:)

I haven't feel so good in a while.

I must say, I am really glad I watched 'Life of Pi' and talked to Vincent till 3am last night.

In one way or another, I reflected all these upon myself like a mirror, only seeing clearer through it.

I've been boggled by a lot of things lately, been trying so hard to fight all these feelings (tension, sadness, pressure and all that), trying so hard to be calm and seek for serenity.
But again and again, they hit me little by little.

After half-a-day of thoughts since last night, I found clarity and haven't felt so enlightened for weeks. :D

It's interesting yet strange but amazing how all these events come sequentially, one after another,
and for some reason, they somehow chain up to make a lot of sense.

Ahh, L-I-F-E. Breathtaking indeed. (figuratively & literally ;)


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and now bobo chan is alarming me abt sth I've been telling her lately :O

Of political reform and ties

I can feel Obama's effort and am happy about it. I can see where he's going. :) Meanwhile, waking up to read news from Msia let me down. :(

My very first ... ... in Uni life!

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Borrowing a book from the library's open shelf!

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[A+] in Uni life!

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'Home'-cooked meals for one whole day in Uni life!

In just one day. :)

Tonight I received my very first "Don't push yourself too hard"
and I cried.

Because NOBODY has ever said that to me. Haha :')

Strange.

It's so strange. It's just. So so strange.

It's like one morning, you just wake up and you know exactly what-to-do suddenly.
un-closefriend
And one fine night, you just.. figure out how-to-do it somehow.
talk to your mom

How did everything come by so conveniently for me? I must be one lucky person. :)

Words of Wisdom to Practice

What's done is done, so move on.
If you can't change the past, change the present,
so the the future changes accordingly.

Otherwise you'll be stuck forever and you shall have no past, present nor future.

So, let go and move on.

1. Take a step back:
Let the inner you BE IN CONTROL of yourself. Don't be driven by externalities.

2. Take a step forward:
Embrace with grace.

3. And this, too, shall pass.

4. Why stress out? Enjoy the beautiful mess :)
May you find tranquility in it.

Life is as amazing as always.
It's out there waiting to be explored
but inside you at the same time,
for you decide how you want to enjoy the ride. ;D

Spare me.

I trust that you will face it and not runaway from it
and that you will make the very least effort
to make things clear.

But spend thriftily on time and comfort.
They are luxuries I can't afford.

Victimizing VS Victimized

Who's the real victim?
Surely, everyone would have undoubtedly said, "The Victimized of course!"


I say, every human is subconsciously prone to victimizing others in order to make themselves feel more superior BUT THAT'S JUST BECAUSE they were in one way or another, victimized (as well).

So wait, tell me again, who is the victim? :/


Haha yeah, if asked to cite sth significant I learned lately, this has to be one of it.
Victimized and victimizing, it's a vicious cycle.

Now why would I say that? Apart from the Asian Horror Films I've been studying about, I've another very good reasoning behind this.


A friend of mine, K, had always seemed to be a more know-it-all than me.
I accepted that 'fact' and it's been 2-3 years now.
But guess what?Few days ago, K's friend (whom I'm not very close to) was so comfortably telling me K's weaknesses
and how K is not liked among that community.
THAT was like a revelation of why I am 'victimized' in that sense.
Mr. Know-it-all whom I've always accept it as he is... Who would have thought right?


Well, I'm not going to elaborate more on how this goes round and round..
What I really wana say is, maybe it is not impossible to break out of this cycle?
In my opinion, when one seek for strength, it is important that he/she does not do it through victimizing
and constantly be reminded of it.
As human as we are, flawed as we are, sometimes we still do it unintentionally.
But if you were 'victimized' and you know how it felt like to be one, then DON'T pass it on.
No, don't even retaliate.

Fight, for the right reasons, the right way.
That, my friend, earns true respect.

While on the victimizing side, I'd say, believe the good in everyone, just as you should, in yourself.

Everyday, I talk to myself as though you could hear me.

对于某一方面的事，我好像真的越来越容易满足...

As long as I know he's still alive, I'm satisfied.

As long as I see his happy photos, I'd smile.

As long as I know he's doing good cause, I'm happy.

就这样。我就这样每一天过日子。

直到有一天，我知道，这会停止。