Day and Night.

omg, i think i've split personality.
i think differently during the day and the night.

LOL.

perhaps it's just gemini yea?

Dreams.

If you have a dream or sth that you really want to do,
if it is a question between what you want to do and what you should do,
GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.

Unless you are very sure that if you have gone for the 'what-you-should-do' and,
you wont look back and wonder, what would have happened if i tried the other path?

because if you go for what you want or what you dream for,
shall it fail, at least you know you've tried and it didnt work out for you.
Fear not about the consequences because you will always come up with back up plans.

And there are never time wasted if you go chasing for dreams.
because the success/bliss of doing what you love is worth for every time spent.
Even if you dont end up that way, for every moment spent, you earn a lesson.

Hence, go for it.

In a philosophising mood.

Haha, so I was supposed to study for my accounting paper which is on Wednesday.
But I was holding the lecture notes but filled with so many thoughts which none of them has got anything to do with accounting!

I had so much thoughts I started penning them down all over my accounting lecture notes. lol.
Then I couldn't take it anymore, had to express my flow of thoughts. Hence Im here! Haha, if only I've a lot of time. I would take pictures and upload them to my blog posts. To help you visualize :p. (and also cos my blog posts tend to be very wordy.)

Sometimes I wish I am like a full time blogger and a part time student or sth.
And especially at times when you feel suffocated by things you have to do, you would start wondering why am I doing this. Why am I not doing things I like or have passion for.

Some of you may question me on the choice of taking up mechanical engineering.
It's not that it's sth I totally hate. I still like some of things I study. It's just that, when it comes to passion, I think there are sth else that I would get so engrossed and indulging doing it despite the sacrifice it takes.
I guess, it takes the route of doing 'what-you-dont-like' to actually find out the 'what-you-like'?
Im sure most of you had the same experience. Finding out what you hate, hence knowing what you love.
The opposites come in a package. Dont you think?

As I grow up learning and changing, I realized the different kind of mentality I had at different stages.
I used to be the wonder kid who wants to do everything (in my opinion) marvelous and contributive.
I've always thought people in this world are so blinded by $$$ and so to speak, 'the reality', or sometimes labeled as 'the cruelty in order to survive'.
People mis-looked the beauty of the world.

and that was me labelled as 'the gullible'.

Then slowly I grow up, getting into college, coming to university, the exposure and all...
I figured, hey, I'm actually slowly shifting my mindset because 'the gullible' me back then wouldnt think this way.
I mean, not that I have changed completely.
But I realized people shape themselves accordingly to fit.
So I now have an answer to 'the-gullible-me' for why are people behaving this way.

Because it is easier to shape an individual for survival or to fit in
than to shape the whole community for a paradigm shift.

Human beings are very lazy creature. Haha. And we are an art of complexity out of simplicity.
Too complex? Precisely what we are.
We have the most complex function to solve the simplest problem.
We seek simplicity out of the complexity we've created.

Now, arent we interesting?
Haha!

Exams Prayer!

dear god,

i pray that i do not make any careless mistakes in my exam later and pray for a clear mind to be able to answer all questions correctly.

dear gong gong and tai ma,

do bless me ya ^^

love ya all always! hugs (feeling it).

manly woman.

Hmmm. Strange.
But all of a sudden, i feel like, i can totally live without bgr (i.e. boy/girl relationship).
It feels like the last thing i wana do, at least at this point of time in life.

There are so many other things I want to do. Before I get myself into tonne loads of commitments.
Many simple things.

One of it would be to get a really nice camera, a journal and a blog. Just me and my travel buddies, traveling around the world.
Like I said, I want to earn my first million dollar by 25 and go around the world.
Sounds a lil too good to be true. But at least, that's my aim for now.

and for now, I am going to grab my books to old can A to study.
Just me and my books and efficient next 2 hours. Toodoos! =)

Beautifully Imperfect

"In the end, it's these little small things that you remember.

The little imperfections that makes them perfect for you."

The advertisement "Beautifully Imperfect" was directed by our fellow Malaysian, Yasmin Ahmad whom I think is both inspirational and aspirational.
I know of her death but did not really pay much attention to it, not until I realized the amazing work she does and how sudden her death was.

I hope someone would continue her mission to inspire more people in the world.

7 days to final

Progress:

Math 4            - ******************=====   70%
M.O.M.            - *****================   25%
Fluid Mechanics   - ****=================   20%
Kinematics         - ****=================   20%
Accounting         - *====================  5% (ahhhh! lol)

good night...

miss you ♥
:)

:)

you know how simple it is to make me smile? :)
and yes, i love day dreaming too. haha

i hate the way you deter my determinedness everytime!
ahh.

i hate it when you wish to reach the person you're thinking of but you're just not allowed to do so.
ahh.

i hate it when you know you dont feel good but you have to keep telling yourself that you feel just fine.

and i hate it when you feel all the above but just cant express em out!

that's the way it should be.

good job Jinni Gan. good job.
never been better.

im proud of you.
that's really the way it should be.
you've grown up and you did well.

we will see how it goes.
at least u've got your point across. =)
dont feel bad at all!
you deserve this.

The Pre-Exam Journal

-24th Nov 2010-
10.05pm:
Dinner. Instant (Purple Wheat) Noodle + Ikan Bilis Soup Stock.

-25th Nov 2010-
1.05am:
It seem like a never ending job.
Just when I thought I'm done with it..
When will I get to study?
I need MORE caffeine. MOREEE.

1.55am:
Done with biz mag follow up. Not exactly... Lots more to go.
But those are left for tomorrow.
Going to work on script for presentation 8 hours later.

3.30am:
Again it's a no study day. =(
Im worried. Exam's in a week plus time. How?

***Updates***
2.35pm:
Presentation was alright. At least for my part I guess.
As a group, it wasnt too good.. Yikes.
Anyways, glad everything's over and done with.

Goina officially start studying!! Yay.
Probably goina hang a "Study in progress. Do not disturb" sign at the door. LOL.

***Updates***
-26th Nov 2010-
3.09am:
I started studying at about 3.30pm. Then nap in between and quite a lot of distraction. Not very productive..
Perhaps better luck in the library later in the morning?

Loving and Feeling every single bit of this song:


Good night! :)

How to deal with it.

(Another previously unpublished draft)
Okay, I was tempted to start off writing this post with the F word.
oh no!!! Too much of hanging out with guys! Utterly influenced.

Been busy. Around and about. Juggling between academics and non-academics.
Competing with time.
Looking for inspiration.

Too much of stuff going on in my mind.

How do I cope?
I thought maybe I could share some of the tips of dealing with this kinda issue based on my personal experience.
On the other hand, it's like penning down reminders for myself so that I wont forget from time to time.

(i) Breakdown consistently! A must must!

(ii)Never write out a long list of what you have to do. You stress yourself out for nothing!
list should be as simple and short as possible!
separate timetable and tasks.

(iii) You have only a pair of hands and one brain. One thing at a time. Focus and dont think of the rest of the tasks. Or i should i say, "get wired in" (totally facebook-anized, lol, you'll know what i mean if u've watched social network) and the rest of the worries come later.

***Updated: 24 Nov 2010***
(Realised I have too many unpublished posts and decided to just post em all even if they're incomplete/not furnished. The above was written exactly one month ago!)

(iv) One day you will realized you put in so much effort to not be appreciated. People complain. But it's fine. It's human nature. They can't possibly go through everything you've gone through and come back to you to show how much they appreciate you.
So tell yourself it's fine. And go on to do whatever you think is right.
No, you didnt do a bad job. But you will definitely do better next time.

So they're given away..

Irony but somehow the singaporean slang comes handy to my current situation now.

"Heck CARE la! Finish ady, suan liao!"

Haha. =)

An insight into our learning culture

(18th November 2010, unpublished draft)

You know, the locals (and malaysians are very similar in this case),
they love to get over and done with things without putting much effort into the thought process or whatsoever.

Their favourite lines are, "Heck care! Hantam only!", "Just smoke lar..","Just fast fast finish up then submit can liao.. Dont need to care so much wan!" etc.

Of course I am not generalizing the people here (and I am not denying Malaysians aren't any better in this case, I dont know about other SEA countries, hence, no comment on the rest).
But I think majority of us here, behave in such a way.

Today's tutorial class made me realised how shameful it is to be part of such learning culture.
I believe there're no stupid questions (though there could be lame questions) but we just fail to see that.
Fail to see that THERE ARE NO STUPID QUESTIONS in which is a huge crime in learning process!
At least, I believe so.

He maybe asking a lot of questions, you think he's being anal about lil things which in my opinion, it is not!
I think his questions make sense even though he might not be right.

It was a disgrace to witness such scene because I think if similar situation was to happen in some universities abroad, people would have 'argued' in such a way that they give constructive comments.
Instead, people here shoot you down by saying things which imply, "Com'on, stop asking questions! What's wrong with you!" and also thoughts like "We shall not ask so many questions, so that in return, you wont shoot us down when my group is presenting.."

and it was even more disgraceful because I was part of them. because i kept silence when everyone else were clapping to support the guy who shot him down. when I could have make a sound statement, voice out everything that is going through my mind. BUT i just didnt. It did not occur to me that I had to speak them out. Hence, showed how I am part of these screwed-up, nonsensical learning culture which I am not proud of.

And this. is our learning culture.

Shit happens. But it doesnt mean you're a shit!

I want to earn my 1st million dollar before 25 years old.
and backpack around the world for one year.

Then come back and do sth great.

Need a lil prayer?

Calm down Jinni Gan...
Calmmm down.

Just, no distraction and utilize every moment you have now.
One thing at a time...
One thing in mind at a time...

*breathe in*breathe out*

Okay, i need someone to tell me sth to make me feel better.

Tell me I havent been doing too bad a job. =/

HMMM.. okay, i guess nobody's goina tell me that now..
so i shall tell myself... let bygones be bygones.

i feel so. horrible.
i just wish someone can pull me out of this mess.

Jinni Gan, you must tell yourself that you are fine!
because sometimes emo-ness is self-inflicted!

you are fine. you are fine. you are fine.
don't torture yourself for no reasons :p

instead of making me happier, you make me feel sadder..
am i harping on sth which no longer exist?
why is this so difficult..

CAs CAs CAs

continual assessments!
ie, tests!
one tmr!
a lot more to go!

lots more to study for tmr.. BUT im like so chillax..
Im not even panicking! HOW =O !
lol. k la, study study. woot woots :)

Sometimes you're like a dream.
At one point indulging and the next moment, I wake up asking myself,

did it really happen?
 
-JinNi Gan

为什么，为什么这个世界，大家都是人类，可是遭遇却是天渊之别的呢？

为什么一个做父亲的，会这样对待他的儿子？
难道他没想过，儿子不赚钱，他也不会有饭吃吗？！

难道他真的没脑子吗？

为什么你总是需要面对这些问题。。。
难道，就不能像其他人一样。。 =(

XP

so over you!

不知为何，
   偶尔还是会抱着一些期望。。。
没有对错，
   只是不知道应该还是不应该。。。

lend me a shoulder. (not for crying though =P)

It's one of the song I've been listening to lately.
It's actually my current blog song if you hadnt realise.

I think this song is awesome. It's super apt especially when I'm so tired.
I just wish there's a shoulder to lean on sometimes.
But I'll usually be fine in just a bit. So yeap, enjoy the song =)


Oh no, where did all the years go

And was it really worth all of this

Heartache that was handed to me

Holding on just don't make sense

But the hardest part of letting go

Is tryin' to find a way

To let you know



So we'll just cry, cry

On each other's shoulders

Cry until it's over

Can't it just be over

And we'll just cry, cry

Cry until it's all gone

Been holding on for too long

Time for us to move on

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

So let's just cry



I've been thinking 'bout my life and

How much time I've wasted

I'm ready to put it all behind

Let it all be yesterday

But the hardest part of letting go

Is tryin' to find a way

To let you know



So let's just cry, cry

On each other's shoulders

Cry until it's over

Can't it just be over

And we'll just cry, cry

Cry until it's all gone

Been holding on for too long

Time for us to move on

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

So let's just cry

Let's just cry



So let's just cry, cry

On each other's shoulders

Cry until it's over

Can't it just be over

And we'll just cry, cry

Cry until it's all gone

Been holding on for too long

Time for us to move on

And we'll just cry, cry

On each other's shoulders

Cry until it's over

Can't it just be over

And we'll just cry, cry

Cry until it's all gone

Been holding on for too long

Time for us to move on

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

So let's just cry.

How are you guys doing!!!

Haha, lately, i feel happy to have time to study!
Ironically! yes!

You'd be surprise how I can study for hours and not deviate to sth else, unlike those days.. really =/
People say dont take up so much of activities, waste so much of ur time;
I say take a few and make yourself learn how to manage your time!

With such hectic schedule, naturally, I was forced to discipline myself.
Cos i know things arent goina work like the old days anymore.

Nevertheless, amidst all the work and a BIT of leisure, I miss some old times. I miss my family and friends.
Like I've always said. And I cant help to mention it over and over again. Haha =)

I would spend several minutes to recall the good old days.
Sometimes, they really make me miss KL and thinking, shucks.. I'll probably go back only end of december...

Well, I miss home but I'm getting used to all these.

I learnt a lot of stuff lately and learned that I have so much more to learn!
I am eager to learn more cos I totally feel like fish out of water in a bunch of freaky old(comparatively, yes) entrepreneurs!

I wana improve myself in so many waysss!

And I really miss you guys...

I would wana keep you guys updated whenever I can..

And I hope you guys would keep me updated too =)

*hugs*

home :)

you know what.
sometimes, mrt ride can really be enjoying and fruitful :)

I HAVE A VISION.

and I'll work towards it ;)

watch me! :p

delighted!

Hmmmm. Today has been pretty hectic.
And seriously, I realised I really cant have a fixed timetable.
Everything changes last minute.
Which is in a way good cos it trains me to be more reactive under such circumstances. :)

I practically skipped all lessons today!
But okay lar..
Only one subject today (both lecture and tutorial).

Settled the plaques for Investiture with Wan Yee.
Thanks Rique for giving us a ride :)

And why am i so delighted? heh. :)
Thanks to Rahim! For pulling me out of this sinking stressful load.
We are jumping from one boat to another.
Which aint really a nice thing to do to my group.
What's more when Im the appointed leader.. :(
BUT, this is reality. This is business arena.

We weigh personal benefits. Of course I am not talking about unethical stuff.
Besides, we are not officially penned down as a group.
So yeah..

Another reason why I am delighted is...about this new circle of friends I am going to make!
I think they're a cool bunch of people.
Not exactly the same range of frequency.
But it's receivable frequency. Lol. If you know what I mean.
Okay, doesnt matter.

What matter is, somehow or somewhat, I am more relieved now. ;)
Gotta shower and send some e-mails and off to birthday celebrations!
PACK schedule!!!! Haha :)

I can. I am.

organise the all-over-the-place mind right now.
one step at a time.
learn to say no.
stop saying it, just do it.
decide.
do. fast!

Gan Jin Ni!!! You can do it! Jia you!

P.S. Bobo chan! I sincerely apologise for that matter. It really isnt a nice thing to do and I know I've been subconsciously doing that to you. I appreciate you telling me that. *hugs*

My fingers are itching to play piano!!!!

如果
不曾著陸

或许
就不被触碰

也就不會有

任何
隨之起舞的情緒




This wasn't the song i intended to look for. Found it by accident.
Video's kinda amateur. But i thought her voice aint too bad.
So yup. There you go.
*no, im not emo-ing*

it's also funny

how you can feel so awful at one moment and the next moment, you're fine =)

it's quite funny

when it comes to certain stuff, i can be so confidence.
but when it comes to this, i am so crushed.

Life :)

OKAY, i wanted to upload pics but it's f*ing slow.
so i gave up.

well, life's tiring but fun :) and exciting :D

There's always stuff for me to do. And it's great to know so many people, like everybody's my friend.
Uni life seems so much brighter =D haha.

Only thing is, I am trying my best to strive a balance between studies, ECAs, leisure and friends.
(what happened to family?! =/ )

Trying my best.. trying my best..
*off to study*

or else i dont know when's the next time im free to study!

How shitty you are, bueks! XP

shit people do shit stuffz.

i am really annoyed with the fact that I am spending all my time and effort on this,
AND THERE YOU ARE, sabotaging behind me.

You know what, effort's not appreciated is fine, but sabotage behind all the effort i've put in, THAT is so not cool.

And this will be the last time.

You're a freak, seriously.

There are some songs in my iTunes playlist which remind me of you..

Reminders from time to time

Too occupied thinking what you do not have?
Forgotten about what you have?

:)

From time to time, i wish for more.
But I've forgotten that I've bunch of great friends and family.
and myself! (mind you, awesome self!)

Haha. At least, there are people who wouldnt abandon me for sth else.

P.S. Im running for School main comm, rally and election next week. AAaaaa! Lol.

P.S. I miss you guys so so much, I wish Im back in Msia now..

P.S. Jin-Ni Gan! You gotta catch up on studies!

P.S. Chyi! I will miss you too! Didnt get to spend much time with you..But wish u a safe journey back to Paris. LOVE ya lots! =D *hugs*

P.S. This looks good! I shall try cooking in hall someday! slurp slurp~!!
http://foodiesnplaces.blogspot.com/2010/09/how-to-make-malaysian-style-fish-head.html

你做得到吗？

lately, i've been getting sms on average of at least 5 in an hour.
Out of 5, 3 would be unknown number.
All because of FOC (free of charge   freshmen orientation camp... )

chyi's leaving next week. :(
and i havent really been talking to the rest.
vincent goh, i know u hate me.
but i cant help it.

Ouh how i miss the week before uni starts. :p
But of course, it's not all tired and no fun la...

I really dont know if I should run for School Main Committee.
My initial plan was to not join any activities this year and focus on study.
But siew loong has his point, if i dont run for a post now, when can I do that?
If my plan is to go for overseas IA and exchange program in 3rd year..
Then I really don't have other chances to run for a post.

I know, then again, you would ask, is there a need to run for a post..
Indeed, it would be a great experience.
And Im very inspired by my seniors.
Sean himself as a president, probably darn busy, yet he still can be actively involved in MSA.
And he is in the dean list also.
Siew loong probably's in it too and he represents NTU for international competition.
Will be going to Vancouver for competition soon. How cool.

Nevertheless, it all boils down to my priorities right?
Okay I need to do some recalculations.

everybody have their moments.

It is moments like this that I need to stand firm on my own feet.
strong, steady, unshaken.

it's just, sometimes, i really wish to lean on sth..

FOC FOC FOC

not free of charge but Freshmen Orientation Camp.
jumps jumps jumps.
scream scream scream.
haha.

yeap, it's about time.

"Don't give too much space cos when you give too much space, you'll lose him."

- Pretty Little Liars

I miss you

I was looking at the farewell party invitation and listening to this song:

Isabelle Lavinya Van Huizen!!!

Suddenly, i miss you so much :(

on the other hand, i never told you either..otherwise at least.

Yesterday, I dreamt of my grandfather. It was a really clear picture of him cos i remember seeing every wrinkle on his face.

Lately.. Hmmm. Been doing the Orientaton Group(OG) identity.

This. is a greek-ish armband. ;p

Yep, house has been quite a mess when we're doing it =P glad we're finally done with it ;)

Yes.. We've made that much of them!

I havent been online much either.

Back in Msia, quite a bit of stuff went on. Nevertheless, nth biggie.

Most of the time meeting up lovely friends, saturday was kind of a family day.

Helped my bro with his project in TAR college, with his bunch of project mates AND my mom helping.

Picture that eyh?

Haha!

And gosh, lately, sleeping hours become later and later and later!

Shucks! It's already 4.20am!

Chan Jit Yen! It's all your fault!

Haha, been watching pretty lil liars and project runway while doing the OG identity. =P

Anyway, i love these pics of us =)

Look at how retarded she looked :p

Remember Me?

"Eh? You're former student right??"

"Oh my, you remember me?"

"Wow, you look so different ady!"

"Is it? How different?"

"Bigger, taller.. Matured.. Sexy.."

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Not bad huh ;p

Lately, I just realized I create quite an impression in certain people's mind.

:)

I'm not trying to boast la...

It's just a lil surprising to realize people actually remember me.

I guess, it's a..good thing? Haha.

*****

That aside, here's an inspirational video to share:

 Enjoy! :)

The only things that do not change in this world are..Changes.

2 years ago things were like that.

A year go, things became like this.

Now, nothing is the same either.

Out of the blue, I started reading posts posted back in 2008.
Haha, I realised the number of times he was mentioned and realized how much he influenced my college years.
In fact, till now.

It feels strange sometimes and I used to question myself a lot about why did things turned out this way.
Many times, I was harping on those times we had and the feelings which have been haunting me.
I just couldnt bear to let go.
I just kept running back.

Haha, but I figured it's time.
This time round, it's different I guess.
I kept reminding myself to let go. Back then, I would run back.
I guess, after almost 2 years, it really is time, isnt it?

Haha, looking back older posts also reminds me of what I've forgotten about college times and how I was still in touch with some of my high school friends.

Really, cant deny that things are different now, arent they?
At least, physically, they are.
=)

where we were, where we are, where we are goina be... what we did, what we are doing, what we are goina do......

officially moving on

rain rain come and pour
and flush away my thoughts and feelings for him
for an ending is a new beginning


it's 3pm and it's raining.
it's 15th august 2010 and i decided it's time.



http://blinksoflife.tumblr.com/post/88860474/to-let-go-isnt-to-forget-not-to-think-about-or

check out that post, matches what I am thinking :)

you may ask, what took me so long?

I would answer, it's worth that long.

_____________________________________________________________________

OMG, I am very motivated to start year 2. I hope this motivation does not fade off!

Motivation :

Exchange program to Europe so that yu, qi, belle and I can go for Europe trip during year 3 summer break!

Actions: 

#1 score well! like darn well!

#2 earn money and save money!!

To all the people, keep reminding me of this ok! In case I lose track in between. =D

♥I LOVE YOU ALL♥

Love in disguise.

I am so so so addicted to this song!!!


HEHE. =D

Goina watch the movie this wednesday with ling and rica =)
sunday out with belle
monday karaoke
tuesday durian
wednesday movie
thursday belle+sakai+tasha
friday dinner
saturday family!
sunday off to singapore :(

gotta think think think about FOC's OG stuff!! Ahhhh. Not quite in the mood yet =S

Met choon today. After so long.. hah. =)

afraid of this feeling.

the day will come.

Where all these stop.

When i let go.

If the day comes...

Maybe and just maybe, i'll be better-off :)

speaking of which.

too busy making time for others feels a lil suffocating.

but i know i dont have much time :)

maybe it's when i always care about others more than i think for myself that's suffocating.

then again.. I know the choice is mine.

Everything seemed to make sense till i came back from toilet (THE STOMACHACHE)

Only because Belle asked me to do it. =S

Instructions:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool…

Opening Credits - First of May -Olivia

Waking Up: Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz

First Day of School: Look What You've Done - Jet (HAHAHA)

Falling in Love: 画沙 - 周杰伦 (Jay Chou) & 袁咏琳

Fight Song: What Am I to You - Norah Jones

Prom: 一首简单的歌 (A simple song) - 王力宏 (Lee Hom) (Awww. My all time favourite!)

Life: Gives You Hell - The All-American Reject (WTH. Lol. Seriously, stomach aching badly again)

Mental Breakdown: Sweet Caroline - Glee Cast Version (???!!!)

Driving: 笨小孩 - 刘德华，吴宗宪，柯受良

Flashback: Beautiful - Christina Aguilera

Getting Back Together: Heartless - Kanye West

Losing Your Virginity:Lucky - Jason Mraz,Colbie Callat (OMG)

Wedding: 猜不透 - 叮当 ( =S )

Birth of Child: All Good Things Come To An End - Nelly Furtado (LOL!)

Final Battle: 爱一直存在- 梁文音

Death Scene: Stranger - Secondhand Serenade

Funeral Song: Cookie Jar - Gym Class Hero (WTF. LOL)

End Credits: Lollipop - Mika

SWOLLEN LIP =(

Short moment before the lip swell...

AND KABOOM! SEE WHAT HAPPENED! =O

Argue. To or not to.

There are always many angle to look at an argument.

First-person point of view, second-person point of view, third-person point of view...

positive point of view, negative point of view...

critical point of view, reflective point of view...

Despite how good you are at twisting your words or manipulating one's emotions or how skillfully you articulate your points across, that does not make you a winner..

There's not right or wrong and in fact, there is no winner or loser in an argument.

Because there will be other reasons that can counteract your stand.

It's just a matter of whether someone would stand up to counteract it.

An argument lose its meanings if it fail to achieve certain purposes.

An argument lose its meanings when all well ends awry.

Argument should not even exists if there is no purpose to it.

the most horrendous dinner i've ever eaten, PERIOD.

The smell, the sound, the breeze, that feeling.

Nothing beats this feeling. =)

Doing my work by the window bay.

Feel the breeze and get cozy..

No rush No noise. Nothing but peace. :)

I miss getting hugs.

brielle.

haha. Something's not right with me lately.

Or have I always been not right? hah.

Well, I guess zk seen the crazy side of me lately. Crazy in a not-good sense. :S

Anyways, Im glad things between me and him are cleared and hence i dont feel as affected.

And exams.. Ah. As much as I said, "It's over!", i still cant help to feel kinda screwed up. I was hoping for something better.

Seriously though, is there a way to train speed reading? Not only reading with speed but also comprehend with speed.

I think i need a immense agility training. Like OVERALL agility. Not only reading or understanding.

I am just SLOW you know.. Or I am too detailed.. Or I have bad time management.

Okay, well, all of the above. =/

S.T.O.P.

i should stop getting so affected.

i dont even know if it exists!

A lot better

I am feeling a lot better compared to yesterday till evening.

:)

soothing musics plus cooling atmosphere sometimes help.

and presence of human beings help too.

I miss all of you dearly :)

Jin-Ni misses her family.

it's kinda weird. lately, greatgrandma(tai ma) appeared in my dream. da yi (aunt) appeared in my dream. gonggong appeared in my dream.

it's been months since gonggong passed away. For the past few months, when i enter that room i was still picturing gonggong's presence. Often, it took me a second to remember that gonggong's not here.

Also cos of that i tend to remind myself to appreciate presence of my grandma.

Most of you know that I've been busy with my minor lately. Irregular meals and sleeping time. I havent seen my dad for 2 weeks plus. It feels like Im living alone.
A while ago, i just saw sern's profile pic. Then i suddenly realised i havent talk to my brothers for very long time. At least jye commented on my status once.. Sern.. Really didnt talk to him since i left msia i think.

I miss my family.
I hope whatever career Im in in the future, it's not something that's so busy such that i hardly connect with my family and friends.

And sometimes when I am lonely, I think of you.

But i guess u're not any better off. Busier than I am perhaps.

Sometimes, I still cant help to question myself.
I usually cant find the answer to my questions.
Nevertheless, time will tell.


People say emotions add lives to objects.
I guess sometimes, emotions add to complexity.

IT struck me.

lately, there's been quite a number of stuff which triggered me to think and stirred up a mixture of feelings in me.

i've been busy with my minor in entrepreneurship.
i've spent days and days with my coursemates.
sometimes, it felt like we're a big family living in a big house (NTC-Nanyang Technopreneurship Center in this case) but yet, sometimes i just dont feel like i fit in with some people.

obviously, it's not fair to stereotype singaporeans but i dont know why being around some of them just dont quite make me comfortable.
I guess it's not really about the nationality then?

I have came to my own conclusion of different upbringing and education really make a difference.
Some might find some weird to do something that he/she are not used to in his/her upbringing.
Chim huh? Im indeed a chim-ologist. Lol.

I dont knowwwww. It's just, sometimes, i find myself a lil more anti-social than i usually am.
Why that discomfort, i wonder?

Often, it's our own mind playing tricks with ourselves. I'd really wish to break myself out of this circle and free myself from all these discomfort of being with some of them.
To them, they might think im too sensitive or they couldnt be bothered about what or how I feel.
To me, it's really just, I don't wana TRY to fit in.

Then again, why do I have to make things so complicated right?
Truth is, I am not. It really is just about how I feel.


Chim-ology aside, hahahaha.
Well, this minor in entrepreneurship course has been pretty anticipating.
I didnt regret taking this course despite the hectic hours and sleepless nights.
I learnt quite a lot.
Haha, initially it's like, fuaaa, semangat giler, spirit of entrepreneurs!
Very amazed by their 'no-complain' spirit, hence, i was like, cheong ahhhhhhhh! Lol.

Then slowly... You know what happens.
And conflicts are inevitable even if they arent the obvious ones.
Like i've always said, wherever there're humans, there're problems!

But I really learnt to see things from another perspective.
Which is one of the reason I feel very anticipated to go for classes although sometimes i cant help to fall asleep in the class. HAHA.

I really wish our course is conducted in such teaching manner. Everything will be so much better! Seminar style. Smaller class. Group work. Everything's much more effective in that sense. If you know what I mean.

And of course, I do miss all my friends in Malaysia or anywhere else.
Haha, on a sidenote, today i met chyi and wen for lunch, then 'doing work' in starbucks with chyi. I really miss those moments i spent with her when we were younger.
Back then, I really like to follow her wherever she goes. Haha :)
I remember how much she meant to me when we were young, so much so that i'd feel so so so sad to leave singapore and always looking forward to meet her.

Years have passed and we're all grown up. It's pretty amazing if we cousins can hang out often. It's a nice feeling.
Well, when we were younger, I wasnt very close to wen.
When we were a lil elder, we 3 hang out a bit from time to time.
But ummmm, i dont know why. I still dont feel quite myself when we 3 are hanging out together.
I actually feel a lil restrained.
They probably dont know. But yeah..
As I grew older, I feel more free to express myself.
And it'd be pretty cool if we can hang out more often and just talk about everything.
It's kinda like my dream to have this kinda relationship, in terms of family of course.

Just now, when i asked chyi abt wen and A. I was actually quite shock to hear that news.
Honestly, it really strucked me.
It made me get more skeptical about relationships.

Sighs.
The world is simple but made complicated by humans' thoughts and feelings.
I am glad to know about some stuff when I was 18 cos it got me prepared for what I faced few weeks back.

weird dream!

I just woke up.
But I had the weirdest dream ever.
I met jay chou in my dream and talked to him.
Rather.. He talked to me.

Kiat, yee chin, kee cynn and sheow ling were in the dream.
Initially the dream was a lil violent or scary.
So weird...
Kiat's like killing people and stuff..(with gun! :o hahaha)
at uni or sth?
i dont know.. i only remember the car park scene.
my hands were tied together at the back and i was sitted on a rolling chair?
yee chin and kee cynn were with me..
3 of us were trying to escape and save/warn others...
omg.. now that i am trying to recall...
more and more people are in the dream...
some from our uni.. some from my high school...

they were marching off some place...
damn weird damn weird!

then..dont know how or what...
i was with sheow ling..
probably escaped jumping from high place down..
sheow ling kinda slipped?
jay chou saw and helped?
like he was just a pass-byer and i didnt even realise he's jay chou..
he said one or two lines and he left with his people...

then at this broad broad field where a lot of people are playing kite...
i was at this corner (i dont remember how) but i was sitting down by this brick wall..
There's like a small stone/brick castle which u can see the field..
Then jay chou passed by again and saw me..
He said hi and asked what am i doing here
I was surprised that he could recognise me..
talked one or two lines then people start surrounding.
so he kinda had to flee.
but he gave me signals and walked into the shop.
i walked into the shop after him.
he gave me this piece of small cardboard with his e-mail and contact number on it.

i still can remember his phone number vaguely..
but it's malaysia's number??

AHAHAHAHAHA

Of theories and feelings.

In life, i believe, almost everyone of us have our own way of defining certain matters or theories on certain principles in life.

The thing is, everyone may look at one matter differently and contrast each other's opinion.

Take a matter for example, "Beauty".

If one should define beauty as simplicity,
he or she most likely is a simple person and thinks over-dressed people with heavy make-ups are disasters in terms of beauty.

If one should define beauty as the latest fashion,
he or she most likely is a person who follows the trend and find those who doesn't old-fashioned. Hence, no beauty.

But at the end of the day, no matter how you define "Beauty", it boils down to
how you feel about yourself,
how you feel or think of others in your own terms and
how you feel cos of what others have defined.

Sometimes, we define things certain way to unconsciously make ourselves feel better.
But sometimes, certain theories we defined just made us feel worse.

Humans are sensitive creatures.
No matter how life is defined, at the end of the day, it's about how you FEEL.

.520.521.522.

Today I did something that you and I should feel proud of myself :p
Anyway, this website helped a lot!

http://www.lifeinkl.com/2008/05/10/how-to-renew-your-passport/

Just to add on, there's student price for students studying overseas who are below the age of 21.

It's half price babeyh!!!

while waiting to collect my new passport..

camwhore lah sikit.

Okay, i look weird.. Nevermind. Move on.
TADA! I finally renewed my passport. =D

im no longer a happy kid.

im turning into a happy adult. :p

And that's the parking fee.

Mine cost RM5.20.

I was there from 10.05am till 12.52pm.

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Reasons why you should be proud of me:

(i) I drove my parents' 4WD, toyota rav4 for the very first time.

To a place where I do not know how to go.

(ii) I found my way there.

(iii) I found my way back.

(iv) I saved RM150 for my parents.

(v) Im back safe and sound, without any scratches on the car. LOL.

(vi) I did everything on my own! (pretty much)

(vii) I'm a man of my words. (I promised to get it done by this week.)

Teehee. Okay, you may think I'm exaggerating.
BUT nooooooooooooooo.

IM NOT.

For the past few days, I've been cracking my head thinking how to get there w/o a car.

And when I decided to drive that huge car (which i bet my mom wasnt very confident in letting me driving it and now that i drove it, she asks me to fetch my bro to and fro tuition =.=) ,

i've been staring at the google map for hours!!!!!!

LET me tell ya, GOOGLE map is of no use when it comes to malaysia.

Just follow the road signs.

But it's a lil dangerous if you see some road signs last minute and u wana change your lane la.

But all-in-all, it wasn't that difficult. :)

So yay! I proved to myself that I can be independent.

All you need is some guts to take the action, do some research, a lil bit of believing in yourself and voila! Nothing is too difficult in this world. Teehee.

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And so, in my facebook status I was saying:

Okay it's kinda blur. But it's alright. You can always go to facebook and see.

=P

But i think this 3 sets of number meant something to me.

I dont know why or how. But when I was driving back.

It just struck my mind.

It felt like I was decoding sets of numbers. (Haha)

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yesterday was 520.

520 = wo ai ni

It symbolizes my naiveness. Yesterday symbolizes my past.

When we were younger,

when we were first exposed to something call "love" and "relationships",

we didn't know what they are exactly.

But we gave all in.

To those beliefs.

Fairytales.

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tomorrow will be 522.

522 = my birthday

It symbolizes a new beginning. Tomorrow symbolizes my future.

Birthday. Is just another ordinary day.

Figures didn't matter when we were younger.

To us, money and prices, they were all just figures when we were a kid.

But 20.

20 means something.

It means goodbye teenhood.

It means money starts to mean more than just figures.

It means responsibilities.

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today is 521.
521 = B21

It symbolizes (in) between. Today symbolizes present.

Because 5 looks like B. And B21 means between.

For the past few days, I've been feeling pressured.

In many cases, I felt like I'm not up to expectations.

But today, a simple event proved that I can do it.

It takes guts to face what is appearing to you and blocking your way.

It takes the first step to get you going for the rest of the steps.

So don't feel stuck when you're in between.

It is nothin' but just a metamorphosis.

I chose to put up this pic cos i thought the "inbetween" is relevant.

Pic taken in a rest area in Switzerland.

(Speaking of which I still have tonnes of pics which are not uploaded!)

I've deciphered my codes. How about you? :)

And life has just so much more for you to decrypt.

NEVER GIVE UP.

NEVER LOSE FAITH.

hey..

I've always wana write something longer.
Always had so much to tell.
But when I'm here.

I ended up with short lines. Short words.
Vague stuff. so that people kinda get what i mean yet dont know what i mean.
lol. nahh, that's not the point.

it's just, a lot has been going on.
it's not like big issues and all.
but yet it's all the small lil things that count right?

i would say im fighting against myself.
perhaps it's a process of growing up?

gosh, i've been hiding in the room for the past few days. stuck at home.
i desperately need some fresh air.
DESPERATE. YOU HEAR ME?
DESPERATE.

fresh air. happy food. good companion.

wander to wonder.

they're like jigsaw puzzles.
waiting for me to solve.

I want to know what I can do.
never thought money could be an issue

is it the environment? is it the time? is it the age? is it you?

or is it just me?

i pretend to be fine.

:(

I want to talk to someone..BUT...

Study Madness~!

*****My table's so much more organized already! =P*****

And here are some previews to our study madness...

***Chiong-ing in McDonalds in Raffles Place (The couch is super comfy though! :)***

Okay, here comes the essence:

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hahaha.

since im not tired enough to sleep in the mrt, i decided to start blogging.

weeeeeee~

Lol. I'm high. I think.

ahahahhaha.

Lol, forgive me.

cos it felt like i havent been sleeping the whole night.

Weeeeeee~

Okay, by now you should know how high/drowsy I am right now.

HAHA.

Fact is, I didnt really sleep much la.

Haha, lately been chiong-ing. But all these while, as much as I try to chiong, I always have excuses to slack la.

BUT, yesterday night was different.

It was HARDCORE chiong. Weeeeee~

HAHAHA.

From about 7-ish pm till about 5-ish am. With Bobo and Kiat.

In old canteen A.

The weather was good.

I was totally in the mood.

Dang~ I can't wait to get a room in hall for next acad year! =D

Yeah... Kiat left about 6am. Bobo left about 6-ish am.

And hence I was left stranded.

Cos Kiat would need his bed to sleep and his roomie, Hung would be sleeping too.

HENCE, no bed. for me.

Cos Bobo's "AWESOME" roomie doesn't like other people entering their room.

HENCE, don't even think about stepping into the room with her presence.

HENCE THE ULTIMATE HENCE, (lol) I slept at the couch at one side of the Old Canteen A.

Apparently, I wasn't the only one ;) Haha!

Of course, earlier (about 5-ish am) I sms-ed Enrique to let me know as soon as he wakes up. So that I can sleep on his bed!

THANKFULLY:) he woke up about 8am. So the "blur blur" me went to catch a bus to go his room to sleep.

As much as I thought I should and wanted to go for my 10.30am computing tutorial...

Yep, I bet you got it right. I didnt go! (Thanks to Enrique la. For telling me don't need to go la.)

Nevertheless, I didn't read anything for computing. So even if I attended the tutorial, I'd be so blank.

BUT, I already woke up. Didn't know what to do. Jeng jeng jeng~ Yepppp, you got it right again!

Get back to chiong-ing. Weeeeeeeee~

HAHAHA.

It actually felt pretty good. I felt the drive. Despite the slight drowsiness(and also the discomfort cos I don't get to brush my teeth and...OKAY, I shall not go into details for this. XP).

I think I was high. HAHA. But seriously, it felt like everything I study gets into my head and like the revision just speed up. =D

I don't wana lose the drive.

OMG, am I crazy? Are you thinking that I'm crazy?

Aiyoooo, of course I took breaks in between studies la. And if not cos I had to rush home for the air-cond service thingy. I might have staed on to study(and perhaps nap) la.

(Oh shit, I'm using a lot of 'la's... =/)

Hence proven my current hype.

HaHA :p

Okay okay, I should nap.

*Huh...... I'm only half way through the journey... At least 45 mins mroe to reach home =/ Sighs*

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Hahaha, FYI, that was written in the mrt in the afternoon la~

And here are our chiong-ing pics! :p

9.32pm... (Mc! McD!)

2.55am...







6.24am... (Kiat left ady..)

6.25am...

In case u're wondering, that yellow thingy is a small blankie Kiat brought for me. :)

So YUP. I believe that's sufficient info to show that our final's next week.

BTW, for those who don't know what is "chiong", it is basically singlish which means "pok meng" for studies. haha.


LAST BUT NOT LEAST, as requested...

Haha, I guess some of you might not know I cut my hair?

Or you guys know ady?

Some prefers me with fringe, some otherwise.

I didnt like the fringe at first. Now that it's longer. It's a lil better.

Hmmm, fringe and w/o fringe, that big difference?

it's not like you haven't been through this

again and again you face this.
each time stronger than before.
or rather immuned.

no more heart breaks. no more heart aches.
and life's just so dull.

i know i wanted this.
and i know it's the right thing to do.
or at least it's what's best for now.

nevertheless, i long for that kinda feelings again.
it's just. even if the whole world turns upsidedown and against you,
you're not afraid to fall cos u know for sure, there's someone to catch you. Anytime at all.
It's a sense of belonging.

But then again. I know I can be independent.
Increasingly independent.
Only thing is, even the hardest steel melts.
When u're so tired, u just wana fall into one's arms.

I guess, I'll just hafta keep reminding myself about the targets I wana hit, goals I wana achieve and dreams I wana make true.

And day by day,
I'll get numb and number.


p.s. I hate first day of menstrual. urgh.

Bad day?

I had a rough day.

But I'm not complaining.
Actually..Why not!?

Okay..Are you ready..?

WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU! DAMN YOU M!@#$% F!@#$%^&!
what do u all know about what i am going through
so why are u telling me what to do!
what makes u think im obligated to do
and it's not like i dont do anything at all
damn u m@#$%^f#$%^&

dont u put ur freaking words on me!
ONE DAY! one day im goina m$%^&f$%^&* blast it all out!

Phew~ okay. better. A LIL. hahaha! XD
Oops..

okay.. first of all, i felt like a total screwed up. I felt useless.
2nd of all.. Picture below tells u everything..

Haha, I doubt u can see the words, but it says "bruises" and "peel off".

3rd of all, thank you very much for reminding about how I am not good enough. Or at least will never be. T.T

Okayyyyy~ So much so for a rough day.

But im still not complaining. (Fine~ i kinda blasted a lil on top. but i didnt complain...! Did i?)

Lookin' on the bright side:

first of all, i feel the desperate drive to study and work harder. (*cross fingers*)

2nd of all..Im getting organized XP well, at least i cleared up quite some stuff. finally, a nicer and neater table in my room :)

3rd of all..My cough's getting a lot better! Yay! XD

4th of all.......Im off to study now! Woot~

Haha, but I'm getting tired again..Thyroid i guess?

The emotional rides and constant tiredness. =( "Go away!!"

Bites on tight.
Hang on there.

Roar.


I dont feel good. But I will make sure I feel good at the end of the day.

Dear Blog,

I miss you so much blogggg!!
:(
I have so much to tell and always wanted to tell.
But everytime i open up YOU, my blogpage, I ended up not writing.

it's been a while. A lot of things happened. Yet a lot comes under one. I guess?
Sighs.
I guess, i'll update soon? Or not. =/

I realised i have less than 3 weeks to cheong for my finals!
AND i felt like I haven't even started my semester yet! You get what i mean?
I am totally clueless on what we're studying now considering the fact that I've been skipping lectures and even tutorials. For many reasons. Good and bad.

SO, I am going to hang up the "NO DISTURB" sign and discipline myself. TAHAN for at least these few weeks! It's merely few weeks and it's over!!!

It might or it might not be over. =/ Depending on whether I get to study Minor in Entrepreneurship.

I dont know la.. I have a lot of things to do and a lot in mind. There are family commitments lately, there's this part time job, there's piled up assignments every week, meetings and events. If you think I'm not stressed out, think again. But even if I am, it's not like I'm going to tell you all.

Anyway, I know there's no one else to blame but me.
It's my responsibility to pull this altogether and make it work.

Hence, I have to bear in mind to focus. FOCUS for the next weeks for finals.
The rest, comes later.

Wishes.

It's been a while since i've last smile from heart.
Haha.

Well, good thing is I'm recovering.
I guess it was the tiredness being a nuisance for the past few days.

It's a good thing, it's a good thing.
Lol, finally sth not so depressing after few emo posts huh.

There's sth I really wana post abt.
But right now i gotta get my uni workloads done.

Hopefully i can write it out tmr.
Till then. :)

Im feeling more and more distant from you all

Give me a direction.

Lately, I've been pretty emo or rather, I was having mood swings I would say.

Im sure you guys noticed that.
Or you dont?
Hmmmm...

It's just, I feel so drained. Whether emotionally or physically..
I really wana recover and freaking get myself out of this shit.

But even taking a nap, I get all those msgs and phone calls coming in.
I slept when I reachedd home abt 8+pm till abt 12am, then showered and here I am.

Im alone.
I feel ultimate blankness.
I didnt wana have anything to do with the world.
I just dont know what am I doing!

You know, for the past few days, I really really wished you guys would have taken the initiative to contact me?
Sorry.. I think I've been ridiculous lately..
I just dont know what to do.

But well, I know I need to finish up whatever I'm suppose to do for Uni.
Again, I know I'm being ridiculous BUT gosh, can't I just freaking get a week break from all these..
I know I shouldnt take my grandpa's funeral as an excuse to not do things, to BE emo etc etc.

Sighs. I just feel like complaining.
I just..
been through couple of things i guess..
Or still going through

Lost track of time and date.

I dont know what's wrong with me!
I clearly dont!

But I know. No matter what.
I need to put myself back together at start gearing up for upcoming tasks.

I know.
I will.
But maybe just not now.
Not this very moment.

Tell me what to think. And what NOT.

i hate to feel this way.
:'(

for a moment, it felt like i've so many people around me and yet i felt lonely.

Goodbye. The word I didnt get to say.

If u see a girl sitting in a corner of the mrt tearing, will u wonder what has happened?
Well, the girl might have just lost her grandfather..

I received a text (out of the blue) from my dad, saying my grandpa passed away..
I was in a group discussion for my assignment.
So I excused myself to make a phone call.

I tried as much as I could to hold back my tears during discussion.
There were moments during the discussion that I was spacing out.
Partly cos I was so tired from lack of sleep yesterday night, I couldnt really respond to it.

After the discussion, I went to the toilet. OK~ I sobbed for a SUPER short while in the cubicle.
But I was lucky cos I had enrique by my side (Thank you so much for keeping me accompanied).

I was worried about chyi and wen which are in Europe.
How're they coping?

And my grandma..
I did go to her personally when she was watching drama alone in the room when everybody left. I asked if she's okay. She said she's okay.
BUT you know when someone says he or she is okay, THEY'RE NOT right!

(Imagine having someone sleeping beside u all the time and suddenly, nobody's sleeping beside you..)

I should have given her a hug.. =/
That's the least I could have done la...

Nevertheless, gong gong.. I hope u'll rest in peace and look after us from above.
You're missed.
I wish there was a chance for us to get some last words.
If there were, what would you say?

Would you tell me in my dreams?

*shit la.. probably can't study or do anything for the next few days.. Funeral and all.. AAAaaa!HOW HOW HOW. 2 tests, 2 assignments, 1 formal lab report! DIE. Can I NOT GO TO UNI NEXT WEEK!*

深处的感慨

Life can be so short yet so long huh.
haha.
Well, are there times when you suddenly lose faith and dont know what else to believe again?
Or at least you dont remember what you held on to so firmly once upon a time?

Even if the whole world falls on you and you feel like falling apart and giving up,
My friend,
Never lose faith..
Because if everyone loses faith,
The Earth will no longer spin!

And dont lose faith,
for I am still here with you.
HUGS.
我的内心是在哭着的。可是，我会提醒我自己，不可以这样！:)
Right now, at this very moment, Tasha, Tara!!! I miss you all very much.

Good stuffz ;)

Im becoming more and more lazyyyyy!

Aaaaaa. Too much of bad influence! Tsk tsk tsk.

hahaha. kay la it's my own fault.

CANNOT!! I gotta start to get serious tmr.

Wana go tcc at changi to study again.. BUT i've been spending too much money lately.

SIGHs.

Neways, lazy to type things out. SO, let the pics tell u the rest of the story aytee.. =P

HAHA. So yepp~ Remember I was sayin' in the previous post that there were few other stuff which made me happy too?

Here they are:Yeah, found a few places to study at changi. T3 =)I don't know why but I always feel happy after going to the airport. And darn, tcc's a good place =D but it's gona cost me quite a bit if i go there often.. Thankfully, there's this dinner promotion thing. BUT STILL, haha, will be going there often but not too frequent of course.AND SO, my CNY this year was just ordinary. Didnt feel much like a CNY anyways. =/

It was only 2 days of celebration for me. Then I'm in uni again.

Good news was, Bobo came back to uni on Tuesday.Bad news was, SHE LEFT 2 DAYS AFTER THAT! This girl ahhhh! TSK TSK.Nevertheless, we bought stuff from mini bits. And YES, that freaking pin costs abt $3 la! DAMN..

Hahaha, i know i've already complained a few times, but yea, WELL, i still like the necklaces a lot =) Hence, I'm a happy girl once again =P lolTHEN it was a friday. Haha, that day was a lil different. And I watched movie for the first time through out my Uni days. This is it, Dear John:HERE COMES SATURDAY!! =) Best day ever. Haha. My first hands-on DSLR experience!

How about that huh! ;)Haha, my sifu, Enrique =)*DRUM ROLLS* Happy Chap Goh Mei!! Yeah, went to my grandma's place for lunch today.

Took a pic of these flowers otw back. Just find them really sweet and nice =)

NICE NOTTTTTT =P

Went dinner at grandma's place again... See the pic below? The 3 yellow spots? The middle one's the moon. Yes, not street light. It DID look pretty huge with eyes, unfortunately not in the pic. =/

ANYWAYS, check out my artpiece here :-

Part 1:

http://www.facebook.com/enrique.leeweixun?v=photos&ref=ts#!/album.php?aid=201683&id=698805254

Part 2:

http://www.facebook.com/enrique.leeweixun?v=photos&ref=ts#!/album.php?aid=201717&id=698805254

And here are some of my best shots (according to enrique, lol):

sighs. this should not be happening. NO, stay conscious jinni! stay conscious!

NEVERTHELESS, pictures towards the end's getting blur cos it's night and the shutter speed was super slow. Hence, slight movements make em blur.. =(

AND AND AND. There are more pics in my phone which i'll likely to upload them in to facebook (*cross fingers*) so Im not putting all the pics here. So yep. Stay tuned. HAHA ;P

♥Missing you guys! Havent been able to talk to u guys properly lately :( ♥