Happy CNY :)

remember how cny was like when we were younger?
6 years ago, you were this boy who was courting this sweet lil girl.
Haha. CNY at age of 20, definitely feels a lil different.
you didnt know what love is but you had a broken heart.
:)
haha, but you were persistent.
Back then, when we were younger, it's just plain pure kids celebrating chinese new year.
Lol. We either play, eat or argue amongst the kids.
Well, CNY back then was just sth RED to me and it means getting ang pao and dressing up.
Back then, when my brothers and I were younger, we get a lot of nagging from parents.
Sometimes, we argue.
Most of the times, we play with our cousins.
4 years later, you finally got the girl.
But well, people grow up.
It's not necessarily a bad thing. :) haha!
After one year plus things got awry, you decided to call it off.
Today's cny eve and so we had our reunion lunch(unlike the rest of the people, ours is lunch instead of dinner. lol, dont ask me why! it's been like that all the time! haha).
Another year has passed just like that. You're no longer sure what you want anymore.
I woke up late cos i slept at 6+am. Actually, I fell asleep in front of the laptop after I came home from pavillion and sending kc & vincent home. Then yc called. And I couldn't sleep afterthat.
So I was talking to a few people online. Those midnight 'ghosts', figuratively of course. ;p
And here I am, no longer sure what I want anymore too.
Then finally the lazy me got myself movin' and put on the new set of bedroom sheets and etc. By the time I'm done, it's already abt 6+am. That's why.
I am living in between.
So today was spent for reunion lunch, helping parents a lil bit, facing my laptop and sleeping.
Remember how I hated to do house chores last time..
Even washing the dishes annoys me. To me, I'd think, why do I need to do all the dishes when everybody else's had a share of eating.. Why does mommy always make me do the chores and not my brothers.. Doing all these house chores is a waste of time cos I could have study or watch tv or go surfing the net, etc.. Why can't mom do them.. She's a housewife.. Isn't it her duty? I have my duty as a student and that is to study.. She wants me to excel in study but she makes me do all these petty stuffz... bla bla bla..
Basically, A LOT of complains going on in my mind and all.
You've got your opportunity and I've got mine.
Lol.
But it turned out, we both were always late to realise the opportunity has just slipped away.
Now that I am 20(unofficially), all these hardly come across my mind anymore.. =)
Haha. Maybe it's cos I'm in university and apart from all the tiring journey and uni stuff bothering me, I had to do house chores on my own in Singapore.
Despite being tired, I know I'll still have to do it no matter what.
So I made myself do em and told myself they aren't that difficult and wont take me long.
Once I'm done, I can rest in peace.
AND so, to me, doing all these house chores aren't any life-taking stuff anymore. HAHA.
Parents no longer need to pester me to do all these.
Well, they still do nag and etc.
Maybe it's the age thing.
At 15, whatever your parents say doesn't make sense to u.
Whatever they say annoys you.
At 17 or 18, you cry thinking why can't your parents treat you like an adult.
At 20, you tolerate whatever they nag about you.
lol ;)
6 years in total. We've been through the beauty and the mess..
Or maybe it's when you leave a place you call home that you'll start to appreciate and miss them.
Right?
So now tell me, what is left

i dont feel good

both emotionally and physically.

wonder if it's my stomach rebelling.

nevertheless, finally! it has come to an end.

it's like a total relief in that sense.

But sigh, i just feel like sighing.

i think im having gastric la..

close your eyes..
you're on a stage.
it's all dark but a faint spotlight on you.
there's no one else but you.

start spinning around and splitting in the air..
feel the control of your body within you..

i wana dance right now.. :( :(

Jin-Ni

is happy to be single and carefree. :)

and have a bunch of great college buddies, high school sweethearts, my wife, my family and other lovely friends.

♥

not goina ask for more. ;)

What is real?

Please give me something to believe.

Hmmm. Tell me how should I deal with this.

I miss you.. I dont miss you.. I miss you or not?

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Ok, 180 degree change of topic.
i tell u ah! sometimes daddies can really be a nuisance.
grhh.
thank god my mood's good today ><
but still..
i thought i'm the one who's suppose to get pms!

why is it opposite! lol.

gahhh! ahhhh! there's some excitement in me and i just dont know why.
Yet there's this thing in me which is holding me back.

well, yeah, i'm supposed to be quite stressed out by now. Surprisingly, i felt pretty relaxing today. Haha, even i dont know if i should say it's a good improvement in dealing with things or if i should say i'm becoming ignorant.

i wish you can read my mind sometimes.

Glitter in the air ♥

i like her voice. and i salute her for this performance, really. Even I watching it feels dizzy watching her spin, and yet she could do it while singing and even dipped herself into water?

wow.

the whole concept of glitter in the air and pure.. LOVE it~

check out the lyrics :)

Of stress and fatigue, haha

i told myself not to self-pity.
sacrifices are necessary for something in return.

i kept telling myself too, that if i cant handle these much of things, what else can I handle in future?

I'm not tired I'm not tired I'm not tired.
I'm not stressed out I'm not stressed out I'm not stressed out.
I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine.

haha.

Everybody has problems of their own in their own life.

Well, I just need to learn how to handle it the best way I can. Stress due to undelightful circumstances are inevitable. But we'll deal with it right?

And to u my dear laopo, you'll pull it through alright?
I'm here.
though I might not be sufficient to provide. (lol)
Cos at the end of the day, it's how you deal with it.
But throughout the process, I'll be here.

Same goes to all my friends ayte? :)

Just that, I realised i've been prioritizing my school events and responsibilities, friendship over studies and myself..
Not that I want to be selfish and stop caring for others, but I'll need to balance this and really make a change.
I hope ya all can support me on this and not thinking why have I changed.

Oh no, battery running low! Left my charger at bobo's place :(
till then.
i love ya all =)