That feeling.. sucks.
That someone you do care for..
Saying sth mean.. One line is enough to kill.

Wisdom quote from a friend, haha. :)

"Many people worked their ass off their whole life, but they still don't get much, WHY? Because they spend their time doing something not as productive when they could have do something they earn much more with the same amount of time! You see, it's not about how hard you work, you need to make some judgements. Everybody's time is worth an intrinsic value and if you do use that amount of time to earn yourself values lesser than your intrinsic value then you're degrading yourself!" - adapted from Mr. Enrique Lee

Now I see you, now I don't

It always goes back to the same question, am I holding on to sth that probably doesn't exist anymore?
Are We?

Yet, it doesn't seem like it. But still can't help to doubt. If only this is easier.

I don't want it to be that way either..

But.. I don't really have a choice? or i dont know how to choose?

It's just being in the comfort zone.. Eventually i'll hafta face it.

I guess I do have the answer. But I do not have yours.
Even if we do have answers, so what..?
Things probably arent the same anymore or
maybe we just wanted to take the easy way out.

I'm not complaining.. I thought as long as I'm happy, then it's fine. But perhaps it's not quite right?

5 more days to 4 years

4 freaking years! omg... how this person still revolves around my life after 4 years.

I should have bought tickets back. All other 3 in KL, except for me...

HOW? It was a promise and I wish i can make it.

See! Isn't it easy? All you needed to do is to start talking to me!

I must pen this source of motivation down.

"I have no doubt about your capabilities and scientific knowledge, your curiosity to learn etc. But I'm just curious if you have ever came across special cases where you learned from students?"

"Of course, I learnt from good and bad examples. I learn from students who fail as well. You know, good or bad there's always sth to learn. You see someone walking on the street "Eeee why he walk like that" so you don't walk like him. You see someone eating in the food court, "Eww I won't eat like that" , ... (and he goes on and on, bla bla bla bla bla)"

"Yes sir I do agree with you but like you mentioned earlier, but these are just judging based on the surfaces AND judging on the surface is not enough. I mean, there could be reasons behind what is happening right?"


yeah, I said that to my prof. I'm not too sure if it's a good thing. Good thing is I'm submitting my report to another prof. Otherwise this prof will probably fail me (if he's the one marking my report).
Oh wait, I'm sorry, im not suppose to judge (you), SO he might or might not fail me if he were to mark my report.

I won't deny that many things he said made sense, I don't. From the bottom of my heart, I agree. Very similar principles I have. He could have realized that. But I wasn't given a chance. Was I given a chance? Well, HE'LL HAFTA TELL ME, whether at the end of the day, did what I say change his mind?

Don't judge me and I won't judge you.

***Note to myself: You shall not be arrogant when you're successful and high up there in future, GJN!

P.S. there's sth to learn from everything and everybody. YUP, i learned quite a bit of stuff from you.

It's annoying how one talks or judges so much when he or she did not even bother to find out more in the first place.
YEAH, LIKE YOU SAID, IT'S EASY TO SAY,
BUT WHAT REALLY HAPPENED, DO YOU KNOW?

Nope you don't, cos u didnt even bother asking. You just did all the talking.

Haha, isn't it strange?
How those who come to you, the more you're afraid of them or wana avoid them;
Those who heck care as if they can live with or without you (or maybe they just dont have the time for you),
you're still making an effort to talk to them?

I feed my calendar weekly, Only to find it ended up so bloated

Time to buck up and get organized.
Losing the mobile phone really didnt help at all.
Gah.

Whyyyyyyy. Murphy's law or sth??

Stay focus!!! (How?.. ):

I hope (I should say i believe i believe i believe) my hp was not taken away..

Need to tidy up the mess I left for myself before the competition.
Need to organize myself and wake up. I still feel very.. Hmmm, not awake?

It's this really strange feeling.. Like u know how u're exhausted from intensive camp, not enough sleep, yada yada..

Yeah, it's as if i went through 2 weeks of intensive camp. Everything feels so surreal now. Like im not back here in reality yet.

Whatever it is, i hope my hp will come back to me.. CONTACTS, PHOTOS all these are so important to meeee

原来，我只是累了。

A shoulder and a comforting voice. That's all I need to get back up :)
Jia you ganjinni!

Well.. How true.

And it's either you give up on love or you keep searching (more like expecting) for the same kind of love,
when you will never find the same because essentially,
NOBODY is the SAME.

撑住。 :')

Sometimes I can't help but to miss that year 2008 (and before) you.

Really tired.

I don't know why either. I feel beat.

All i want to do right now is.. sleep and before i sleep i wish i can hear a person's voice over the phone.

All my close friends are like my boyfriend(s), I have so many of them, so I don't need another one. ;)

Hwahwahwa, yesterday was a last minute thing to head to Tanah Merah at 11+pm. Risky cos the train might terminate its service anytime soon. haha.

Supper, Movie, Cook lunch, Slack, Study (A VERY LIL BIT), Dinner.. and back in NTU.
Happy enough! Haha. Motivated to do work now! Jiayou jiayou!

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"Obviously he's fine and Obviously he doesn't need my concern. Obviously and Obviously he knows how to take care of himself."

That's what keep me going.

As for the rest, if it's not meant to be then it won't be. :)

Keep it cool, one by one, you'll be able to handle them :)

After yesterday, I told myself, I will not shed a single tear for you anymore.