Thursday, October 22, 2009

Like a fool, we kept losing our way

ni zhi dao ma, dang wo zai zui gu dan, ji mo, pi lei, xu ruo de shi hou, hao xi wang you yi ge ren hui chu xian, bao hu wo, an fu wo...
dan shi, wo zhi dao shi bu ke neng you zhe zhong shi. yin wei zhe, tai guo meng huan le.
ceng jing you yi ge ren gao shu wo, ni yao de dong xi, dou tai guo meng huan le. zhi you zai ou xiang ju li bian huo zhe meng zhong cai ke yi fa sheng. ye xu, zai zhe ge shi jie shang, bing bu shi wan quan bu ke neng fa sheng, ke shi fa sheng zai wo shen shang de ji lu, kong pa zhen de zhi you na me de yi dian dian er.

Well, u know, it took me quite some time to struck me thinking, oh yea man, IM IN UNIVERSITY already. Com'on, this is the moment i waited long enough to reach. But well, it's nth like i imagined.
Even right down to entering the uni, it was all a rush. And time has just passed like a whirlwind just in a blink of an eye. Every week reaches friday so fast and then it's weekend and before you even realise, it's friday again. Days passed, weeks passed, months passed.

So what have we been doing?
Bobo, kiat and I were having dinner together just now. Kiat was pretty stressed out with his workloads. I can tell bobo aint any better. Hah, what's more about me. Though i dont feel stressed out today. But im sure that feeling's goina come arnd soon. Im having tests and etc too. Before you even know, final's just around the corner.

Life's just monotonous. We're going through what we're going through everyday, every week. Just waiting and hoping for time to pass. Waiting and hoping for it to end.
A bit pointless heh?

I need sports. seriously. activities. I dont care how. Im definitely goina join next sem. Im goina apply for hall. I really really hope they'll approve one for me. Urgh. Give someone who needs it more, someone like me la! Than giving those living across the street and still drive around in uni! Idiots.

Sigh. Im not goina complain and I know, few years down the road. I'll be completely on my own. I'll be working. I'll be feeding myself. Probably start feeding my parents too. HAHA.
So i'll just hafta get use to living alone and be independent. As much as i've always hope for miracles, im not complaining and i'll be tough.
Uush. Uush.

wo men yi qi jia you ba. ;)

sometimes, i really wondered, would everything be totally different if ever i went for another choice. =) ?
woot~!
urghh.. not concentrating! not concentrating!
in econs lecture.
eee. bobo! bad influence. bad influence.
facebook, msn, now blog. eesh eesh

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Bad shoe day

Haha, haihz, had another bad shoe day.
(Okay... laughing then sighing is so contradicting "haha, haihz"? lol)


I feel a lil drained. I slept till almost 8pm since i reached home. And i was feeling ultimately blur when i woke up. Then reluctantly showered and watched another episode of drama. Some hilariously foolish drama. But i like the actor =P woot~

And so, i have 2 blisters on each foot which makes a total of 4.
(Yeah, just in case u forgot how to count)
Woke up looking like a panda, my eyes looked horrible.

Day was overall fine. Just the blisters, fatigue, the feeling of mismatch-ness.. Hmmm. Cos of that stupid shoe la. N also... acquaintance. Yeah.
Guess the world just has too many people of different characters and... Urgh. I dont know what i wana say. I just didnt like that. It just kills my passion.

Are people here all like that? Why?

SIGH. Im sure there'll be minority. My task is turn the minority to majority. Hmmm. How can I do that? Is it even possible?
I honestly doubt my abilities. But, i guess i'll do what i can do then we'd see if we can go on further.


"To demonstrate lofty disdain does not make oneself more superior or smarter but instead contemns himself in return."-Jinni

HAHA =D

I feel so happy!
Cos i finally changed the songs in my blog!
The previous ones were like a temporary entertainment till i finally get to replace em, like now!! =D =D =D

woot!

ENJOY!

I just LOVE the first song! It's so jolly and it makes me wana dance. I hope it brings joy to ya all too (3

Of course, listen to the next 3 songs too. =) it's all instrumental, but im lovin' em.

Monday, October 19, 2009

It's up to you.

life's never goina be a smooth sailing all the way u see.
At this very moment, u're floating in the air and all, the next very moment, u might just trip..
Or viewing from a slightly positive perspective, at this very moment u tripped, and the next very moment, you see beautiful stars surrounding you =D
(i meant flying in the sky in another way, NOT seeing stars cos u tripped. LOL)

I broke my textbook CD accidentally. IT was really REALLY out of the blue when i was boarding the bus. SIGH. No point saying anything further anyways.
I shall see how i can fix it.

There are plenty of stuff which u wish u wouldnt want to face in life but they just come lining up one after another for u.
And they always come in packages. In the package, there's this thing called "choice".
Then you'll have to deal with the "choice" you picked.
The hardest part is to decide which to pick and then the path that follows.
Moreover, the package does not comes with warranty... So yeah... you know what i mean~ ;)

Oh well, according to principle of economics #1, "The Scarcity Principle", having more of one good means having one less of another.

Yep. So weigh your priorities... which is of more significance to you?
Nobody really has the rights to judge your priorities BUT you.
SO, mi amore, what have you picked?

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Weekly routine

Hello.. I wanted to say good morning but i just realised it's almost 3pm.
Yeah, i woke up pretty late.
Actually, i woke up several times and continue to sleep and woke up at 1.30pm.

I had a dream and woke up abt 11.30am. Wanted to blog about it. But chose to continue to sleep.
cos i didnt wana wake up to the reality.
Haha, that dream was weird but not in a bad way i guess.
Somehow, haha, i wont tell u the whole content, but yea, if im not mistaken, it's plotted at my old house back in selayang. Weird huh.. Me and jye were leaving, or at least supposed to, go U.S. for studies or sth... In the end sth happened.. and we were back at home and blaa blaa blaa... LOL.
Then i woke up with my eyes still closing, covered under the blanket, not knowing the sun's already shining on my butt, metaphorically, and for a moment i thought i was sleeping on my bed at home in sg buloh, in msia.. For a moment, i pondered. Where am i?

To the realization of I AM ALONE in sgpore, i chose to go back to sleep. LOL.
(Maybe cos my whole family was in that dream and i even remembered i was trying to call kevin to tell him im leaving but he didnt pick up the phone. It made me felt like im in msia. And when i realised im not, i suddenly realise i havent seen my brothers and my mother for quite some time, i kinda miss them. Haha=) Yeah, that's always the case. U wont miss them when they're arnd u. )

Yeah.. SO, every weekend, i'll face the same old problem. I dont know what to eat. There's nth much, other than instant noodles that i can eat at home which i chose not to. Nevertheless, im too lazy to walk all the way out just to get a breakfast or lunch or dinner.. First of all, i waste that precious time which i can work on assignments; 2nd of all, i'll need to use money which im trying to save on ( i know it's not the right way.. but... =P ) ; 3rd of all, i just have no mood to get out and eat alone, i guess.. =)

Hence, i usually eat only one meal which i call it lunner (lunch+dinner) in the evening during the weekends. I'll survive on a cup of milo for my breakfast. Yep.

Every friday night, i'll feel extraordinarily lonely. Cos my dad goes back to msia every friday. So i either get to see him on thurs night before he leaves or friday morning. Every saturday... I'll start slacking.. Eventhough i told myself i had to study. Every sunday is the assignment day. haha. Which i always struggle to finish 30% of my assignment which is due on monday. =P

Assignments... Physics assignments... It just annoys u because there's so many questions and it takes a toll out of your time. It makes u sit whole day in front of the laptop and makes u go crazy. Doing physics assignments=Sacrificing time for other subjects.

AND so, i gotta get started with my work after slacking the whole day yesterday. I should have just declare saturdays as my off day. HOHO. Then i wouldnt feel guilty.
Yea, you know what, actually that's a good idea. Maybe i'll motivate myself to work harder during the weekdays to reward myself on Saturday.
HAHA, say only. We'll see if it works.

Time to update my organizer. All the CAs (continual assessments) coming up.. Uush.
Alright, till then!
(gtg toilet, coffee taking effect... @.@ haha!)

autumn's concerto! me lovin' it

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! it's 5 am and i still havent sleep!!!!!
not cos im studying but cos im getting so addicted to "autumn's concerto"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
LOL.
it's damn nice it's damn nice!!!!!
ahahahahaha, ok la, fine la, i like this kinda drama..
Typical but well,
it makes me hyper!
makes me cry, makes me laugh, makes me scream!
ahahaha.

i slacked the whole day today.
Didnt do any work at all.
woot!

watch 2 movies and few shows and now this drama! aaaaaaaaaa. Havent been doing all these for long long time. Im lovin' it.
BUT BUT BUT.... what abt my procrastinated work...
BUT BUT BUT... i've been working on it for a week... with no leisure... though it wasnt much of a work done...

haha. im hyper. shit la. how to sleep. 5am and im hungry.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

She turned into a SWAN!

HAHA, i cant believe it.
I just watched a cartoon. A typical happy-ending-princess-fairy-tale.
Very cliche. Very predictable.

but well, hahahaha, i havent feel like a child for a loooong time. I havent watch a tv or movie or whatever nonsense for so DARN long......
Laugh like a kid and watch "The Swan Princess" on youtube.
Gee. =)
So typical.
Ahahahahaha.
Alright, gtg. Goina eat lunner with kiat. Havent ate anything since morning other than a cup of milo. Grrrhhh... hungry...

Ok, i have been slacking since ystrdy. Hopefully wont hang out till too late. N hopefully will be able to study tonight.

Friday, October 16, 2009

ok, just when i wanted to take a nap in the library while listening to songs in my phone..
All the songs are those which would make me tear and think abt those moments.
emo emo songs. tsk.
SIGH.
sobs.

okay, maybe im just tired.

hmmm, let's think abt reasons for me to be happy about,
reason #1: today's weather damn nice! =)
reason #2: my hair smells good! =D
reason #3: my hair's so soft and smooth!!!! HAHA =D
reason #4: because life's life... and i gotta keep moving forward!
reason #5: im running out of reasons...

hahahaha. Hmmm, realised i've been blogging more often?
yeah, i realised that too... I guess.. I needed an outlet...... and. I'm just far from everyone.

Everyone has got their own life to worry about, right? =)
*cheers* the day will get better.
(cant u see im trying hard to make myself feel better when i know it's goina be another lonely night?)

A lil reward for me =)

Muahaha, for being such a good girl lately, jinni shall get a reward of...

40 minutes online+double cheeseburger+koko crunch McFlurry!!! =D

woot!

Ah... today has been. hmmmm.. fulfilling? I dont know. I havent felt free for quite a while.
But I know i've done sth for the past few days, at least. HAHA.

Omgosh, i wonder how have everyone been.
"HOW ARE YOU ALL??! (3 hello..? anyone there?"
(alamak, tak de response pulak. OK, im like talking to myself... @@)
Lol.

Gosh. There are so many non-academic stuff that i wish to do.. But darn, i just hafta know my priorities.
And Im glad im still strong and doing well despite all the temptations.

Good job Jinni!! =D

Okay, i tried uploading pics, but it's darn freaking slow. And i've exceeded my time limit @@
haha.
Yeah, and so i hafta go to the library to study that econs textbook d... Tsk. Sigh.

i miss u all!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

feeling it more and more

I have decided not to go msn for at least a week. *cross fingers*
yeah, im feeling it. More and more work to catch up with.
the pressure.

I need to breathe. Therefore, I need to catch up with all those work.
I wish there's someone that can explain all the detail or teach me in a way that i'll understand for all the subjects at anytime at all.

GOSH, i wana complain! U know what, it's so annoying when u've hafta strain ur ears and exert all the force squeezing ur brain trying to interpret what the professors from some foreign country with weird heavy slang of english!!!!!!!!
The thing is, i don't even understand your english, how am i suppose to understand the content of what u're trying to convey!!!!!!!!
It's so freaking annoying!!!!!
I can't hear what u're trying to say, hence I dont get the main idea of the lecture or theory or whatever, hence I don't know what to write!
URGH URGH URGH.

Im not saying that the lecturers or tutors or professors arent good, in fact, they know their subject and content well or anything, it's just the language barrier u see!!
It's not like their english aint good either, it's JUST they speak with such a weird slang which i find it so hard to catch!!!!

I get neck ache whenever i tried my very best to listen to what they're saying because i'd try to stretch my neck and ears as close as possible to them BUT IT DOESNT HELP. Obviously right....

AND yea, so just now during the lab session, my mind was wandering away for a moment.... how i wish our brain works like computer, where knowledge are like files which are transferable or at least automatically translated into language we understand! OR at least process the words he is trying to say!!!

Then, i started visualising the type of study room i wana have. Muahaha. It's all in my imagination. But im goina make it real one day. =P

AAAAaaaa.... okay, im not goina come online often anymore. I hope u guys read this.
sigh sigh sigh. Im so darn freaking slack. I wasted too much of my time.

Alright alright. Time for econs. Im actually in the library...blogging @.@
LOL
Toodoos people.
Love ya all....
Reach me via e-mail or sms if u really need me.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

mid autumn festival / mooncake festival





wish i could be there.
it reminds me of the things we do when we were younger.
today is a festive where family get together you see...
BUT kiat and i are stuck here in singapore.
and i wouldnt blame us for getting emo watching those kids playing with lantern, lil fire crackers, candles...
Initially, i still felt alright. But pics my cousin bro uploaded into facebook made me tear.
Haha. Yeah appreciate those times where a big family get to spend time together. Really.
It's only when u're far away that u'll feel it.
Well, thank god im not TOO far away.
Sigh. As much as i wish to write more and post about stuffz happening these few days, im really tired now.
and i still have 2 physics assignment and a formal lab report to finish up. Not forgetting to catch up with the lecture. Right now, i guess im too tired for those.
and I'm sad. =( lol.
sO, im goina sleep now and wake up early in the morning and tataaa!!! it's a brand new day! which i gotta start working hard. Good luck with it jinni! U can do it! Uush.
Yeah... Last but not least, happy mid autumn festival!
*cherish every moment u have and had.*