My parents think I have poor money management.

And for me to think of changing my passbook account to debit card account, my dad think it's immature.

What?

I actually told them to see what's their opinion. And I dont know how this leads to immaturity.

When you feel bad, you just have to think of reasons not to feel so.

Been wanting to blog.. You can expect this post to be another wordy post cos I am so lazy to upload photos. Tonnes of photos in camera but none uploaded to facebook either.

Just as most of you know, I'm back in Malaysia and am going back to Singapore soon.
From exams to part-time job to EID to Vietnam to Malaysia, many juicy lil things happened.
To think of it, it's pretty overwhelming, I don't know where to start!
Nothing BIG happened. The only thing is that I felt different, from how I was before this.

To be honest, I don't know when did it started. My birthday? Or after? No idea.
It's as if someone implanted a seed in my soul to be acting and feeling this way.
You could say I'm feeling matured. It's this strong feeling in me. It's not sth I'm trying to be.

You know how you used to think you're matured when you're 18?
And how you want to prove to your parents or the adults that you ARE matured?
Acting as if you are so matured and pissed at your parents because they still think that you aren't matured enough to handle things?

Yeah.. Nothing like that. No longer like that, at least. How would I put it?
I'd say, it's as if you see a different light. The way you view certain matters and the way you respond to it.

Most of my friends felt the difference when they're around me. But I guess they could get use to it.

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LATEST ADDICTION (been playing it repeatedly):

在很久很久以前
你拥有我
我拥有你
在很久很久以前
你离开我
去远空翱翔
外面的世界很精彩
外面的世界很无奈
当你觉得外面的世界很精彩
我会在这里衷心的祝福你
每当夕阳西沉的时候
我总是在这里盼望你
天空中虽然飘着雨
我依然等待你的归期
在很久很久以前
你拥有我
我拥有你
在很久很久以前
你离开我
去远空翱翔
外面的世界很精彩
外面的世界很无奈
当你觉得外面的世界很无奈
我还在这里耐心的等着你
每当夕阳西沉的时候
我总是在这里盼望你
天空中虽然飘着雨
我依然等待你的归期
我依然等待你的归期

In my context, 我 is HOME, it's here and it's you. 你 is me. Felt like this song is on a replaying mode whenever I'm at home.
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Lately, been worried about my brother. I think friends of mine who are the eldest child in the family are normally concerned about their younger siblings. It's a responsibility we tend to carry.

So if you're younger siblings, don't let your family worry about you ya?

Couple of stuff happened. Me. For my friend as well. I could relate to them.

We want what's best for the younger ones, but how do we know what's best?

My dad told me, if they hadn't told me what they told me back when I was 18,
will I be able to enjoy these much of freedom w/o worrying about tied down by relationships etc.
Well, that wasn't his exact phrase. But that's more or less what he meant.
What my parents do not know is that they were partially the cause of my complicated relationship which haunted me for quite a while.
They wanted what's best for me. But how do they know what's best for me?

A lot of things, adult learn by experience and mistakes.
They don't want their children to repeat their mistakes.
But some things, sometimes, it's just part and parcel of life.
It's just growing up. It's not sth you can or should stop it from happening to your loved ones.

Sometimes, caring for your loved ones means letting them fall and learn how to stand up and move forward. Caring is not holding their hands tight and not let go. So if they're off the ground and you insist to hold their hands tight and not let go, it's almost as if leaving them hanging in the air and disabling them from foot holding the ground.

Let go. Let them fall. And they crawl and they stand. Then, you encourage them to move forward.

Let them know, that you'll be there.

My friend, you get what I mean right?
We can't do much. Decision is theirs.

All we can do is light up the paths when they're in their darkest moments.

Should have posted this on my birthday.

Greetings from Hanoi, Vietnam!!

Ok, can't log on to facebook so I figured this is one of the way to reach out. Though I doubt anyone would be reading this post anytime soon.

Loving it :) was tired this afternoon cos I only slept an hour or lesser prior to departure.
But we're spending more than I've budgeted and we won't be going to Sa Pa anymore...

I guess I can do it some other time.. Cos it'd be quite rushing to do it.
I'm excited about the 3 days 2 nights cruise in Halong Bay though!

WooHooo! Many many pictures in Facebook when I'm back! Hopefully I wont be too lazy to upload them into facebook.

Finally, a true blue holiday! :D

Life's awesome as of now.

IA allocation, winning of EID, chances of taking part in James Dyson Award..

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HAHA. Hope these are like the stepping stone to build dreams and
dreams will come true someday, right? ;)