5 years ago,

the song led me wandering in my world of imagination of how my future would be.

3 years ago, 

I painted a different picture with agonized emotions while listening to that song, engrossed in the present.

Today, 

I am at the 'future' I used to think about, listening to the same song with such different feeling 

and left wondering about my past 5 years.

The same song. The different me.

Hmmm, maturity or extrication?

Time to say goodbye again

It's my very own version of 100 days of summer.

And well hello-hello there autumn!

Sighs, sadly, my autumn means work and study and all that.

Back to that dull days.

I dont know whether to be thankful for the summer's gale or..
to feel reserved forever-after for I hate how I'm given hopes
and then for-all-you-know, it's just a passing wind.

How does it feel like to have an ex that's concern if your new bf (or not even bf..) is treating you well...?
And you know deep inside you're not happy But you said

"Haha I'll always be happy XXX
It's not about how others treat me
but how I treat myself."


How's that.

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I don't know since when did I get so comfortable with being alone.. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing.

and I didn't realize that until kc ask me to not to get too used to it.

don't lose your cool

these are one of the times i wana to smack myself on the head..!
hai yor ganjinniiiii, you were all over the place. get hold of yourself! tsk tsk tsk

#sane words#

Foolish.

i feel stupid.

i'm cleaning up my room and as usual digged out lots of stuff.

i found my first bday present from que.. awww.
and i also found a letter i wrote to maha which i didn't give it to her. it's about my 21st bday .. more like disappointments.. about how i treasure our friendship so much but it's not the same for her..

then i realise maybe i'm not only feeling insecure with will? maybe it's just me? needing so much of assurance?

how chyi is right about everybody wish to be treated the way they treat others but not receiving the equal doesn't mean it's not ideal?

well maybe some ppl are just not worth the tears..

My brain has not been functioning well lately.

Haha, I'm serious! I don't know why.. Maybe I've been rotting, having fun, drained (physically), yada yada..

Was in the slacking mode.. It's like you just feel so heavy you don't even wana move an inch as if it's goina take tonnes of your energy (which it really felt like that)..

BUT NO MORE JINNI! NO more slacking! Arghhh.

Yesterday when I was otw back from NTU to Tanah Merah, idk how we started talking about acad stuff. I usually am very reluctant to even think about it. Maybe the conversation flow so smoothly I didn't even realize we were talking about it!

And suddenly it struck me that I am entering Year 4 - Final year of University!
Also, talking to Mr. Wong in the afternoon..
GDI, suddenly I feel like there's so much to do and I HAVE TO start!

Wow.. amazing isn't it. How time flies. I will never forget how I was rushed into NTU and how I find year 3 seniors old when I was conversing with them during my first year; Look who's in year 4 now!

P.S. I am so happy with my single room! Thanks to Chee Peng! :D

(Hmmm, whatever happened to what you've strongly believed in? Not taking any action Jinni?)