Conversation that made me CRY so badly.

[1:40:00 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: apparently the resume is like filling up the form online kind of thing..
[1:40:04 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: =/
[1:40:17 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: i think i'll most likely go for local internship first
[1:40:27 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: then apply for exchange programme in my 2nd semester
[1:40:48 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: after contemplating about it
[1:40:51 AM] wahkwang: Mum was asking why Montreal
[1:41:13 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: because i saw the e-mail and i thought it would be an interesting experience
[1:41:13 AM] wahkwang: Yah, that's a better choice
[1:41:39 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: i am going through the list of interviewing companies
[1:41:47 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: i can only choose one
[1:41:51 AM] wahkwang: Guess mum wants to keep you around
[1:41:57 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: lol
[1:42:09 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: she'll never be able to let me go then
[1:42:23 AM] wahkwang: She is very proud of you,
[1:42:53 AM] wahkwang: Said that you have also make her having respected too
[1:43:10 AM] wahkwang: .... by others
[1:43:50 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: haha, really?
[1:44:14 AM] wahkwang: It's ok, if you want to go for further study after NTU
[1:44:26 AM] wahkwang: Yes, she dies
[1:44:34 AM] wahkwang: Does
[1:45:01 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: lol, your typo eror gave me a shock
[1:45:35 AM] wahkwang: Well the i and o is just beside
[1:46:42 AM] wahkwang: She said you have make us proud for being good in your study
[1:46:55 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: i am glad
[1:47:04 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: but I dont think I did good enough
[1:48:02 AM] wahkwang: It's ok, we know you can do better just that sometimes you loss focus
[1:48:28 AM] wahkwang: You likes to enjoy too much...
[1:49:10 AM] wahkwang: Likes spending too much time on extra curriculum
[1:49:50 AM] wahkwang: If u focus on your study you'll definitely do much better..
[1:50:56 AM] wahkwang: Actually mum was the one who has put a lot of effort on you, and you are her product.
[1:51:41 AM] wahkwang: You are like her, see the way you know how to bargain
[1:52:20 AM] wahkwang: and handle ppl
[1:53:05 AM] wahkwang: Ok, I am going to sleep now, tomorrow I've a morning flight to catch.
[1:53:23 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: okay, good night dad. sleep well.
[1:53:30 AM] wahkwang: Good nite and take care, sleep early
[1:53:44 AM] Jin-Ni Gan: thanks. you have no idea what you said means how much to me. hugs.
[1:53:50 AM] wahkwang: Love dad


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Suddenly I realised, I haven't been crying for a while. When was the last time I cried? I don't remember..

. . . Something To Think About . . . 

THE SITUATION
 In Washington DC , at a Metro Station, on a cold January morning in 2007, this man with a violin played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes.  During that time, approximately 2,000 people went through the station, most of them on their way to work.  After about 3 minutes, a middle-aged man noticed that there was a musician playing.  He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds, and then he hurried on to meet his schedule. 
 
About 4 minutes later: 
 The violinist received his first dollar.  A woman threw money in the hat and, without stopping, continued to walk. 
  
At 6 minutes: 
 
 A young man leaned against the wall to listen to him, then looked at his watch and started to walk again. 
 
At 10 minutes:
 A 3-year old boy stopped, but his mother tugged him along hurriedly.  The kid stopped to look at the violinist again, but the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk, turning his head the whole time.  This action was repeated by several other children, but every parent - without exception - forced their children to move on quickly.
 
At 45 minutes:
 The musician played continuously.  Only 6 people stopped and listened for a short while.  About 20 gave money but continued to walk at their normal pace.  The man collected a total of $32.
 
After 1 hour:
 He finished playing and silence took over.  No one noticed and no one applauded.  There was no recognition at all.
 
  No one knew this, but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the greatest musicians in the world.  He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written, with a violin worth $3.5 million dollars.  Two days before, Joshua Bell sold-out a theater in Boston where the seats averaged $100 each to sit and listen to him play the same music.
 
 This is a true story.  Joshua Bell, playing incognito in the DC Metro Station, was organized by the Washington Post as part of a social experiment about perception, taste and people's priorities. 
 
This experiment raised several questions: 
 
      *In a common-place environment, at an inappropriate hour, do we perceive beauty? 
 
      *If so, do we stop to appreciate it? 
 
      *Do we recognize talent in an unexpected context?
 
One possible conclusion reached from this experiment could be this: 
 
If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world, playing some of the finest music ever written, with one of the most beautiful instruments ever made . . . 
 

How many other things are we missing as we rush through life? 

Failure is my motivation.

So today I had my CA (Continual Assessment).

Like I said in Facebook:

It's as if the CA questions were looking at me and say "Oops, you didnt study my part?" 

Oops.

Yeah, serve me right. I know. Kinda lose the momentum of studying after 3 tests and slack.
But you know what! Everything happens for a reason.
Failure is my motivation. So I'll work harder for my one last CA
--*announcing the toughest subject, according to most people* + *drum rolls*......

ELECTRICAL AND ELECTRONICS: CIRCUITS AND DEVICES

which is yet another subject that I've not touched at all since the beginning of the semester.

Nevertheless, I'm glad I did alright for the first 3 CAs, DIED in 1 today and the final one...?

YET TO BE KNOWN. Will keep you posted perhaps ;)

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My New Favourite:

    

When life gives you shit, you smile at them & say "WhAt?"

I lost weight, didn't I? :)

you say you love me but what are you doing?

Something new perhaps?

I really wanted to start a new blog. A themed-blog.
Always wanted to and been thinking about what theme should I go for.
And this whole ciba vision-seeing the world competition sorta thing is really encouraging me to start a new blog all the more.

WELL, I could continue to use this blog and stuff...
But there were a lot of stuff deemed private (at least to me) in the past.

Nevertheless, lately, something has been telling me it is OKAY to open up yourself.
Is it because I have an exchange roommate?
I am seeing more things?
Or this blog http://mymydinh.tumblr.com induced me to be more open?
When I say open, I don't mean doing or perceiving anything bluntly or blindly.
It's more like being open about what I am and who I am.

Anyway, I particularly like this post by Mymy:

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. 

He’s Just Not That Into (2009)

Whoever says that happy ending HAS TO BE getting married and live happily ever after right?
It is yet again another indoctrination, thanks to those fairytales.

BTW, no, today is the first time I'm reading her blog. By chance or by luck, I found her blog due to certain reason. Sometimes, I do believe in fate. Do you not? :)

Anyway, I'll still keep this blog as it is while setting up another new blog. Cos this blog would be more of like a diary and the new one... Muahahaha. Yet to be known.

We shall wait for the day to come! ;)

No.

Why did I let myself fall into the trap in the first place?
I need to get out of it before I fall deeper into the trap.

But it's deeper than before. Shucks.

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It's all in your mind. Your mind is creating stories.

Winners never quit. Quitters never win.

I DIDN'T KNOW THAT THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE READING MY BLOG!

Omg. I felt as if lightning just struck me or something!
Okay, I actually had something in my mind that I want to post.
But Im kinda lost now.. =/

*Breathe in. Breathe out*
Ok, I'm back on track.
NO WAIT. Im not.. =S
Ahhhh, it's just. My blog has been quite private. At least, that's what I thought.
And suddenly bobo chan tells me my blog is in someone else's blog list.
AND I realised his blog has like more than thousand of views.
I just dont know how to response to it.

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Fair enough, I've been proving myself right lately.

Those who are afraid will lose out.
Cos you don't even dare to try.

Those who aren't afraid to give it a try,
at worst, you will get embarrassment or get hurt.
But you either gain a lesson or you succeed.

First incident, winning a free Bangkok trip. Many would think it's luck.

I think it's luck too. BUT, if I didn't take my initiative to even participate in the first place, where comes the luck?

Second incident, I managed to get Autodesk (yes that famous software company!) to sponsor for our event. Honestly, I didn't even know about Autodesk until my friends were having casual chats after our weekly meeting. One of the main committee member participated in their event and he was holding a sling bag with "Autodesk" printed on it.

I asked if he has any contacts from the event and he gave me this business card of the Education Program Manager's of Autodesk, ASEAN.

Tried my luck. And there you go! BINGO! ;)

(And the list of incidents could just go on and on..)

Plain luck? Nah.

I think luck comes to those who made enough effort.

We've tried hundreds of sponsors before we could get...like 5?

Even if luck doesn't come to you, JUST KEEP TRYING.

Winners never quit. Quitters never win.

(Was looking back at old sms-es and saw this phrase told by tara. Found it particularly apt lately. Perhaps this is the guidance I've been asking for? :)

I think too much.
I should observe more than I think.

For now, I just want to get things done. :)

What is it?

Something's missing. And I really don't know what, who, how, when, where to look for it.

Dear God, give me a direction please.

What am I going to do in future!!!

Where should I apply to for internship!

I want to do sth great in future but I gotta start somewhere!

I'm Glad

    people around me are really nice people.

:)

I shouldn't.

Never know ;)

Some things in life, you'll never know you're missing it until you're doing it.

Life. ;)

I just can't stop listening to this song.

It gives me a sense of leaning on someone's shoulder.
But I can't find the shoulder.