too many things, too lil space

it's okay. i believe in what i believe. and i'll prove myself right.

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well, back in msia, as always, it's nice to feel at home. But this room has so much of memories. So much of memories sometimes i cant bear to stay in my room for too long a time cos i'll start thinking back a lot. So in a way, i made myself go out everyday.

At least I won't feel so bad. Haha.
Of course, sometimes it is nice to just lie on the bed and not do anything.
But then again, it is when u're too free that u'll start to think a lot right?
Kor, i bet u'll agree with me on this.

So far. My holiday... has been... fulfilling? I cant find a word to fit in. Haha.
I've pretty much cover most of my friends. Wanni, tara, collegemates, asyila, kevin, zuikok...

Hmmm. Only havent seen dailou (k la, im goina face him for like another 3.5 years but i'd really hope he could have join us in kl), vik (im goina see u soon :) after like soooo long) ;
Havent seen michella, rica and s.ling.. Tasha--tak payah cakap, orang pun tak ade kat sini.
High schoolmates... Hardly any.. :( I hope Moon's doing well in US.
I miss a lot of u cos that day i found a pendrive i used to use when i was in high school and found out lots of our pics. I started missing all of u.
I wanted to upload all the pics. But I gave up on facebook. =P

Been up and down singapore & msia.
Anyways, talking to wan ni reminds me of those uni days in first semester. SUCKS. like shit.

Nevertheless, I hope I've found a motivation for me to work harder, better and smarter for all my coming sems. I'M GOINA MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
wo zhu ni xing fu
SO U GUYS! WATCH OUT!
I'M GONA KICK SOME ASS!
bueks. =P

never knew i needed

O to the M to the G.
I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee this song!
~never knew i needed by ne-yo~

makes me wana watch princess and the frog :(

first heard it on radio where this girl who requested it was sobbing.. :(
it's a love at first sight! Gah.
okay... i dont 'SEE' a song... so it's a love at first..heard?

Haha. chyi's sleeping beside me now =)
aww, she poor thing!

she's sick!
may u get well soon. god bless. lovess =)

SIGHS

i dont like to pretend im okay.
but it's not like i havent tried to be okay.

LAW SHEOW LING!

where have u been!!?!

omgosh. i can't believe i just cried when i saw ur pics in facebook.
i dont know why!

u're like one of my bestest friend once upon a time and it's like we kinda lost contact.

u dont come online often. No, let me put it this way, u come online once in a blue moon. In one year, i probably see u online once or twice.

U dont even have facebook or nethin like that. ( I bet u used bryan's account to add me)

U dont reply sms.

and i just didnt continue to think abt it.

it's probably almost a year or more since i've last seen u.
and i cant believe we were once so close..

where are u now.. :'(

HELLO ALL =)

GREETING FROM NETHERLANDS! =D
miss ya all =D
will be back in a few days more i think.

Hmmmm... so far, been to vatican, rome, venice, switzerland, germany and yep, currently in netherlands. =)

In Amsterdam. AND korrrrrrr! haha, i dont know if u would see this, but yeahhh! we went to the red light district and saw.. hahahahaha! remember the movie u showed me? the one the 2 guys went on a euro trip or sth? ahahahahahahaha. I remembered u the moment we went there! hahahaha.

hmmmm. what else. well there'll be more updates when im back in msia. But i think it'd be toooooo long for me to tell in my blog. I've like probably more than thousands pics already! hahaha. Well, there are like 4 cameras u see... =P

all of u are missed. yes yes yes.. everyone that's reading my blog now. you know who u are =)

goodbye all..

leaving to airport in a while.
getting ready.

thought it would be appropriate to say goodbye before i leave =)
BUT dont have enough credit.
hopefully u guys will read this =)

Will take lots of photos back for ya all as souvenirs as promised.
thank you all.

loves.
hugs.

FIGHT

No. Jinni, why should u be a coward and back out urself?
Why let it defeat you??

This shouldn't be the way.
This isn't Jinni.
Grhhhhh! Arrrrrrrr! YES. Fight!

我应该更积极地面对
I should not run away and hide.
I should not feel reluctant to face a fact that I have to face sooner or later.
I should make a change.
If circumstances won't change for me,
I change myself.
I'll look at it more positively.
I'll strive harder to make it good.

I will not make my university life miserable.
I wana be on top of myself. Hmph.
I won't compete with others.
I compete with myself.
I wana reach my goal.
And I will do it.

That's the way it should be.
That's the way it should be.

And for now, I shall enjoy my europe trip and holidays
AS MUCH AS I CAN.
Cos I dont know when's the next time I can enjoy all these again. =/

Gah. Who cares! Live every moment to the max.

*cheers* ;)

Tell me.

convince me it's just the song, the time, the tiredness, the atmosphere, the...

etc etc

whatever whatever

that's making me tear.

Gosh, a fact that i dont want to face but i just hafta.

One week left after europe trip and i hafta go back to that place again...

Sighs.

Let It Be, be happy =)

Heya... Yeah, I'm back in M'sia..
Hmmm. I have mixed feelings. Nostalgic? Yeah.. The smell, the people, the faces and the places.
Excited? Very, initially. Happy, sad, anticipating, disappointing, everything came all together.

Haven't been blogging partly cos i cant due to few reasons. One for sure, the surprise that im planned for shaun, yeechin and vincent. And for those belated birthdays, i know it wasn't even a proper celebration for all of ya. But yeah, im sorry for not being able to celebrate honey, isabelle and xiaoly's bday. Kor, i celebrated belated birthday for u. Nevertheless, ur name's still in the list.

To me, to celebrate someone's birthday means sth. Means a lot to me. It means celebrating the presence of him/her; it means i appreciate him/her.
I am not proud to say however, i dont do as much for my family members.
Nonetheless, i appreciate them. In a different way.
Celebration being said, i don't mean, SURPRISES! PARTY! LOTS OF FRIENDS CELEBRATING FOR U! It's just, the sincerity and just the presence of friends and family is more than enough.
Those who don't get celebrations just gotta stop complaining AND LOOK AROUND U.
Consider urself lucky! Com'on. Look further, think further and APPRECIATE. For god's sake.
and those who thinks birthday means nth, STOP SAYING THAT.

sighs. I wouldn't say I went through a lot. Cos it's nth big. But those were the moments I wished someone would have stood by me. It's the small lil things that I care.
I don't want big surprises, I don't need big present (though I won't mind getting either =P lol, im kiddin), all i need is to be happy and to have people around me being happy and healthy.
All i want is your presence.

This should be the last time my tears drop for you
Shall I do it,
I do it with grace.
Im no longer the jinni
who used to be afraid.
I learnt to say no,
and stay tougher than I would know.
Let go and let it be.
For it aint a matter anymore.

I don't want much, I just want everything. =P

gahahahahaha. a lil hyper now! whoosh! ahhhh, im studying really slow. But drank a cup of coffee. pretty awake now.

Ohh, check out BUNKFACE! Malaysian band!!!! NOT BAD =)
sern introduced it to me quite some time ago, just that i started youtubing it and found more new songs.

Some other nice songs of theirs:
(i) silly lily
(ii) high school rocker
(iii) prom queen

Havent check out their malay songs yet. There're lots more nice english ones too. Go check out yourself.
Neways, really like the "through the window" ^^
MALAYSIA BOLEH! LOL

Gah! Cant wait! 3 more days =D