IT struck me.

lately, there's been quite a number of stuff which triggered me to think and stirred up a mixture of feelings in me.

i've been busy with my minor in entrepreneurship.
i've spent days and days with my coursemates.
sometimes, it felt like we're a big family living in a big house (NTC-Nanyang Technopreneurship Center in this case) but yet, sometimes i just dont feel like i fit in with some people.

obviously, it's not fair to stereotype singaporeans but i dont know why being around some of them just dont quite make me comfortable.
I guess it's not really about the nationality then?

I have came to my own conclusion of different upbringing and education really make a difference.
Some might find some weird to do something that he/she are not used to in his/her upbringing.
Chim huh? Im indeed a chim-ologist. Lol.

I dont knowwwww. It's just, sometimes, i find myself a lil more anti-social than i usually am.
Why that discomfort, i wonder?

Often, it's our own mind playing tricks with ourselves. I'd really wish to break myself out of this circle and free myself from all these discomfort of being with some of them.
To them, they might think im too sensitive or they couldnt be bothered about what or how I feel.
To me, it's really just, I don't wana TRY to fit in.

Then again, why do I have to make things so complicated right?
Truth is, I am not. It really is just about how I feel.


Chim-ology aside, hahahaha.
Well, this minor in entrepreneurship course has been pretty anticipating.
I didnt regret taking this course despite the hectic hours and sleepless nights.
I learnt quite a lot.
Haha, initially it's like, fuaaa, semangat giler, spirit of entrepreneurs!
Very amazed by their 'no-complain' spirit, hence, i was like, cheong ahhhhhhhh! Lol.

Then slowly... You know what happens.
And conflicts are inevitable even if they arent the obvious ones.
Like i've always said, wherever there're humans, there're problems!

But I really learnt to see things from another perspective.
Which is one of the reason I feel very anticipated to go for classes although sometimes i cant help to fall asleep in the class. HAHA.

I really wish our course is conducted in such teaching manner. Everything will be so much better! Seminar style. Smaller class. Group work. Everything's much more effective in that sense. If you know what I mean.

And of course, I do miss all my friends in Malaysia or anywhere else.
Haha, on a sidenote, today i met chyi and wen for lunch, then 'doing work' in starbucks with chyi. I really miss those moments i spent with her when we were younger.
Back then, I really like to follow her wherever she goes. Haha :)
I remember how much she meant to me when we were young, so much so that i'd feel so so so sad to leave singapore and always looking forward to meet her.

Years have passed and we're all grown up. It's pretty amazing if we cousins can hang out often. It's a nice feeling.
Well, when we were younger, I wasnt very close to wen.
When we were a lil elder, we 3 hang out a bit from time to time.
But ummmm, i dont know why. I still dont feel quite myself when we 3 are hanging out together.
I actually feel a lil restrained.
They probably dont know. But yeah..
As I grew older, I feel more free to express myself.
And it'd be pretty cool if we can hang out more often and just talk about everything.
It's kinda like my dream to have this kinda relationship, in terms of family of course.

Just now, when i asked chyi abt wen and A. I was actually quite shock to hear that news.
Honestly, it really strucked me.
It made me get more skeptical about relationships.

Sighs.
The world is simple but made complicated by humans' thoughts and feelings.
I am glad to know about some stuff when I was 18 cos it got me prepared for what I faced few weeks back.