Good stuffz ;)

Im becoming more and more lazyyyyy!

Aaaaaa. Too much of bad influence! Tsk tsk tsk.

hahaha. kay la it's my own fault.

CANNOT!! I gotta start to get serious tmr.

Wana go tcc at changi to study again.. BUT i've been spending too much money lately.

SIGHs.

Neways, lazy to type things out. SO, let the pics tell u the rest of the story aytee.. =P

HAHA. So yepp~ Remember I was sayin' in the previous post that there were few other stuff which made me happy too?

Here they are:Yeah, found a few places to study at changi. T3 =)I don't know why but I always feel happy after going to the airport. And darn, tcc's a good place =D but it's gona cost me quite a bit if i go there often.. Thankfully, there's this dinner promotion thing. BUT STILL, haha, will be going there often but not too frequent of course.AND SO, my CNY this year was just ordinary. Didnt feel much like a CNY anyways. =/

It was only 2 days of celebration for me. Then I'm in uni again.

Good news was, Bobo came back to uni on Tuesday.Bad news was, SHE LEFT 2 DAYS AFTER THAT! This girl ahhhh! TSK TSK.Nevertheless, we bought stuff from mini bits. And YES, that freaking pin costs abt $3 la! DAMN..

Hahaha, i know i've already complained a few times, but yea, WELL, i still like the necklaces a lot =) Hence, I'm a happy girl once again =P lolTHEN it was a friday. Haha, that day was a lil different. And I watched movie for the first time through out my Uni days. This is it, Dear John:HERE COMES SATURDAY!! =) Best day ever. Haha. My first hands-on DSLR experience!

How about that huh! ;)Haha, my sifu, Enrique =)*DRUM ROLLS* Happy Chap Goh Mei!! Yeah, went to my grandma's place for lunch today.

Took a pic of these flowers otw back. Just find them really sweet and nice =)

NICE NOTTTTTT =P

Went dinner at grandma's place again... See the pic below? The 3 yellow spots? The middle one's the moon. Yes, not street light. It DID look pretty huge with eyes, unfortunately not in the pic. =/

ANYWAYS, check out my artpiece here :-

Part 1:

http://www.facebook.com/enrique.leeweixun?v=photos&ref=ts#!/album.php?aid=201683&id=698805254

Part 2:

http://www.facebook.com/enrique.leeweixun?v=photos&ref=ts#!/album.php?aid=201717&id=698805254

And here are some of my best shots (according to enrique, lol):

sighs. this should not be happening. NO, stay conscious jinni! stay conscious!

NEVERTHELESS, pictures towards the end's getting blur cos it's night and the shutter speed was super slow. Hence, slight movements make em blur.. =(

AND AND AND. There are more pics in my phone which i'll likely to upload them in to facebook (*cross fingers*) so Im not putting all the pics here. So yep. Stay tuned. HAHA ;P

♥Missing you guys! Havent been able to talk to u guys properly lately :( ♥

Reason why Jinni's a happy girl at night.

I dont know why but lately I cant really concentrate during the day time. Hence, I'd slack the whole day till the night falls.
And these are amongst the reasons i can keep myself awake at night(when i mean night, i seriously meant night till midnight 4+am) :

I have kor to accompany me to study! ;)AND OF COURSE, CHYI TOO =)Lol. She look expressionless cos she's doing her work and she didnt know i screenshot this, obviously =P

Lately, I've been on skype more than msn. Reason being, I dont have many contacts in skype. Only the few people that I actually video call to are in skype. So, not so much of a distraction when I study.

Check out my new found baby:

haha, i duno why but i like it a lot. The above picture is actually my hp homescreen image.

Reminds me to focus whenever I see it =D

It's actually a dried flower. It smelt pretty good when it was fresh though.

AND ONCE AGAIN, Jinni's a happy girl at night =)

if only the same goes to day time..



*There's few more reasons why I'm delighted. Stay tuned for the next post. HAHA! =P*

this is what u get when u try to study at night

Look at the horrible eyes!

see! i've got double layer of dark eye ring!

*yawns*


and the pimple on my right cheek! ><

HAHA.
so much so for today. =P

for the moment (part II)

and so i slept in the canteen. like pig.

woke up to a total blurness.

I totally forgotten i was sleeping in canteen.

Haha.

Sit till my ass burning.

and i really wana go poo poo now.

But nobody's with me :(

I cant just leave my stuff, especially my laptop here.

At the same time, i dont wana bring my laptop to toilet!

it's somehow rather cold here. Surprisingly.

Cos I'm sitting directly underneath the fan and also cos the crowd's reducing drastically i guess.my view from the place i sit. next to the window area..

Met Kiat for lunch today. Finally! After so long.

We updated each other a lil.

Really miss those KDU moments.

Kiat and I both agreed that we long to search for those feelings at those moments.

Yesterday, I had flashbacks of taman intan baiduri times..

Suddenly missed that place we used to call home.

the field, the basketball court..

then recollected memories of tasha and I at perfection tuition centre..

Sometimes when we're busy growing up, we tend to forget the feelings back then.

At that very moment.

We may have images, flashbacks.

But we forget how it once felt like.

Or at least long for it when u start to think about it.

When we're all busy looking forward, we forget what we left behind.

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and i know how it feels like to wake up and realise you're alone.

For the moment

okay.. im actually feeling pretty blur right now..
brain feels heavy...
though eyes are still open.

having meeting at 8pm.
and i ate dinner at like what? 5-ish pm.
Im stuff-ed.

slept at 4.30am, almost 5am actually and woke up abt 7.30am..
that's why.

ok, i wanted to talk abt some stuff but with my current condition, i think i better take a nap first.

wait for "For the moment (part II)"
LOL.
nite................... zzzzzzzz

does the first always give such a great impact?

=D ! =O !

okay i damn sien in the library. he's right.. i wont study.
grh!
wth.

and i did the silliest thing ever just now.
it always happens.
tsk.

aaaaaaaaa!
i need to talk to someone right now!!
=D

k la, i should do my tutorials. :(
we ate lunch together!!! :o !!!

Goodbye again :)

im leaving this place in a while.
i already miss this place.
:(
i cant imagine, if i actually chose to study in US.
i'll miss this place like HELL.


once again i leave with wounded heart. haha

对不起..

我选择逃避。
我懦弱。
我选择短痛。
我很自私。

可是，这应该是最好的解决方法。
至少现在是。

Happy CNY :)

remember how cny was like when we were younger?
6 years ago, you were this boy who was courting this sweet lil girl.
Haha. CNY at age of 20, definitely feels a lil different.
you didnt know what love is but you had a broken heart.
:)
haha, but you were persistent.
Back then, when we were younger, it's just plain pure kids celebrating chinese new year.
Lol. We either play, eat or argue amongst the kids.
Well, CNY back then was just sth RED to me and it means getting ang pao and dressing up.
Back then, when my brothers and I were younger, we get a lot of nagging from parents.
Sometimes, we argue.
Most of the times, we play with our cousins.
4 years later, you finally got the girl.
But well, people grow up.
It's not necessarily a bad thing. :) haha!
After one year plus things got awry, you decided to call it off.
Today's cny eve and so we had our reunion lunch(unlike the rest of the people, ours is lunch instead of dinner. lol, dont ask me why! it's been like that all the time! haha).
Another year has passed just like that. You're no longer sure what you want anymore.
I woke up late cos i slept at 6+am. Actually, I fell asleep in front of the laptop after I came home from pavillion and sending kc & vincent home. Then yc called. And I couldn't sleep afterthat.
So I was talking to a few people online. Those midnight 'ghosts', figuratively of course. ;p
And here I am, no longer sure what I want anymore too.
Then finally the lazy me got myself movin' and put on the new set of bedroom sheets and etc. By the time I'm done, it's already abt 6+am. That's why.
I am living in between.
So today was spent for reunion lunch, helping parents a lil bit, facing my laptop and sleeping.
Remember how I hated to do house chores last time..
Even washing the dishes annoys me. To me, I'd think, why do I need to do all the dishes when everybody else's had a share of eating.. Why does mommy always make me do the chores and not my brothers.. Doing all these house chores is a waste of time cos I could have study or watch tv or go surfing the net, etc.. Why can't mom do them.. She's a housewife.. Isn't it her duty? I have my duty as a student and that is to study.. She wants me to excel in study but she makes me do all these petty stuffz... bla bla bla..
Basically, A LOT of complains going on in my mind and all.
You've got your opportunity and I've got mine.
Lol.
But it turned out, we both were always late to realise the opportunity has just slipped away.
Now that I am 20(unofficially), all these hardly come across my mind anymore.. =)
Haha. Maybe it's cos I'm in university and apart from all the tiring journey and uni stuff bothering me, I had to do house chores on my own in Singapore.
Despite being tired, I know I'll still have to do it no matter what.
So I made myself do em and told myself they aren't that difficult and wont take me long.
Once I'm done, I can rest in peace.
AND so, to me, doing all these house chores aren't any life-taking stuff anymore. HAHA.
Parents no longer need to pester me to do all these.
Well, they still do nag and etc.
Maybe it's the age thing.
At 15, whatever your parents say doesn't make sense to u.
Whatever they say annoys you.
At 17 or 18, you cry thinking why can't your parents treat you like an adult.
At 20, you tolerate whatever they nag about you.
lol ;)
6 years in total. We've been through the beauty and the mess..
Or maybe it's when you leave a place you call home that you'll start to appreciate and miss them.
Right?
So now tell me, what is left

i dont feel good

both emotionally and physically.

wonder if it's my stomach rebelling.

nevertheless, finally! it has come to an end.

it's like a total relief in that sense.

But sigh, i just feel like sighing.

i think im having gastric la..

close your eyes..
you're on a stage.
it's all dark but a faint spotlight on you.
there's no one else but you.

start spinning around and splitting in the air..
feel the control of your body within you..

i wana dance right now.. :( :(

Jin-Ni

is happy to be single and carefree. :)

and have a bunch of great college buddies, high school sweethearts, my wife, my family and other lovely friends.

♥

not goina ask for more. ;)

What is real?

Please give me something to believe.

Hmmm. Tell me how should I deal with this.

I miss you.. I dont miss you.. I miss you or not?

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Ok, 180 degree change of topic.
i tell u ah! sometimes daddies can really be a nuisance.
grhh.
thank god my mood's good today ><
but still..
i thought i'm the one who's suppose to get pms!

why is it opposite! lol.

gahhh! ahhhh! there's some excitement in me and i just dont know why.
Yet there's this thing in me which is holding me back.

well, yeah, i'm supposed to be quite stressed out by now. Surprisingly, i felt pretty relaxing today. Haha, even i dont know if i should say it's a good improvement in dealing with things or if i should say i'm becoming ignorant.

i wish you can read my mind sometimes.

Glitter in the air ♥

i like her voice. and i salute her for this performance, really. Even I watching it feels dizzy watching her spin, and yet she could do it while singing and even dipped herself into water?

wow.

the whole concept of glitter in the air and pure.. LOVE it~

check out the lyrics :)

Of stress and fatigue, haha

i told myself not to self-pity.
sacrifices are necessary for something in return.

i kept telling myself too, that if i cant handle these much of things, what else can I handle in future?

I'm not tired I'm not tired I'm not tired.
I'm not stressed out I'm not stressed out I'm not stressed out.
I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine.

haha.

Everybody has problems of their own in their own life.

Well, I just need to learn how to handle it the best way I can. Stress due to undelightful circumstances are inevitable. But we'll deal with it right?

And to u my dear laopo, you'll pull it through alright?
I'm here.
though I might not be sufficient to provide. (lol)
Cos at the end of the day, it's how you deal with it.
But throughout the process, I'll be here.

Same goes to all my friends ayte? :)

Just that, I realised i've been prioritizing my school events and responsibilities, friendship over studies and myself..
Not that I want to be selfish and stop caring for others, but I'll need to balance this and really make a change.
I hope ya all can support me on this and not thinking why have I changed.

Oh no, battery running low! Left my charger at bobo's place :(
till then.
i love ya all =)