GOODBYE..

i just reached home slightly more than an hour ago.

but im leaving in less than 5 hours time.

can u imagine how i feel?

im F-ing sad.

accepted to the uni should probably be a happy thing.. but im not...

well, i dont even have the time to say goodbye to my friends...
i miss my bedroom.
i miss everything!

hopefully i'll come back to malaysia soon...

i miss u all very very VERY much.. REALLY! *CRY*

im gonna get swollen eyes tomorrow.. sigh

i forgot to tell u guys abt the "JOURNEY" today. It's been exciting, nerve-wrecking and etc.

anyways, it's just us going to midvalley and getting lost. lol. Apparently kiat doesnt remember the way after going there so many times. I've only been there like probably 3 times? and also coming back alone not knowing the way and WITHOUT a phone!
quite some stuff happened before leaving also. so yeah... importance of phone i tell u. But it's not like i cant live without phone la. Seriously though, it's not sth we should all take for granted cos really, with that thing.. life's so much.. simpler.

yesterday ate at murni. yum yum~

for more info abt what i've been doing... please contact me at my hse phone or feel free to e-mail ganjinni@hotmail.com

=P

we are AFTER ALL JUST humans

sometimes shits happen in life, i guess we just hafta remind ourselves it's part of life and that it'll be over soon.

I'm suffering from internet deprivation and also without my mobile phone, it totally feels like... Gosh, it's like u became blind or sth la! I mean, u can still live even u're blind right? But it totally feels like u lost sth and u cant seem to connect with the outer world kinda thing la.

The story is. Hp dropped into toilet bowl in college. THE END.
Now I am still struggling whether to pay my parents for it. Me with the 'responsibilities' principle. And stupid idiot cheque! They freaking paid me RM16 lesser! !@#$%^&* and now I have to wait till month end to get the money. BY THEN, I MIGHT NOT EVEN BE IN MALAYSIA! F F F F F
All happens when I'm going broke.

That's not the main problem. MAIN PROBLEM IS MY BROTHER!
Gosh, u guys may think Im being childish or whatsoever. I AM NOT. FOR GOD SAKE!
I AM NOT.
NEITHER AM I IN DENIAL.

I GIVE UP. I no longer have the energy to talk to him anymore. God forbid!
Do all you want. I don't want to care anymore.

I guess I'll just hafta suffer for a while. After some time, you wont even get to see my face. HAPPY?

u guys can say all u want. what do u understand?
do u know how i feel?
do u really know what's in my mind?
how could you judge me?

seriously, URGH. if my thyroid comes back, it's definitely cos of YOU!
cos i can already feel it hurting!
GDI!


ah... i'll be fine in a while..

moving on to another stage of growing up

1. believing more in myself
2. filter others' perspective
3. handle things with grace, i.e. not to stress myself out too much
4. let go, open up

it comes naturally as we age, as we grow, as we learn.
it's sth worth happy for.
proud of me?
haha, thanks. =P