoy my europe trip and holidays
AS MUCH AS I CAN.
Cos I dont know when's the next time I can enjoy all these again. =/
Gah. Who cares! Live every moment to the max.
*cheers* ;)
Tell me.
convince me it's just the song, the time, the tiredness, the atmosphere, the...
etc etc
whatever whatever
that's making me tear.
Gosh, a fact that i dont want to face but i just hafta.
One week left after europe trip and i hafta go back to that place again...
Sighs.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Let It Be, be happy =)
Heya... Yeah, I'm back in M'sia..
Hmmm. I have mixed feelings. Nostalgic? Yeah.. The smell, the people, the faces and the places.
Excited? Very, initially. Happy, sad, anticipating, disappointing, everything came all together.
Haven't been blogging partly cos i cant due to few reasons. One for sure, the surprise that im planned for shaun, yeechin and vincent. And for those belated birthdays, i know it wasn't even a proper celebration for all of ya. But yeah, im sorry for not being able to celebrate honey, isabelle and xiaoly's bday. Kor, i celebrated belated birthday for u. Nevertheless, ur name's still in the list.
To me, to celebrate someone's birthday means sth. Means a lot to me. It means celebrating the presence of him/her; it means i appreciate him/her.
I am not proud to say however, i dont do as much for my family members.
Nonetheless, i appreciate them. In a different way.
Celebration being said, i don't mean, SURPRISES! PARTY! LOTS OF FRIENDS CELEBRATING FOR U! It's just, the sincerity and just the presence of friends and family is more than enough.
Those who don't get celebrations just gotta stop complaining AND LOOK AROUND U.
Consider urself lucky! Com'on. Look further, think further and APPRECIATE. For god's sake.
and those who thinks birthday means nth, STOP SAYING THAT.
sighs. I wouldn't say I went through a lot. Cos it's nth big. But those were the moments I wished someone would have stood by me. It's the small lil things that I care.
I don't want big surprises, I don't need big present (though I won't mind getting either =P lol, im kiddin), all i need is to be happy and to have people around me being happy and healthy.
All i want is your presence.
This should be the last time my tears drop for you
Shall I do it,
I do it with grace.
Im no longer the jinni
who used to be afraid.
I learnt to say no,
and stay tougher than I would know.
Let go and let it be.
For it aint a matter anymore.
Hmmm. I have mixed feelings. Nostalgic? Yeah.. The smell, the people, the faces and the places.
Excited? Very, initially. Happy, sad, anticipating, disappointing, everything came all together.
Haven't been blogging partly cos i cant due to few reasons. One for sure, the surprise that im planned for shaun, yeechin and vincent. And for those belated birthdays, i know it wasn't even a proper celebration for all of ya. But yeah, im sorry for not being able to celebrate honey, isabelle and xiaoly's bday. Kor, i celebrated belated birthday for u. Nevertheless, ur name's still in the list.
To me, to celebrate someone's birthday means sth. Means a lot to me. It means celebrating the presence of him/her; it means i appreciate him/her.
I am not proud to say however, i dont do as much for my family members.
Nonetheless, i appreciate them. In a different way.
Celebration being said, i don't mean, SURPRISES! PARTY! LOTS OF FRIENDS CELEBRATING FOR U! It's just, the sincerity and just the presence of friends and family is more than enough.
Those who don't get celebrations just gotta stop complaining AND LOOK AROUND U.
Consider urself lucky! Com'on. Look further, think further and APPRECIATE. For god's sake.
and those who thinks birthday means nth, STOP SAYING THAT.
sighs. I wouldn't say I went through a lot. Cos it's nth big. But those were the moments I wished someone would have stood by me. It's the small lil things that I care.
I don't want big surprises, I don't need big present (though I won't mind getting either =P lol, im kiddin), all i need is to be happy and to have people around me being happy and healthy.
All i want is your presence.
This should be the last time my tears drop for you
Shall I do it,
I do it with grace.
Im no longer the jinni
who used to be afraid.
I learnt to say no,
and stay tougher than I would know.
Let go and let it be.
For it aint a matter anymore.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
I don't want much, I just want everything. =P
gahahahahaha. a lil hyper now! whoosh! ahhhh, im studying really slow. But drank a cup of coffee. pretty awake now.
Ohh, check out BUNKFACE! Malaysian band!!!! NOT BAD =)
sern introduced it to me quite some time ago, just that i started youtubing it and found more new songs.
Some other nice songs of theirs:
(i) silly lily
(ii) high school rocker
(iii) prom queen
Havent check out their malay songs yet. There're lots more nice english ones too. Go check out yourself.
Neways, really like the "through the window" ^^
MALAYSIA BOLEH! LOL
Gah! Cant wait! 3 more days =D
Monday, November 30, 2009
Dont die.
OH darn. i just realised i dont have notes on like 3 to 4 chapters for materials science cos i just woke up... from a long nap.. lol. (after coming home from so-called-lunch with yu lyn and bobo at temasek? @@)
GAH! isnt it a lil too late to realise it now?
=/
Thinking what am i suppose to do.
Go straight to the past year papers?
It would be too time consuming to go through those chapters one by one.. =(
Yet, those are among the chapters i dont understand the most. HEH.
GAH! isnt it a lil too late to realise it now?
=/
Thinking what am i suppose to do.
Go straight to the past year papers?
It would be too time consuming to go through those chapters one by one.. =(
Yet, those are among the chapters i dont understand the most. HEH.
Material Science
Haha. Yes I've Material Science Exam tomorrow.
No, Im not here to complain about it.
Nope, haven't finish studying. Only studied 2 chapters yesterday. YES. I know, amazing right. Out of... God knows how many chapters. Haha, dont worry la, i had short notes written on previous chapter. I just hafta flip thru em and do past year papers. Afterthat, it's all left to fate to decide whether i can solve the questions during the exam.
Anyways, that's not my main point. My main point is, I was watching this concluding lecture by professor Boey which i missed. WELL, i pretty much missed 80% of materials science lecture =P YES, i've been skipping. Cos there's lecture recording on the website and well, most of the time in lecture, i'd fall asleep. Besides, watching lecture recording allows me to study at my own pace. I can rewind and rewind and rewind again until i get what he's trying to say.
SOOO, i was saying, concluding lecture by professor boey. IM SO GLAD they put the video in as well. He's hilarious and darn, he managed to trigger my interest for material science alright. =D
LET ME TELL YOU THIS, material science was one of the subject i hated most when i first came into uni. Cos it's relatively new to me and i came in late and missed out the first few lectures. I just felt left behind and I started hated it. AND YES, i've done NONE of the tutorials. Not a thing to be proud of, but yeah.
The thing is, when we were taught about sth, we were given the mindset of, "WE'RE STUDYING THIS FOR EXAM. WE'RE STUDYING THIS SO THAT WE CAN GRADUATE. "
Or at least we were driven by that thought all these while.
WHY?
How come they've never told us, and relate all these to what's surrounding us?
It's just like, we learn calculus for the sake of learning it and passing exams. But nobody told us why we learn calculus. What are the applications and amazing things it does.
If only people start studying for the NOT for the sake of scoring for exams, instead, look at it more like, understanding what's going on and graduate with TRUE knowledge instead of scores. WHAT does scores prove?
Why are people so adamant about perfect CGPAs and all?
At the end of the day, what's left?
I mean, if u know what you are studying (I prefer to name it "learning" rather than "studying" though), it comes to you naturally.
At the end of the day, if you know what you learn, i think that beats perfect CGPAs who studied for the sake of exams.
To come to think of it, maybe those who score well at the end of the day, are those who weren't adamant abt their scores in between.
They believe in what they're learning and they only had to prove to themselves they are right.
Not to anyone else.
cos everyone is so kiasu. learning lose its meaning.
No, Im not here to complain about it.
Nope, haven't finish studying. Only studied 2 chapters yesterday. YES. I know, amazing right. Out of... God knows how many chapters. Haha, dont worry la, i had short notes written on previous chapter. I just hafta flip thru em and do past year papers. Afterthat, it's all left to fate to decide whether i can solve the questions during the exam.
Anyways, that's not my main point. My main point is, I was watching this concluding lecture by professor Boey which i missed. WELL, i pretty much missed 80% of materials science lecture =P YES, i've been skipping. Cos there's lecture recording on the website and well, most of the time in lecture, i'd fall asleep. Besides, watching lecture recording allows me to study at my own pace. I can rewind and rewind and rewind again until i get what he's trying to say.
SOOO, i was saying, concluding lecture by professor boey. IM SO GLAD they put the video in as well. He's hilarious and darn, he managed to trigger my interest for material science alright. =D
LET ME TELL YOU THIS, material science was one of the subject i hated most when i first came into uni. Cos it's relatively new to me and i came in late and missed out the first few lectures. I just felt left behind and I started hated it. AND YES, i've done NONE of the tutorials. Not a thing to be proud of, but yeah.
The thing is, when we were taught about sth, we were given the mindset of, "WE'RE STUDYING THIS FOR EXAM. WE'RE STUDYING THIS SO THAT WE CAN GRADUATE. "
Or at least we were driven by that thought all these while.
WHY?
How come they've never told us, and relate all these to what's surrounding us?
It's just like, we learn calculus for the sake of learning it and passing exams. But nobody told us why we learn calculus. What are the applications and amazing things it does.
If only people start studying for the NOT for the sake of scoring for exams, instead, look at it more like, understanding what's going on and graduate with TRUE knowledge instead of scores. WHAT does scores prove?
Why are people so adamant about perfect CGPAs and all?
At the end of the day, what's left?
I mean, if u know what you are studying (I prefer to name it "learning" rather than "studying" though), it comes to you naturally.
At the end of the day, if you know what you learn, i think that beats perfect CGPAs who studied for the sake of exams.
To come to think of it, maybe those who score well at the end of the day, are those who weren't adamant abt their scores in between.
They believe in what they're learning and they only had to prove to themselves they are right.
Not to anyone else.
cos everyone is so kiasu. learning lose its meaning.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
NightmareS.
i cant sleep.
having insomnia.
i had 2 nightmares in a row within an hour.
1st one, i felt suffocated. Both in the dream and in reality.
I really couldnt breath.
Then 2nd one was scarier. Thank god bobo called me. But gave me a shock also. It's like someone calling 5am.. Thought who's it.
But i was relieved to realise it's just a nightmare. Cos it feels so real and scary and the plot's like in the current hse im staying at and I WAS ALONE.
I think it's the coffee taking effect. i slept abt 4am.. my heartbeat was racing and all. Took me sometime to actually sleep. After bobo called, i didnt dare to sleep anymore and i locked the room's door. Hoping to feel more secure.
Grrhhh.. havent had nightmares for darn long a time.
So i stayed awake till bobo came, 5+am abt 6am. Then i was so awake talking to her till now. Now she's sleeping and i cant sleep. it's 7.36am now.
I slept for only an hour plus but im so awake. I cant sleep. And if I sleep, i just get nose block. I cant breath.
So what am I suppose to do now?
Heh, quite some stuff to blog abt but been lazy for the past few days. Not so much of lazy, more of distractions. Heh =P youtube etc... =)
Alright, i shall try to sleep. Since now it's bright and bobo's beside me, so it should be fine even if i get another nightmare right? TOUCH WOOD. Dont wana get another nightmare.
sigh. nose block!
having insomnia.
i had 2 nightmares in a row within an hour.
1st one, i felt suffocated. Both in the dream and in reality.
I really couldnt breath.
Then 2nd one was scarier. Thank god bobo called me. But gave me a shock also. It's like someone calling 5am.. Thought who's it.
But i was relieved to realise it's just a nightmare. Cos it feels so real and scary and the plot's like in the current hse im staying at and I WAS ALONE.
I think it's the coffee taking effect. i slept abt 4am.. my heartbeat was racing and all. Took me sometime to actually sleep. After bobo called, i didnt dare to sleep anymore and i locked the room's door. Hoping to feel more secure.
Grrhhh.. havent had nightmares for darn long a time.
So i stayed awake till bobo came, 5+am abt 6am. Then i was so awake talking to her till now. Now she's sleeping and i cant sleep. it's 7.36am now.
I slept for only an hour plus but im so awake. I cant sleep. And if I sleep, i just get nose block. I cant breath.
So what am I suppose to do now?
Heh, quite some stuff to blog abt but been lazy for the past few days. Not so much of lazy, more of distractions. Heh =P youtube etc... =)
Alright, i shall try to sleep. Since now it's bright and bobo's beside me, so it should be fine even if i get another nightmare right? TOUCH WOOD. Dont wana get another nightmare.
sigh. nose block!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
3rd in a row.
Darn. 2-3 posts a day is not a good sign!
gurhhh. I dont know!
I feel restless. In a good way i guess?
excited? one more week... so long! =/
and yet tomorrow's physics. tried the past year questions.
as i've predicted and expected, open book exam also no use.
Usually open book exams are the difficult ones isnt it?
Tian xia na you na me pian yi de shi. =/
Neways, i shall go bath and probably try one more past year later and go sleep.
Gosh, dad's nagging again.
gurhhh. I dont know!
I feel restless. In a good way i guess?
excited? one more week... so long! =/
and yet tomorrow's physics. tried the past year questions.
as i've predicted and expected, open book exam also no use.
Usually open book exams are the difficult ones isnt it?
Tian xia na you na me pian yi de shi. =/
Neways, i shall go bath and probably try one more past year later and go sleep.
Gosh, dad's nagging again.
random
wei shen me wo xiang jie shou
how come i never inherit my dad's high IQ-ness????
lol.
que you hai pa ne?
cannot. i think i must eat more omega 3!
how come i never inherit my dad's high IQ-ness????
lol.
que you hai pa ne?
cannot. i think i must eat more omega 3!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Dear God,
I have prayers to make.
1. Bless my grandma and hope her cancerous cell will be gone in no time. =)
2. Lead kevin out of the misery he's facing.
3. Let all the pain tara has faced to call an end before xmas.
4. Sprinkle blessings all over the Earth. Let my family and friends live happily and healthily.
5. May bobo find her hostel/hall room's card (key) by the time she gets back to singapore. I'm sure she has learnt her lesson. (BOBO, make sure u learn ur lesson and stop being so clumsy!)
6. Extend your guiding hands to those in need. Including me =) But help those who need it more first.
Dear God, will you hear my prayers? Will you make it come true?
Thank you for managing us human for so long. Lol.
San fu sai lei la... ^^
((((((((( I LOVE YOU)))))))))))
=P
1. Bless my grandma and hope her cancerous cell will be gone in no time. =)
2. Lead kevin out of the misery he's facing.
3. Let all the pain tara has faced to call an end before xmas.
4. Sprinkle blessings all over the Earth. Let my family and friends live happily and healthily.
5. May bobo find her hostel/hall room's card (key) by the time she gets back to singapore. I'm sure she has learnt her lesson. (BOBO, make sure u learn ur lesson and stop being so clumsy!)
6. Extend your guiding hands to those in need. Including me =) But help those who need it more first.
Dear God, will you hear my prayers? Will you make it come true?
Thank you for managing us human for so long. Lol.
San fu sai lei la... ^^
((((((((( I LOVE YOU)))))))))))
=P
Trust?
In life, there must be people whom u gave all your trust to, right?
Or maybe not.
Maybe not everyone's that lucky.
It's lucky to have someone to trust on right?
TRUST. It's such a strong word.
It means you believe, you show your entire world to him/her and leave nothing to hide.
It's a form of invisible power that leads the world to go on.
It means a lot.
How many people could trust a person fully?
If the person whom you trust lets you down, not only one time.
Will you still continue to trust?
Trust anyone else?
Trust. Could make you blissful. Could let you down.
But if one day, you loose faith and stop trusting..
How would the world be?
Or maybe not.
Maybe not everyone's that lucky.
It's lucky to have someone to trust on right?
TRUST. It's such a strong word.
It means you believe, you show your entire world to him/her and leave nothing to hide.
It's a form of invisible power that leads the world to go on.
It means a lot.
How many people could trust a person fully?
If the person whom you trust lets you down, not only one time.
Will you still continue to trust?
Trust anyone else?
Trust. Could make you blissful. Could let you down.
But if one day, you loose faith and stop trusting..
How would the world be?
Monday, November 23, 2009
FOUND my matric card! =)
what a relieve. Like finally. After waiting for so long to get into the exam hall for the look for the lost and found.
AND SO, to dai lou Kiat: "Im not as clumsy as bobo! At least i know where i left it =P "
Feel much better. Got at least that bit of mood to study ady. But havent start yet =P
and i faced the same old problem again =/ I need to drink more water and stop turning to milo powder when i feel like eating.
wootsaaaa~ STUDY!
jia you! =D
In life, things doesnt always work out the way you wanted it to be.
That doesn't mean it's a bad thing.
Give it a shot and try to accept it the way it comes to you.
Perhaps you'll find it not too bad afterall.
And you'll learn sth out of it.
AND SO, to dai lou Kiat: "Im not as clumsy as bobo! At least i know where i left it =P "
Feel much better. Got at least that bit of mood to study ady. But havent start yet =P
and i faced the same old problem again =/ I need to drink more water and stop turning to milo powder when i feel like eating.
wootsaaaa~ STUDY!
jia you! =D
In life, things doesnt always work out the way you wanted it to be.
That doesn't mean it's a bad thing.
Give it a shot and try to accept it the way it comes to you.
Perhaps you'll find it not too bad afterall.
And you'll learn sth out of it.
@ @
i feel kinda blur. and was a lil paranoid.
most likely cos my dad was asking me when's my exam this week, i said thursday.
then he's like, "oh, that's why u said u can go back last week is it... why didnt say earlier.."
Im like "DAD, i told u! when u were talking to mom otp and u even told her that! and u said mom said it's alright, dont need to purposely go all the way back for the jab etc. "
URGH. I could have gone back cos i didnt do any work after maths paper on friday anyways!
Mah~!
annoyed.
Probably cos i didnt do physics assignment either.
and also my MATRIC CARD! urghhhhh. I hope it's in the lost and found box in the exam hall like siew ping said.
Neways, woke up with muscle aches. ♥ it. havent had that feeling for long long time.
Im still feeling so blur. i dont know why. Not enough sleep? I just couldnt sleep properly. Perhaps not with all those in mind. Neither could I sleep longer.
SUPER DUPER BLUR. -God HELP me-
most likely cos my dad was asking me when's my exam this week, i said thursday.
then he's like, "oh, that's why u said u can go back last week is it... why didnt say earlier.."
Im like "DAD, i told u! when u were talking to mom otp and u even told her that! and u said mom said it's alright, dont need to purposely go all the way back for the jab etc. "
URGH. I could have gone back cos i didnt do any work after maths paper on friday anyways!
Mah~!
annoyed.
Probably cos i didnt do physics assignment either.
and also my MATRIC CARD! urghhhhh. I hope it's in the lost and found box in the exam hall like siew ping said.
Neways, woke up with muscle aches. ♥ it. havent had that feeling for long long time.
Im still feeling so blur. i dont know why. Not enough sleep? I just couldnt sleep properly. Perhaps not with all those in mind. Neither could I sleep longer.
SUPER DUPER BLUR. -God HELP me-
hungry..
i think i didnt only strained my left arm's muscle...
i think my legs and waist too. LOL
it's 2am.
fairly tired.
wasted another day not doing nething.
im thinking of read till i sleep
but im pretty sure once i open the book, i'll sleep.
tried too many times d la. =/
haha. neways good luck for ur test zuikok.
and good luck to my brother and cousins in SPM.
Hope they're doing well. =)
I MISS HUGS and am longing for one.
i think my legs and waist too. LOL
it's 2am.
fairly tired.
wasted another day not doing nething.
im thinking of read till i sleep
but im pretty sure once i open the book, i'll sleep.
tried too many times d la. =/
haha. neways good luck for ur test zuikok.
and good luck to my brother and cousins in SPM.
Hope they're doing well. =)
I MISS HUGS and am longing for one.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
I AM SO JEALOUS! =P
AH! AH! AH!
lol. DAMN~
Nevermind. 3 more years. OR more?! =/
haha =D ignore me. Im all hyped up!
EESH. Due to certain reasons.
AAaaaaa.
Urgh. Alright gtg get ready. Meeting kiat in a while.
lol. DAMN~
Nevermind. 3 more years. OR more?! =/
haha =D ignore me. Im all hyped up!
EESH. Due to certain reasons.
AAaaaaa.
Urgh. Alright gtg get ready. Meeting kiat in a while.
Friday, November 20, 2009
如果我变成回忆
My laopo's on the way back to ipoh.
lol.
Wont be seeing her for a week. =/ Goina be lonely i suppose.
Thankfully, I am in Tanah Merah now. There's gym, there's swimming pool, sauna, bla bla bla... to keep me occupied ^^ Plus, i can always go to my grandma's place when i feel lonely. =)
PIANO! Omgosh. When's the last time i actually touched one. I shall go over to ma ma's place tomorrow and for meals and PIANO! ^^
As much as the marginal utilities (eversince i studied econs, i just start using its term more and more) here's higher than of the Tiong Bahru's one... I do miss Tiong Bahru's small lil cosy hse =/
In the mrt, everytime it passes by Tiong Bahru station, i'd be thinking, this is a place i used to board... I haven't seen the house since the time I left w/o knowing Im not going back to that house anymore. =(
Eventhough I've only stayed there for a short while, the memories are precious. I guess that place will forever remind me how was it like when I first came to NTU. The horrible beginning of my uni life. LOL. Right from the very moment i had to go back to msia and come back to sgpore EARLY next morning. Gosh, I can still remember how I was sobbing while packing. ^^,
lol.
Wont be seeing her for a week. =/ Goina be lonely i suppose.
Thankfully, I am in Tanah Merah now. There's gym, there's swimming pool, sauna, bla bla bla... to keep me occupied ^^ Plus, i can always go to my grandma's place when i feel lonely. =)
PIANO! Omgosh. When's the last time i actually touched one. I shall go over to ma ma's place tomorrow and for meals and PIANO! ^^
As much as the marginal utilities (eversince i studied econs, i just start using its term more and more) here's higher than of the Tiong Bahru's one... I do miss Tiong Bahru's small lil cosy hse =/
In the mrt, everytime it passes by Tiong Bahru station, i'd be thinking, this is a place i used to board... I haven't seen the house since the time I left w/o knowing Im not going back to that house anymore. =(
Eventhough I've only stayed there for a short while, the memories are precious. I guess that place will forever remind me how was it like when I first came to NTU. The horrible beginning of my uni life. LOL. Right from the very moment i had to go back to msia and come back to sgpore EARLY next morning. Gosh, I can still remember how I was sobbing while packing. ^^,
Humans. When you possess it, you won't realise how much it means to you until it has become a past.
Cos when it's around you, you cant's see yourself in it;
When it's gone, you see yourself in it in a third person's perspective.
I'm really lucky, in fact, i feel spoilt in that sense. For being able to stay at a nice place despite studying overseas, able to feel like home and spend money more than I do in Malaysia (=.=).
It's precisely what I pictured where I'd be if I were to choose Singapore instead of U.S.
When things come in an easy way, you tend to forget the fundamentals.
Maybe if I chose US, I'd be struggling, studying while working part time and realize what I'm currently taking for granted. (Or it maybe a totally different story) Haha.
=)
Nevertheless, I chose here. It was my decision and I wouldn't say it's a right decision cos there aint any CORRECT decision. But i'd say, it seems like a more optimal decision cos it's a huge sum of money I save in terms of tuition fees and living expenses. And my dad feels so tired of working already.
I'd like to have him retiring earlier if he can.
Pursuing my dreams overseas, that can wait. I will pursue it with my own efforts after I graduate from degree in uni.
I miss what I've missed. But time seems to be able to numb my feelings. I am afraid for I might not be able to remember how it once felt like anymore.
It feels like I'm at a midpoint of life.
In a middle of a HUGE, long highway.
I can't see what's far ahead of me, yet the past seems increasingly vague as time passes by.
I'm in the middle of nowhere.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM
Hmmm. Okay, tomorrow's my first paper for first finals in my uni.
WHY?
How can I be so freaking calm.
NO, Im not well-prepared.
Im just. Feelingless. =.='' HAHA
Well, IF i were me last time, I'd be so freaking stressed out by now.
Right now, I could still watch a short drama with bobo. Makan pizza... and blog. Lol =P
But then, getting a reply from my mom after wishing her happy birthday was indeed a lil...urh...I can't find a word to describe it.
Her reply was "Thanks, study hard and get good results on ur exam"
Urh, it's not even good luck in ur exams, dont stress out urself, do ur best.
IT'S "GET GOOD RESULTS", it sounds like a command than wishing.
amboi, manalah aku boleh tak rasa stress untuk masa itu.
=( But i dont want to make myself stress out or study hard for the sake of making my parents happy.
If i wana study, i study for the sake of myself.
WHY cant my parents understand this. WHY cant they trust me on this.
WHY does studies and scoring good results become sth obligatory as a daughter.
-W-H-Y-
-S-I-G-H-
Now i guess, i know why i would get so stressed out if i were me last time.
But why am i calm now?
Is it cos i've already gave up?
Or is it just cos i've opened up myself to look upon further?
Knowing that there's no point studying for other's sake?
I dont know.. You tell me.
WHY?
How can I be so freaking calm.
NO, Im not well-prepared.
Im just. Feelingless. =.='' HAHA
Well, IF i were me last time, I'd be so freaking stressed out by now.
Right now, I could still watch a short drama with bobo. Makan pizza... and blog. Lol =P
But then, getting a reply from my mom after wishing her happy birthday was indeed a lil...urh...I can't find a word to describe it.
Her reply was "Thanks, study hard and get good results on ur exam"
Urh, it's not even good luck in ur exams, dont stress out urself, do ur best.
IT'S "GET GOOD RESULTS", it sounds like a command than wishing.
amboi, manalah aku boleh tak rasa stress untuk masa itu.
=( But i dont want to make myself stress out or study hard for the sake of making my parents happy.
If i wana study, i study for the sake of myself.
WHY cant my parents understand this. WHY cant they trust me on this.
WHY does studies and scoring good results become sth obligatory as a daughter.
-W-H-Y-
-S-I-G-H-
Now i guess, i know why i would get so stressed out if i were me last time.
But why am i calm now?
Is it cos i've already gave up?
Or is it just cos i've opened up myself to look upon further?
Knowing that there's no point studying for other's sake?
I dont know.. You tell me.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
-现实-Truth-
"我真的很喜欢她的思想 好像一种鼓励一样 她比我勇敢"
Hahaha. Well, I don't think i deserve that cos' i aint that courageous. But really, thank you, it's encouraging. =)
That's indeed what i wanted whoever's reading my blog to feel like, not so much of feeling encouraged, but more of finding a peace in mind here. whether it's the music or layout or certain sentences...
Im glad i've actually done it unconsciously.
And thank you for regarding me as a special person. It means a lot to me and friends like that dont come along often. Hence, i treasure you. ^^ *hearts*
Hahaha. Well, I don't think i deserve that cos' i aint that courageous. But really, thank you, it's encouraging. =)
That's indeed what i wanted whoever's reading my blog to feel like, not so much of feeling encouraged, but more of finding a peace in mind here. whether it's the music or layout or certain sentences...
Im glad i've actually done it unconsciously.
And thank you for regarding me as a special person. It means a lot to me and friends like that dont come along often. Hence, i treasure you. ^^ *hearts*
(I still don't know what made you feel good about reading my blog post, cos i thought it's more of ranting than anything else. Hmmmm.. and i've a feeling this is goina be a long post.)
I know I tend to be pretty philosophical sometimes. Coming up with phrases and all. And there's always this person who just hit me right on my face, either disagreeing or just not fascinated at all. Indeed, I dont like people disagreeing with me. Plus I'm pretty stubborn a girl. HAHA. Seriously, I admit. Of course, I've learn that, insisting is not persistence.
Ugly truth's not nice to listen to. Nevertheless, it's the truth. We all like to listen to those sweet flowery words. We'd rather lie to ourselves, blind ourselves with the pretty dreams and reluctant to see the truth which lies beneath.
It's like having expectations.
Chyi:
"when you're sad or angry, it's cos you'd expected better, or maybe things turned out totally unexpected, in a bad way.
when you're satisfied and contented, it's cos things turn out the way you'd expected it to.
when you're happy and delighted, it's prob cos things turned out better than you thought it would, in other words unexpected, but in a good way.
when you miss someone, it's cos you hope he/she is there with you. and hope, is a form of emotional and sometimes irrational expectation.
when you're disappointed with a movie, its cos you had certain preconception and checklist boxes you'd tick off. and what are they? expectations.
and when you wake up to a red sky in the morning, its scary and amazing and it makes headlines, cos you wouldnt expect to see that.
name me a feeling which doesnt arise from expectations."
When things don't turn out the way you wanted, or at least appear the way you wanted, you tend to refuse to give in. You tend to be reluctant to change your point of view, not to mention it takes some time. And how much time it takes for you to accustom to it, it all depends on individual.
In physics, this is call the "inertia" - the tendency of a body at rest to remain at rest or of a body in straight line motion to stay in motion in a straight line unless acted on by an outside force. -lol-
NONETHELESS, you're goina wake up one day, realising it no longer mean a thing to insist on sth u believe which aint the truth, aint reality.
-Insisting is NOT persistence-
谢谢你对我的现实
让我接受了这个事实
让我解放了自己
我不再痛了
Reality hits you hard on the ground, he says. Though I still strongly believe it's alright to dream. It's just a matter of striving a balance. Right?
it's a lazay sunday, sunny afternoon ^,^
i wish i am there.
But i know even if Im there, it wouldn't make a difference.
But i know even if Im there, it wouldn't make a difference.
Bic Runga - Listening for the weather
So I'm listening for the weather to predict the coming day
Leave all thought of expectation to the weather man
No it doesn't really matter what it is he has to say
'Cause tomorrows keep on blowing in from somewhere
All the people that I know in the apartments down below
Busy with their starring roles in their own tragedies
Sunlight sends you on your way
And those restless thoughts that cling to yesterday
Never be afraid of change
I'm calling on the phone
I hate to leave you on your own
But I'm coming home today
And this busy inner city
Has got nothing much to say
And I know how much you're hanging round the letterbox
And I'm sure that as I'm writing
You'll be somewhere on your way
In a supermarket checkout or the restaurant
I've been doing what I'm told
I've been busy growing old
And the days are getting cold but that's alright with me
Sunlight sends you on your way
And those restless thoughts that cling to yesterday
Never be afraid of change
I'm calling on the phone
I hate to leave you on your own
But I'm coming home today
Yes I'm coming home today
Friday, November 13, 2009
Listening for the weather.
i slept at like 4+am yesterday.
surprisingly im not feeling tired.
maybe just not yet.
damn sien sia.
in library now.
didnt bring my laptop =/
stupid cisco cannot connect my hp to internet.
*pout*
everybody's not arnd..
and it's raining again.
i dont know what to do now. =/
im like waiting for sms msgs to come in...
But the phone just doesnt ring a sound. =/
surprisingly im not feeling tired.
maybe just not yet.
damn sien sia.
in library now.
didnt bring my laptop =/
stupid cisco cannot connect my hp to internet.
*pout*
everybody's not arnd..
and it's raining again.
i dont know what to do now. =/
im like waiting for sms msgs to come in...
But the phone just doesnt ring a sound. =/
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Moving moving.
shifting house.
from tiong bahru to tanah merah.
Woke up in a larger hse today. (comparatively, it's larger than tiong bahru's though it's not comparable to seri aman heights' =/ )
and there was only me in the whole house. =(
the noises.. the nagging... all gone.
Hmmm. I guess i got the answer to my question. In a reverse way. Yeah.
I've been asking this question lately,
"If one day you guys woke up, realising that my existence was only a dream. How would you feel? Would it be a beautiful dream or is my existence a nightmare?"
It somewhat felt like past few days were just a part of my dream when i woke up. Especially when i woke up in a place 9 floors up with beautiful view and cool morning breeze.
Indeed, it felt like i was having holidays.
Im sorry dad and mom for not being able to help much.
zhe4 ji3 tian1 ni3 men3 xin1 ku3 le.
But i was so frustrated with my studies and couldnt bare my mom's constant nagging or talking at least, with my brothers argueing every moment and using my laptop at times...
At mama's place, with my family around. It totally felt like holiday. At least, it used to be so.
Cousins, singapore, tanah merah, food.. lol.
Now everything's reversed. Malaysia, big hse, 1U, desa aman puri, desa parkcity, collegemates... Now all THOSE are my holidays.
I'll just hafta get use to this fact.
Sigh, you know whenever im in MRT or walking, i'll have so many things that i wana write in the blog and when im HERE, i forgot everything that i wana write?
Eesh.
Anyways, final's starting next week. It's exam period. Woosh. WORK HARD ppl!
Lol. Tell me abt it~
SIGH, no internet at home yet! =(
AND I GOTTA GO! Im goina be stuck at home for 4 hours watching those ppl fixing the defects. =/
wana sleep also cannot. wana study also i bet i cant concentrate. Gotta pack my stuff anyways.
Till then. Toodoos.
P.S. I cant wait for exams to be over and holidays to come!! =D
Who says you don't have a friend? You have me. And you'll always have me. =)
from tiong bahru to tanah merah.
Woke up in a larger hse today. (comparatively, it's larger than tiong bahru's though it's not comparable to seri aman heights' =/ )
and there was only me in the whole house. =(
the noises.. the nagging... all gone.
Hmmm. I guess i got the answer to my question. In a reverse way. Yeah.
I've been asking this question lately,
"If one day you guys woke up, realising that my existence was only a dream. How would you feel? Would it be a beautiful dream or is my existence a nightmare?"
It somewhat felt like past few days were just a part of my dream when i woke up. Especially when i woke up in a place 9 floors up with beautiful view and cool morning breeze.
Indeed, it felt like i was having holidays.
Im sorry dad and mom for not being able to help much.
zhe4 ji3 tian1 ni3 men3 xin1 ku3 le.
But i was so frustrated with my studies and couldnt bare my mom's constant nagging or talking at least, with my brothers argueing every moment and using my laptop at times...
At mama's place, with my family around. It totally felt like holiday. At least, it used to be so.
Cousins, singapore, tanah merah, food.. lol.
Now everything's reversed. Malaysia, big hse, 1U, desa aman puri, desa parkcity, collegemates... Now all THOSE are my holidays.
I'll just hafta get use to this fact.
Sigh, you know whenever im in MRT or walking, i'll have so many things that i wana write in the blog and when im HERE, i forgot everything that i wana write?
Eesh.
Anyways, final's starting next week. It's exam period. Woosh. WORK HARD ppl!
Lol. Tell me abt it~
SIGH, no internet at home yet! =(
AND I GOTTA GO! Im goina be stuck at home for 4 hours watching those ppl fixing the defects. =/
wana sleep also cannot. wana study also i bet i cant concentrate. Gotta pack my stuff anyways.
Till then. Toodoos.
P.S. I cant wait for exams to be over and holidays to come!! =D
Who says you don't have a friend? You have me. And you'll always have me. =)
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Im fuckin pissed.
I never even dropped my LG phone once and i freaking took care of it as if it's more precious than my life!
They freaking dropped my phone! Thank god it's still alright, or else i'll f**king kill them alright.
I was already pissed at myself for that stupid usb cover, it's like a small flap and broke into half. It was still usable till i used superglue trying to stick them back. URGH. Everytime i mention about this i get freaking pissed off. I went to the LG shop today. Freaking useless ppl. Ask him if there's way to polish off the superglue stains. He did the stupidest thing ever. Urgh gosh.
And replacing that freaking small TINY flap costs $27.89!
-FORGET IT-
i'll just hafta accept the fact that the phone's like that and i cant change nething.
I was glad my dad didnt say much. cos i was so worried he'll say i duno how to take care of my phone and all, COS it's so not true!!!!
I freaking use the cover and always place it in the pouch.
AND so, to any of u who sees my phone in future, dont freaking mention about those stuff or say i dont know how to jaga my phone cos i'll be freaking piss. I swear.
*Breathe*
and i wasted so much of my time today to compromise for others. So, now im pissed at myself for not studying. URGH. monday got test and physics assignment due. AND i only have sunday left. I wanted to use my laptop to study but they just kept using my laptop.
ARGH.
ARGH
ARGH
ARGH
ARGH
*Breathe*
okay, let's talk abt sth happier. Well, i was excited to see my brothers and mom. Even felt like hugging my brothers. Which aint really possible. Cos it'd be weird.
and im really hoping he'll come down. Im really anticipating. But i dont want disappointments. So i'll keep my expectations to the lowest.
You see! Once im pissed off, that stupid thyroid is rebelling! I just cant control myself!
='(
SIGH. okay. "What has happened, has happened, there's no point sulking upon it. Might as well use the time sulking of it the come up with a solution."
That's what u said right Jinni?
Uush. Okay. Go study!
Toodoos.
I never even dropped my LG phone once and i freaking took care of it as if it's more precious than my life!
They freaking dropped my phone! Thank god it's still alright, or else i'll f**king kill them alright.
I was already pissed at myself for that stupid usb cover, it's like a small flap and broke into half. It was still usable till i used superglue trying to stick them back. URGH. Everytime i mention about this i get freaking pissed off. I went to the LG shop today. Freaking useless ppl. Ask him if there's way to polish off the superglue stains. He did the stupidest thing ever. Urgh gosh.
And replacing that freaking small TINY flap costs $27.89!
-FORGET IT-
i'll just hafta accept the fact that the phone's like that and i cant change nething.
I was glad my dad didnt say much. cos i was so worried he'll say i duno how to take care of my phone and all, COS it's so not true!!!!
I freaking use the cover and always place it in the pouch.
AND so, to any of u who sees my phone in future, dont freaking mention about those stuff or say i dont know how to jaga my phone cos i'll be freaking piss. I swear.
*Breathe*
and i wasted so much of my time today to compromise for others. So, now im pissed at myself for not studying. URGH. monday got test and physics assignment due. AND i only have sunday left. I wanted to use my laptop to study but they just kept using my laptop.
ARGH.
ARGH
ARGH
ARGH
ARGH
*Breathe*
okay, let's talk abt sth happier. Well, i was excited to see my brothers and mom. Even felt like hugging my brothers. Which aint really possible. Cos it'd be weird.
and im really hoping he'll come down. Im really anticipating. But i dont want disappointments. So i'll keep my expectations to the lowest.
You see! Once im pissed off, that stupid thyroid is rebelling! I just cant control myself!
='(
SIGH. okay. "What has happened, has happened, there's no point sulking upon it. Might as well use the time sulking of it the come up with a solution."
That's what u said right Jinni?
Uush. Okay. Go study!
Toodoos.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Finish physics CA, 2 more to go, then finals!
woot~
Lol. I dont know why im hyper.
Muahahaha.
Eh damn happy leh.
thank god i didnt study much yesterday.
Cos study memang no use wan. Just need to understand the concept. Other than that, it really depends on u and ur brain on solving problems ady.
urgh. having slight period pain though. LOL. im like announcing to the whole world.
Alaa. it's normal wert. Dont tell me u never study science.
Im loving Johann Sebastian Bach--Brandenburg Concerto collections. ^^ ♥
and andre rieu ♥
and akim camara too!! ♥ so adorable. I was stunned when i watch this. Like really didnt breathe for a second! lol.
(muahahaha, i finally know how to type the symbol ♥)
Be amazed. Whoosh.
Well, he started performing when he was only 3! When we were lil babies, he could do such amazing stuff!
WHEN HE WAS ONLY 3...
Adorable huh? lol.
So if u watched the top video first and then 2nd, u realised how much he improved in terms of performance and maturity?? Com'on, talking about maturity of a boy from 3 years old to 5 years old?
Ain't it just amazing to have people like akim camara and emily bear?
Gosh. If i have only half of their talent, i'd be so grateful already!
woot~ relaxing time for me again~ muAHAHA! also means time to spend money. tsk tsk.
Lol. I dont know why im hyper.
Muahahaha.
Eh damn happy leh.
thank god i didnt study much yesterday.
Cos study memang no use wan. Just need to understand the concept. Other than that, it really depends on u and ur brain on solving problems ady.
urgh. having slight period pain though. LOL. im like announcing to the whole world.
Alaa. it's normal wert. Dont tell me u never study science.
Im loving Johann Sebastian Bach--Brandenburg Concerto collections. ^^ ♥
and andre rieu ♥
and akim camara too!! ♥ so adorable. I was stunned when i watch this. Like really didnt breathe for a second! lol.
(muahahaha, i finally know how to type the symbol ♥)
Be amazed. Whoosh.
Well, he started performing when he was only 3! When we were lil babies, he could do such amazing stuff!
WHEN HE WAS ONLY 3...
Adorable huh? lol.
So if u watched the top video first and then 2nd, u realised how much he improved in terms of performance and maturity?? Com'on, talking about maturity of a boy from 3 years old to 5 years old?
Ain't it just amazing to have people like akim camara and emily bear?
Gosh. If i have only half of their talent, i'd be so grateful already!
woot~ relaxing time for me again~ muAHAHA! also means time to spend money. tsk tsk.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Dont u just wana spin around and dance in the air?
Before you listen to this,
STOP everything u're doing.
focus on nth but the music.
Feel yourself spinning around, floating in the air.
Aaaa...
Hope you enjoy it as much as I do ^^,
梦想
我堅持的 都值得堅持嗎?
我所相信的 就是真的嗎?
如果我趕追求 我就敢擁有嗎?
而如果都算了 不要呢?
或許吧 或許我太天真了吧
屬於我的昨天之前的結局 我決定我的決定
屬於我的明天之後的憧憬 我迷信我的迷信
波折
該來的就來吧
為什麼不敢呢 害怕呢?
我們一起努力飛翔 好嗎?
我所相信的 就是真的嗎?
如果我趕追求 我就敢擁有嗎?
而如果都算了 不要呢?
或許吧 或許我太天真了吧
屬於我的昨天之前的結局 我決定我的決定
屬於我的明天之後的憧憬 我迷信我的迷信
波折
該來的就來吧
為什麼不敢呢 害怕呢?
我們一起努力飛翔 好嗎?
Sunday, November 1, 2009
I need you
Hey peeps. I know i havent been updating for a while.
Got quite a lot to update.
BUT. Dont know.. Maybe im just a lil lazy..
Hopefully i'll space out some time to actually sit down and start typing and putting up some pics.
which i doubt it'd be anytime soon. cos of finals and all.
and i've slacked enough.
it's been quite some time after that day.
A lil emo or down now. Ah, i dont know why. It's just a phase.
wo3 ye3 ma2 mu4 le hen3 jiu3. bu4 zhi1 shi4 wei4 he2, tu1 ran2 jian1 xiang3 qi3 ta1, you3 shao3 xu3 de4 gua4 nian4.
Neways, wish me luck for exams n stuff. Jian1 chi2!
Jia you yan jing ni!
wo3 dao4 di3 shi4 zhen3 me4 le? zhe4 ji3 ge4 xing1 qi1 biao3 xian4 de2 hen3 hao3 ya! ji4 xu4 jia1 you2 ba! =) .. =( Aaa!
Jia you yan jing ni!
Till then, hope to see u guys soon ;) Aaaaaaa =D
I hope somewhere around the corner of this Earth, YOU are silently praying for me, supporting me. and i'll do the same.
Got quite a lot to update.
BUT. Dont know.. Maybe im just a lil lazy..
Hopefully i'll space out some time to actually sit down and start typing and putting up some pics.
which i doubt it'd be anytime soon. cos of finals and all.
and i've slacked enough.
it's been quite some time after that day.
A lil emo or down now. Ah, i dont know why. It's just a phase.
wo3 ye3 ma2 mu4 le hen3 jiu3. bu4 zhi1 shi4 wei4 he2, tu1 ran2 jian1 xiang3 qi3 ta1, you3 shao3 xu3 de4 gua4 nian4.
Neways, wish me luck for exams n stuff. Jian1 chi2!
Jia you yan jing ni!
wo3 dao4 di3 shi4 zhen3 me4 le? zhe4 ji3 ge4 xing1 qi1 biao3 xian4 de2 hen3 hao3 ya! ji4 xu4 jia1 you2 ba! =) .. =( Aaa!
Jia you yan jing ni!
Till then, hope to see u guys soon ;) Aaaaaaa =D
I hope somewhere around the corner of this Earth, YOU are silently praying for me, supporting me. and i'll do the same.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Like a fool, we kept losing our way
ni zhi dao ma, dang wo zai zui gu dan, ji mo, pi lei, xu ruo de shi hou, hao xi wang you yi ge ren hui chu xian, bao hu wo, an fu wo...
dan shi, wo zhi dao shi bu ke neng you zhe zhong shi. yin wei zhe, tai guo meng huan le.
ceng jing you yi ge ren gao shu wo, ni yao de dong xi, dou tai guo meng huan le. zhi you zai ou xiang ju li bian huo zhe meng zhong cai ke yi fa sheng. ye xu, zai zhe ge shi jie shang, bing bu shi wan quan bu ke neng fa sheng, ke shi fa sheng zai wo shen shang de ji lu, kong pa zhen de zhi you na me de yi dian dian er.
Well, u know, it took me quite some time to struck me thinking, oh yea man, IM IN UNIVERSITY already. Com'on, this is the moment i waited long enough to reach. But well, it's nth like i imagined.
Even right down to entering the uni, it was all a rush. And time has just passed like a whirlwind just in a blink of an eye. Every week reaches friday so fast and then it's weekend and before you even realise, it's friday again. Days passed, weeks passed, months passed.
So what have we been doing?
Bobo, kiat and I were having dinner together just now. Kiat was pretty stressed out with his workloads. I can tell bobo aint any better. Hah, what's more about me. Though i dont feel stressed out today. But im sure that feeling's goina come arnd soon. Im having tests and etc too. Before you even know, final's just around the corner.
Life's just monotonous. We're going through what we're going through everyday, every week. Just waiting and hoping for time to pass. Waiting and hoping for it to end.
A bit pointless heh?
I need sports. seriously. activities. I dont care how. Im definitely goina join next sem. Im goina apply for hall. I really really hope they'll approve one for me. Urgh. Give someone who needs it more, someone like me la! Than giving those living across the street and still drive around in uni! Idiots.
Sigh. Im not goina complain and I know, few years down the road. I'll be completely on my own. I'll be working. I'll be feeding myself. Probably start feeding my parents too. HAHA.
So i'll just hafta get use to living alone and be independent. As much as i've always hope for miracles, im not complaining and i'll be tough.
Uush. Uush.
wo men yi qi jia you ba. ;)
sometimes, i really wondered, would everything be totally different if ever i went for another choice. =) ?
dan shi, wo zhi dao shi bu ke neng you zhe zhong shi. yin wei zhe, tai guo meng huan le.
ceng jing you yi ge ren gao shu wo, ni yao de dong xi, dou tai guo meng huan le. zhi you zai ou xiang ju li bian huo zhe meng zhong cai ke yi fa sheng. ye xu, zai zhe ge shi jie shang, bing bu shi wan quan bu ke neng fa sheng, ke shi fa sheng zai wo shen shang de ji lu, kong pa zhen de zhi you na me de yi dian dian er.
Well, u know, it took me quite some time to struck me thinking, oh yea man, IM IN UNIVERSITY already. Com'on, this is the moment i waited long enough to reach. But well, it's nth like i imagined.
Even right down to entering the uni, it was all a rush. And time has just passed like a whirlwind just in a blink of an eye. Every week reaches friday so fast and then it's weekend and before you even realise, it's friday again. Days passed, weeks passed, months passed.
So what have we been doing?
Bobo, kiat and I were having dinner together just now. Kiat was pretty stressed out with his workloads. I can tell bobo aint any better. Hah, what's more about me. Though i dont feel stressed out today. But im sure that feeling's goina come arnd soon. Im having tests and etc too. Before you even know, final's just around the corner.
Life's just monotonous. We're going through what we're going through everyday, every week. Just waiting and hoping for time to pass. Waiting and hoping for it to end.
A bit pointless heh?
I need sports. seriously. activities. I dont care how. Im definitely goina join next sem. Im goina apply for hall. I really really hope they'll approve one for me. Urgh. Give someone who needs it more, someone like me la! Than giving those living across the street and still drive around in uni! Idiots.
Sigh. Im not goina complain and I know, few years down the road. I'll be completely on my own. I'll be working. I'll be feeding myself. Probably start feeding my parents too. HAHA.
So i'll just hafta get use to living alone and be independent. As much as i've always hope for miracles, im not complaining and i'll be tough.
Uush. Uush.
wo men yi qi jia you ba. ;)
sometimes, i really wondered, would everything be totally different if ever i went for another choice. =) ?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Bad shoe day
Haha, haihz, had another bad shoe day.
(Okay... laughing then sighing is so contradicting "haha, haihz"? lol)
I feel a lil drained. I slept till almost 8pm since i reached home. And i was feeling ultimately blur when i woke up. Then reluctantly showered and watched another episode of drama. Some hilariously foolish drama. But i like the actor =P woot~
And so, i have 2 blisters on each foot which makes a total of 4.
(Yeah, just in case u forgot how to count)
Woke up looking like a panda, my eyes looked horrible.
Day was overall fine. Just the blisters, fatigue, the feeling of mismatch-ness.. Hmmm. Cos of that stupid shoe la. N also... acquaintance. Yeah.
Guess the world just has too many people of different characters and... Urgh. I dont know what i wana say. I just didnt like that. It just kills my passion.
Are people here all like that? Why?
SIGH. Im sure there'll be minority. My task is turn the minority to majority. Hmmm. How can I do that? Is it even possible?
I honestly doubt my abilities. But, i guess i'll do what i can do then we'd see if we can go on further.
"To demonstrate lofty disdain does not make oneself more superior or smarter but instead contemns himself in return."-Jinni
(Okay... laughing then sighing is so contradicting "haha, haihz"? lol)
I feel a lil drained. I slept till almost 8pm since i reached home. And i was feeling ultimately blur when i woke up. Then reluctantly showered and watched another episode of drama. Some hilariously foolish drama. But i like the actor =P woot~
And so, i have 2 blisters on each foot which makes a total of 4.
(Yeah, just in case u forgot how to count)
Woke up looking like a panda, my eyes looked horrible.
Day was overall fine. Just the blisters, fatigue, the feeling of mismatch-ness.. Hmmm. Cos of that stupid shoe la. N also... acquaintance. Yeah.
Guess the world just has too many people of different characters and... Urgh. I dont know what i wana say. I just didnt like that. It just kills my passion.
Are people here all like that? Why?
SIGH. Im sure there'll be minority. My task is turn the minority to majority. Hmmm. How can I do that? Is it even possible?
I honestly doubt my abilities. But, i guess i'll do what i can do then we'd see if we can go on further.
"To demonstrate lofty disdain does not make oneself more superior or smarter but instead contemns himself in return."-Jinni
HAHA =D
I feel so happy!
Cos i finally changed the songs in my blog!
The previous ones were like a temporary entertainment till i finally get to replace em, like now!! =D =D =D
woot!
ENJOY!
I just LOVE the first song! It's so jolly and it makes me wana dance. I hope it brings joy to ya all too (3
Of course, listen to the next 3 songs too. =) it's all instrumental, but im lovin' em.
Cos i finally changed the songs in my blog!
The previous ones were like a temporary entertainment till i finally get to replace em, like now!! =D =D =D
woot!
ENJOY!
I just LOVE the first song! It's so jolly and it makes me wana dance. I hope it brings joy to ya all too (3
Of course, listen to the next 3 songs too. =) it's all instrumental, but im lovin' em.
Monday, October 19, 2009
It's up to you.
life's never goina be a smooth sailing all the way u see.
At this very moment, u're floating in the air and all, the next very moment, u might just trip..
Or viewing from a slightly positive perspective, at this very moment u tripped, and the next very moment, you see beautiful stars surrounding you =D
(i meant flying in the sky in another way, NOT seeing stars cos u tripped. LOL)
I broke my textbook CD accidentally. IT was really REALLY out of the blue when i was boarding the bus. SIGH. No point saying anything further anyways.
I shall see how i can fix it.
There are plenty of stuff which u wish u wouldnt want to face in life but they just come lining up one after another for u.
And they always come in packages. In the package, there's this thing called "choice".
Then you'll have to deal with the "choice" you picked.
The hardest part is to decide which to pick and then the path that follows.
Moreover, the package does not comes with warranty... So yeah... you know what i mean~ ;)
Oh well, according to principle of economics #1, "The Scarcity Principle", having more of one good means having one less of another.
Yep. So weigh your priorities... which is of more significance to you?
Nobody really has the rights to judge your priorities BUT you.
SO, mi amore, what have you picked?
At this very moment, u're floating in the air and all, the next very moment, u might just trip..
Or viewing from a slightly positive perspective, at this very moment u tripped, and the next very moment, you see beautiful stars surrounding you =D
(i meant flying in the sky in another way, NOT seeing stars cos u tripped. LOL)
I broke my textbook CD accidentally. IT was really REALLY out of the blue when i was boarding the bus. SIGH. No point saying anything further anyways.
I shall see how i can fix it.
There are plenty of stuff which u wish u wouldnt want to face in life but they just come lining up one after another for u.
And they always come in packages. In the package, there's this thing called "choice".
Then you'll have to deal with the "choice" you picked.
The hardest part is to decide which to pick and then the path that follows.
Moreover, the package does not comes with warranty... So yeah... you know what i mean~ ;)
Oh well, according to principle of economics #1, "The Scarcity Principle", having more of one good means having one less of another.
Yep. So weigh your priorities... which is of more significance to you?
Nobody really has the rights to judge your priorities BUT you.
SO, mi amore, what have you picked?
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Weekly routine
Hello.. I wanted to say good morning but i just realised it's almost 3pm.
Yeah, i woke up pretty late.
Actually, i woke up several times and continue to sleep and woke up at 1.30pm.
I had a dream and woke up abt 11.30am. Wanted to blog about it. But chose to continue to sleep.
cos i didnt wana wake up to the reality.
Haha, that dream was weird but not in a bad way i guess.
Somehow, haha, i wont tell u the whole content, but yea, if im not mistaken, it's plotted at my old house back in selayang. Weird huh.. Me and jye were leaving, or at least supposed to, go U.S. for studies or sth... In the end sth happened.. and we were back at home and blaa blaa blaa... LOL.
Then i woke up with my eyes still closing, covered under the blanket, not knowing the sun's already shining on my butt, metaphorically, and for a moment i thought i was sleeping on my bed at home in sg buloh, in msia.. For a moment, i pondered. Where am i?
To the realization of I AM ALONE in sgpore, i chose to go back to sleep. LOL.
(Maybe cos my whole family was in that dream and i even remembered i was trying to call kevin to tell him im leaving but he didnt pick up the phone. It made me felt like im in msia. And when i realised im not, i suddenly realise i havent seen my brothers and my mother for quite some time, i kinda miss them. Haha=) Yeah, that's always the case. U wont miss them when they're arnd u. )
Yeah.. SO, every weekend, i'll face the same old problem. I dont know what to eat. There's nth much, other than instant noodles that i can eat at home which i chose not to. Nevertheless, im too lazy to walk all the way out just to get a breakfast or lunch or dinner.. First of all, i waste that precious time which i can work on assignments; 2nd of all, i'll need to use money which im trying to save on ( i know it's not the right way.. but... =P ) ; 3rd of all, i just have no mood to get out and eat alone, i guess.. =)
Hence, i usually eat only one meal which i call it lunner (lunch+dinner) in the evening during the weekends. I'll survive on a cup of milo for my breakfast. Yep.
Every friday night, i'll feel extraordinarily lonely. Cos my dad goes back to msia every friday. So i either get to see him on thurs night before he leaves or friday morning. Every saturday... I'll start slacking.. Eventhough i told myself i had to study. Every sunday is the assignment day. haha. Which i always struggle to finish 30% of my assignment which is due on monday. =P
Assignments... Physics assignments... It just annoys u because there's so many questions and it takes a toll out of your time. It makes u sit whole day in front of the laptop and makes u go crazy. Doing physics assignments=Sacrificing time for other subjects.
AND so, i gotta get started with my work after slacking the whole day yesterday. I should have just declare saturdays as my off day. HOHO. Then i wouldnt feel guilty.
Yea, you know what, actually that's a good idea. Maybe i'll motivate myself to work harder during the weekdays to reward myself on Saturday.
HAHA, say only. We'll see if it works.
Time to update my organizer. All the CAs (continual assessments) coming up.. Uush.
Alright, till then!
(gtg toilet, coffee taking effect... @.@ haha!)
Yeah, i woke up pretty late.
Actually, i woke up several times and continue to sleep and woke up at 1.30pm.
I had a dream and woke up abt 11.30am. Wanted to blog about it. But chose to continue to sleep.
cos i didnt wana wake up to the reality.
Haha, that dream was weird but not in a bad way i guess.
Somehow, haha, i wont tell u the whole content, but yea, if im not mistaken, it's plotted at my old house back in selayang. Weird huh.. Me and jye were leaving, or at least supposed to, go U.S. for studies or sth... In the end sth happened.. and we were back at home and blaa blaa blaa... LOL.
Then i woke up with my eyes still closing, covered under the blanket, not knowing the sun's already shining on my butt, metaphorically, and for a moment i thought i was sleeping on my bed at home in sg buloh, in msia.. For a moment, i pondered. Where am i?
To the realization of I AM ALONE in sgpore, i chose to go back to sleep. LOL.
(Maybe cos my whole family was in that dream and i even remembered i was trying to call kevin to tell him im leaving but he didnt pick up the phone. It made me felt like im in msia. And when i realised im not, i suddenly realise i havent seen my brothers and my mother for quite some time, i kinda miss them. Haha=) Yeah, that's always the case. U wont miss them when they're arnd u. )
Yeah.. SO, every weekend, i'll face the same old problem. I dont know what to eat. There's nth much, other than instant noodles that i can eat at home which i chose not to. Nevertheless, im too lazy to walk all the way out just to get a breakfast or lunch or dinner.. First of all, i waste that precious time which i can work on assignments; 2nd of all, i'll need to use money which im trying to save on ( i know it's not the right way.. but... =P ) ; 3rd of all, i just have no mood to get out and eat alone, i guess.. =)
Hence, i usually eat only one meal which i call it lunner (lunch+dinner) in the evening during the weekends. I'll survive on a cup of milo for my breakfast. Yep.
Every friday night, i'll feel extraordinarily lonely. Cos my dad goes back to msia every friday. So i either get to see him on thurs night before he leaves or friday morning. Every saturday... I'll start slacking.. Eventhough i told myself i had to study. Every sunday is the assignment day. haha. Which i always struggle to finish 30% of my assignment which is due on monday. =P
Assignments... Physics assignments... It just annoys u because there's so many questions and it takes a toll out of your time. It makes u sit whole day in front of the laptop and makes u go crazy. Doing physics assignments=Sacrificing time for other subjects.
AND so, i gotta get started with my work after slacking the whole day yesterday. I should have just declare saturdays as my off day. HOHO. Then i wouldnt feel guilty.
Yea, you know what, actually that's a good idea. Maybe i'll motivate myself to work harder during the weekdays to reward myself on Saturday.
HAHA, say only. We'll see if it works.
Time to update my organizer. All the CAs (continual assessments) coming up.. Uush.
Alright, till then!
(gtg toilet, coffee taking effect... @.@ haha!)
autumn's concerto! me lovin' it
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! it's 5 am and i still havent sleep!!!!!
not cos im studying but cos im getting so addicted to "autumn's concerto"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
LOL.
it's damn nice it's damn nice!!!!!
ahahahahaha, ok la, fine la, i like this kinda drama..
Typical but well,
it makes me hyper!
makes me cry, makes me laugh, makes me scream!
ahahaha.
i slacked the whole day today.
Didnt do any work at all.
woot!
watch 2 movies and few shows and now this drama! aaaaaaaaaa. Havent been doing all these for long long time. Im lovin' it.
BUT BUT BUT.... what abt my procrastinated work...
BUT BUT BUT... i've been working on it for a week... with no leisure... though it wasnt much of a work done...
haha. im hyper. shit la. how to sleep. 5am and im hungry.
not cos im studying but cos im getting so addicted to "autumn's concerto"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
LOL.
it's damn nice it's damn nice!!!!!
ahahahahaha, ok la, fine la, i like this kinda drama..
Typical but well,
it makes me hyper!
makes me cry, makes me laugh, makes me scream!
ahahaha.
i slacked the whole day today.
Didnt do any work at all.
woot!
watch 2 movies and few shows and now this drama! aaaaaaaaaa. Havent been doing all these for long long time. Im lovin' it.
BUT BUT BUT.... what abt my procrastinated work...
BUT BUT BUT... i've been working on it for a week... with no leisure... though it wasnt much of a work done...
haha. im hyper. shit la. how to sleep. 5am and im hungry.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
She turned into a SWAN!
HAHA, i cant believe it.
I just watched a cartoon. A typical happy-ending-princess-fairy-tale.
Very cliche. Very predictable.
but well, hahahaha, i havent feel like a child for a loooong time. I havent watch a tv or movie or whatever nonsense for so DARN long......
Laugh like a kid and watch "The Swan Princess" on youtube.
Gee. =)
So typical.
Ahahahahaha.
Alright, gtg. Goina eat lunner with kiat. Havent ate anything since morning other than a cup of milo. Grrrhhh... hungry...
Ok, i have been slacking since ystrdy. Hopefully wont hang out till too late. N hopefully will be able to study tonight.
I just watched a cartoon. A typical happy-ending-princess-fairy-tale.
Very cliche. Very predictable.
but well, hahahaha, i havent feel like a child for a loooong time. I havent watch a tv or movie or whatever nonsense for so DARN long......
Laugh like a kid and watch "The Swan Princess" on youtube.
Gee. =)
So typical.
Ahahahahaha.
Alright, gtg. Goina eat lunner with kiat. Havent ate anything since morning other than a cup of milo. Grrrhhh... hungry...
Ok, i have been slacking since ystrdy. Hopefully wont hang out till too late. N hopefully will be able to study tonight.
Friday, October 16, 2009
ok, just when i wanted to take a nap in the library while listening to songs in my phone..
All the songs are those which would make me tear and think abt those moments.
emo emo songs. tsk.
SIGH.
sobs.
okay, maybe im just tired.
hmmm, let's think abt reasons for me to be happy about,
reason #1: today's weather damn nice! =)
reason #2: my hair smells good! =D
reason #3: my hair's so soft and smooth!!!! HAHA =D
reason #4: because life's life... and i gotta keep moving forward!
reason #5: im running out of reasons...
hahahaha. Hmmm, realised i've been blogging more often?
yeah, i realised that too... I guess.. I needed an outlet...... and. I'm just far from everyone.
Everyone has got their own life to worry about, right? =)
*cheers* the day will get better.
(cant u see im trying hard to make myself feel better when i know it's goina be another lonely night?)
All the songs are those which would make me tear and think abt those moments.
emo emo songs. tsk.
SIGH.
sobs.
okay, maybe im just tired.
hmmm, let's think abt reasons for me to be happy about,
reason #1: today's weather damn nice! =)
reason #2: my hair smells good! =D
reason #3: my hair's so soft and smooth!!!! HAHA =D
reason #4: because life's life... and i gotta keep moving forward!
reason #5: im running out of reasons...
hahahaha. Hmmm, realised i've been blogging more often?
yeah, i realised that too... I guess.. I needed an outlet...... and. I'm just far from everyone.
Everyone has got their own life to worry about, right? =)
*cheers* the day will get better.
(cant u see im trying hard to make myself feel better when i know it's goina be another lonely night?)
A lil reward for me =)
Muahaha, for being such a good girl lately, jinni shall get a reward of...
40 minutes online+double cheeseburger+koko crunch McFlurry!!! =D
woot!
Ah... today has been. hmmmm.. fulfilling? I dont know. I havent felt free for quite a while.
But I know i've done sth for the past few days, at least. HAHA.
Omgosh, i wonder how have everyone been.
"HOW ARE YOU ALL??! (3 hello..? anyone there?"
(alamak, tak de response pulak. OK, im like talking to myself... @@)
Lol.
Gosh. There are so many non-academic stuff that i wish to do.. But darn, i just hafta know my priorities.
And Im glad im still strong and doing well despite all the temptations.
Good job Jinni!! =D
Okay, i tried uploading pics, but it's darn freaking slow. And i've exceeded my time limit @@
haha.
Yeah, and so i hafta go to the library to study that econs textbook d... Tsk. Sigh.
i miss u all!
40 minutes online+double cheeseburger+koko crunch McFlurry!!! =D
woot!
Ah... today has been. hmmmm.. fulfilling? I dont know. I havent felt free for quite a while.
But I know i've done sth for the past few days, at least. HAHA.
Omgosh, i wonder how have everyone been.
"HOW ARE YOU ALL??! (3 hello..? anyone there?"
(alamak, tak de response pulak. OK, im like talking to myself... @@)
Lol.
Gosh. There are so many non-academic stuff that i wish to do.. But darn, i just hafta know my priorities.
And Im glad im still strong and doing well despite all the temptations.
Good job Jinni!! =D
Okay, i tried uploading pics, but it's darn freaking slow. And i've exceeded my time limit @@
haha.
Yeah, and so i hafta go to the library to study that econs textbook d... Tsk. Sigh.
i miss u all!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
=(
sobs. I am VERY tempted to go online... and slack...
I miss so many people... People that i would talk to online...
but i gotta persevere!! cos i know once i go online, i wont do my work or study...
i've too much to catch up on... i cant slack further.
Not with all the continual assessments coming up and the finals reaching... Ah!
motivate me will ya?
haHA.
=)
just these few weeks... Uush uush!!!
P.E.R.S.E.V.E.R.E
Cos life's life and we just hafta keep moving forward.
Be strong and keep going. You'll make it through. =)
I miss so many people... People that i would talk to online...
but i gotta persevere!! cos i know once i go online, i wont do my work or study...
i've too much to catch up on... i cant slack further.
Not with all the continual assessments coming up and the finals reaching... Ah!
motivate me will ya?
haHA.
=)
just these few weeks... Uush uush!!!
P.E.R.S.E.V.E.R.E
Cos life's life and we just hafta keep moving forward.
Be strong and keep going. You'll make it through. =)
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
feeling it more and more
I have decided not to go msn for at least a week. *cross fingers*
yeah, im feeling it. More and more work to catch up with.
the pressure.
I need to breathe. Therefore, I need to catch up with all those work.
I wish there's someone that can explain all the detail or teach me in a way that i'll understand for all the subjects at anytime at all.
GOSH, i wana complain! U know what, it's so annoying when u've hafta strain ur ears and exert all the force squeezing ur brain trying to interpret what the professors from some foreign country with weird heavy slang of english!!!!!!!!
The thing is, i don't even understand your english, how am i suppose to understand the content of what u're trying to convey!!!!!!!!
It's so freaking annoying!!!!!
I can't hear what u're trying to say, hence I dont get the main idea of the lecture or theory or whatever, hence I don't know what to write!
URGH URGH URGH.
Im not saying that the lecturers or tutors or professors arent good, in fact, they know their subject and content well or anything, it's just the language barrier u see!!
It's not like their english aint good either, it's JUST they speak with such a weird slang which i find it so hard to catch!!!!
I get neck ache whenever i tried my very best to listen to what they're saying because i'd try to stretch my neck and ears as close as possible to them BUT IT DOESNT HELP. Obviously right....
AND yea, so just now during the lab session, my mind was wandering away for a moment.... how i wish our brain works like computer, where knowledge are like files which are transferable or at least automatically translated into language we understand! OR at least process the words he is trying to say!!!
Then, i started visualising the type of study room i wana have. Muahaha. It's all in my imagination. But im goina make it real one day. =P
AAAAaaaa.... okay, im not goina come online often anymore. I hope u guys read this.
sigh sigh sigh. Im so darn freaking slack. I wasted too much of my time.
Alright alright. Time for econs. Im actually in the library...blogging @.@
LOL
Toodoos people.
Love ya all....
Reach me via e-mail or sms if u really need me.
yeah, im feeling it. More and more work to catch up with.
the pressure.
I need to breathe. Therefore, I need to catch up with all those work.
I wish there's someone that can explain all the detail or teach me in a way that i'll understand for all the subjects at anytime at all.
GOSH, i wana complain! U know what, it's so annoying when u've hafta strain ur ears and exert all the force squeezing ur brain trying to interpret what the professors from some foreign country with weird heavy slang of english!!!!!!!!
The thing is, i don't even understand your english, how am i suppose to understand the content of what u're trying to convey!!!!!!!!
It's so freaking annoying!!!!!
I can't hear what u're trying to say, hence I dont get the main idea of the lecture or theory or whatever, hence I don't know what to write!
URGH URGH URGH.
Im not saying that the lecturers or tutors or professors arent good, in fact, they know their subject and content well or anything, it's just the language barrier u see!!
It's not like their english aint good either, it's JUST they speak with such a weird slang which i find it so hard to catch!!!!
I get neck ache whenever i tried my very best to listen to what they're saying because i'd try to stretch my neck and ears as close as possible to them BUT IT DOESNT HELP. Obviously right....
AND yea, so just now during the lab session, my mind was wandering away for a moment.... how i wish our brain works like computer, where knowledge are like files which are transferable or at least automatically translated into language we understand! OR at least process the words he is trying to say!!!
Then, i started visualising the type of study room i wana have. Muahaha. It's all in my imagination. But im goina make it real one day. =P
AAAAaaaa.... okay, im not goina come online often anymore. I hope u guys read this.
sigh sigh sigh. Im so darn freaking slack. I wasted too much of my time.
Alright alright. Time for econs. Im actually in the library...blogging @.@
LOL
Toodoos people.
Love ya all....
Reach me via e-mail or sms if u really need me.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
mid autumn festival / mooncake festival
wish i could be there.
it reminds me of the things we do when we were younger.
today is a festive where family get together you see...
BUT kiat and i are stuck here in singapore.
and i wouldnt blame us for getting emo watching those kids playing with lantern, lil fire crackers, candles...
Initially, i still felt alright. But pics my cousin bro uploaded into facebook made me tear.
Haha. Yeah appreciate those times where a big family get to spend time together. Really.
It's only when u're far away that u'll feel it.
Well, thank god im not TOO far away.
Sigh. As much as i wish to write more and post about stuffz happening these few days, im really tired now.
and i still have 2 physics assignment and a formal lab report to finish up. Not forgetting to catch up with the lecture. Right now, i guess im too tired for those.
and I'm sad. =( lol.
sO, im goina sleep now and wake up early in the morning and tataaa!!! it's a brand new day! which i gotta start working hard. Good luck with it jinni! U can do it! Uush.
Yeah... Last but not least, happy mid autumn festival!
*cherish every moment u have and had.*
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
retail therapy with my bro! ;)
Hmmm. Yesterday morning, went to bank to redraw money. Afterthat i went to coffee bean.
That's when i posted the previous post.
Went to pick up kor (vincent) much later from train station. Went to college to settle some stuff and surrender my student card.
Hence the picture below. =D (oh wells, memories)
HAHA. my hairstyle that time damn funny. sumore highlighted. tsk tsk. like those notti girl. yikes.AFTER EVERYTHING'S DONE, IT'S SHOPPING TIME!!! WOOHOO! RETAIL THERAPY. MUAHAX. MUAHAX!
At pull&bear
kor looking like vampire at fish&co.
i belanja makan. it's his birthday treat. (belated) =P
we ate seafood platter for 2. =D
muahahaha. muahahahaha. Hot hot me~ psssst. at Kitschen. LOL.
The pic above: That freaking dress from Armani Exchange (AX) costs RM669! And i freaking bought it, NOT!!! Crazy ah. Don't u think it's so not worth it. It's like i can buy freaking 11 pieces of the previous dress and they look almost the same to me!!
TSK TSK. brands...
HA. How'd u feel with a piece of dress worth RM669 on u?
(above) It's a corset from Bebe. Price: RM400+.
AND it's not possible to bent ur upper body after wearing it cos it's hard! like wearing a metal arnd u like that. tsk. But it looks pretty hot. =P
me and kor camwhore when the shops were closing. As usual...
RETARDED KOR. AS USUAL.
Kor getting excited with bras. =P
In car, leaving 1U shopping centre.
Aiyerh! sso cute! like small boy!
See that metal butterfly hairband? Nice nice?
awww, such lovely sisters. =P
WAKE UP!!
JUST WOKE UP.
took a few videos. wanted to upload. but nahhhh. sensitive words in it. tsk.
P.S. : i bought none of the clothes above! LOL. But i bought 2 very useful bras. LOL. Useful sounds weird, but it's true and they're nice. AND also that metal butterfly hairband... NICE NOT? i like it a lot =)
kor! remember to get me the white hairband k! HAHA. thanks!
Neways! thanks kor! and u're welcome too!
mua heart u! BIG HUGS.
Monday, September 28, 2009
i'm back =D
HEY MY EVERY BELOVED ONE!!! I AM FINALLY BACK IN MALAYSIA. =D
yesterday night, you came. finally. But the anticipating feeling was replaced by doubts and downs. nevertheless, im glad i get to see u.
but im goina be here for only a week.. =( can't wait to see you all!
and i dont see the ring on your finger anymore. congrats for getting over me.
yesterday night, you came. finally. But the anticipating feeling was replaced by doubts and downs. nevertheless, im glad i get to see u.
but im goina be here for only a week.. =( can't wait to see you all!
it kinda hurt. lol, no, it actually hurts a lot. sobs. haha.
when i hear it from u.
i could feel my heart squinching.
as if someone's squeezing and moulding my heart like a plasticine. -lol- it might sound funny now, but at that moment, it wasnt. trust me. T.T -hahax-
sadly to say, my whole family might shift down to singapore by next year. SIGH. i dont know how to express what i think and feel now.
sigh. it took u so long to realise this huh. that by being friends, we hurt less.
but why do u hafta do it when im ready to expect sth else.
sigh. u always wrong timing la u. idiot. *buekk*
a lot of wrong timing, really.
It's raining heavily here. I am in coffee bean using the internet. All the glass panes are fogged. So cold, so gloomy, but nice.
this morning, when i opened my eyes.
first thing that struck me was the image of u telling me things u told me ystrdy.
while watching the video of my birthday this year (which yee chin tagged me in facebook) with the first 2 songs in my blog playing...
when i hear it from u.
i could feel my heart squinching.
as if someone's squeezing and moulding my heart like a plasticine. -lol- it might sound funny now, but at that moment, it wasnt. trust me. T.T -hahax-
sadly to say, my whole family might shift down to singapore by next year. SIGH. i dont know how to express what i think and feel now.
sigh. it took u so long to realise this huh. that by being friends, we hurt less.
but why do u hafta do it when im ready to expect sth else.
sigh. u always wrong timing la u. idiot. *buekk*
a lot of wrong timing, really.
It's raining heavily here. I am in coffee bean using the internet. All the glass panes are fogged. So cold, so gloomy, but nice.
this morning, when i opened my eyes.
first thing that struck me was the image of u telling me things u told me ystrdy.
while watching the video of my birthday this year (which yee chin tagged me in facebook) with the first 2 songs in my blog playing...
you were in green (t-shirt of course).
you told me you vowed not to hurt me anymore in the sense of romance and that we're better off as friends now.
haha. im crying, silently. i hope nobody sees it. LOL. (urgh, i'm so goina get the video from yeechin and post it in my blog here. hopefully someday soon, i'll reveal some of the photos we had during this one year plus of time.)
you told me you vowed not to hurt me anymore in the sense of romance and that we're better off as friends now.
haha. im crying, silently. i hope nobody sees it. LOL. (urgh, i'm so goina get the video from yeechin and post it in my blog here. hopefully someday soon, i'll reveal some of the photos we had during this one year plus of time.)
It was instantaneous reflex. I teared while feeling my heart squinch again.
Woke up realising we're now, FRIENDS.
Woke up realising im not goina come back to m'sia often.
Neither am i goina see u often.
Sigh. i guess this is life... but no matter what happens, you guys must not forget me k!
i hope i still mean that little something to all of u.
I went to the toilet and cry and cry and cry.
Looking at the mirror, i told myself to be strong.
but I couldnt help myself.
i was like, ah~ cannot. i need someone today. i totally need to get out. i need to make myself feel better.
Remember to always sms me, call me once in a while, or e-mail me if u cant get me. Like how my kor, vincent did k... right, korr?? ahahaha.I called vincent.
As much as I wish to control myself, i think it was damn obvious, that my voice had clearly shown the "I AM NOT OKAY" to kor.
I asked him to meet up today instead of tomorrow.
Always update me please.
Woke up realising we're now, FRIENDS.
Woke up realising im not goina come back to m'sia often.
Neither am i goina see u often.
Sigh. i guess this is life... but no matter what happens, you guys must not forget me k!
i hope i still mean that little something to all of u.
I went to the toilet and cry and cry and cry.
Looking at the mirror, i told myself to be strong.
but I couldnt help myself.
i was like, ah~ cannot. i need someone today. i totally need to get out. i need to make myself feel better.
Remember to always sms me, call me once in a while, or e-mail me if u cant get me. Like how my kor, vincent did k... right, korr?? ahahaha.I called vincent.
As much as I wish to control myself, i think it was damn obvious, that my voice had clearly shown the "I AM NOT OKAY" to kor.
I asked him to meet up today instead of tomorrow.
Always update me please.
One year aint long, aint short either.
But times and memories i had with you all are some of the things i cherished most. Truly.
kevin chan kit yan... i love you. i do.
there are a lot of things i am willing to do for you secretly, unknowingly. just as you would.
but i guess, it's like you said.
Of course, to my high school sweethearts. You're not forgotten as well.our love story, is writing towards an end. our friendship story however, will begin to write a new chapter eventhough it was once risked to write close to an end.
WELL~ at least, the love story ended with me looking fabulous in a dress and our last dance. =P
I love you all!
there are a lot of things i am willing to do for you secretly, unknowingly. just as you would.
but i guess, it's like you said.
Of course, to my high school sweethearts. You're not forgotten as well.our love story, is writing towards an end. our friendship story however, will begin to write a new chapter eventhough it was once risked to write close to an end.
WELL~ at least, the love story ended with me looking fabulous in a dress and our last dance. =P
I love you all!
-first cut is the deepest-
i might apply for a transfer to US university.
i dont know when i am going to do it.
but for now, i'll hafta make sure i do well academically.
HUGS!!
don't u worry. i'll keep my promise.
i'll make myself happy.
you better do the same.
but then i'll still need a LITTLE bit of time to get over this la.
and SO, i am going get a retail therapy later. =P
im goina miss u!!
i might apply for a transfer to US university.
i dont know when i am going to do it.
but for now, i'll hafta make sure i do well academically.
HUGS!!
don't u worry. i'll keep my promise.
i'll make myself happy.
you better do the same.
but then i'll still need a LITTLE bit of time to get over this la.
and SO, i am going get a retail therapy later. =P
im goina miss u!!
and i dont see the ring on your finger anymore. congrats for getting over me.Wednesday, September 23, 2009
university life
Hey everyone and hi dear bloggie again,
It has been a long time, as usual. =P For people who are curious about what kinda life im going through right now, allow me to let grab a brief idea of how it's like:
Early morning, take mrt to pioneer station.
Early morning, take mrt to pioneer station.
Take shuttle bus from pioneer station to uni.
Walk to lecture theatre/tutorial room.
This picture should be able to illustrate how a lecture in NTU is like.
Hmmmm... about 600-700 people?
Yep.
And these are some of the food in Uni:
The left picture is actually a dessert called "cotton ice" (direct translation from mandarin). It kinda look gross here cos it's kinda melted and mixed. But it's nice. AND expensive.
Tsk tsk.
Moments in Uni and outside Uni, in singapore:
(mostly with bobo and kiat)
in mrt (train)
We went to ICA for the Student Pass thingy and there was this gallery there. Interesting.
The picture below shows how those people smuggle drugs:
Hiding them in shoes(above) and textbooks(below)
Below are pics taken in the canteen with bobo's laptop webcam:
Some other pics of the NTU:
The amount of staircases we had to walk everyday.. Tsk tsk, i tell u.....
Saw the aeroplane? It's a real one! So kewl huh? It's in my school! School of Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering (MAE). But I only passed by there when i go for lab. Cos we only have lectures and tutorials which are all not in my own school. Only had 2 lab sessions in my own school.
Another staircase. There are like 3 continuous plight of staircases here.
Me and bobo in economics lecture. I crashed bobo & kiat's econs lecture cos if i go for my own econs lecture alone, 90% of the time im sleeping.
And below are some of the pics and a video of us in canteen late night, studying and doing stupid stuff:
UH HUH! Caught jaywalking in the middle of the night!!
Of course, it's not all fun and laughters... There were really stressful moments:
Listening to lecture/doing assignment on laptop
Studying at Canteen A
Nevertheless, we still have each other during the bad times. 
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