Scrambled thoughts for Early breakfast

i am one strange person, seriously.

4.11am and not sleeping while everyone else are sleeping so soundly.

haha, look at their cute faces :x

hmmm, i'm just thinking about stuff, from the long hot shower to packing to toilet break..
peaceful and quiet night.
but emotions stirring in the heart and
thoughts in my mind.

it's just everything that happened today,
or maybe,
accumulatively till today..

it's like wow.. it felt like flashing through years in one night.

college days, college friends and now,
where we are and how we are..

things happened, ppl change, things changed.

and at the same time,
i won't deny that i was thinking of rship stuff too..

it sort of come in one.. cos you know..
college days = first rship etc.


and then now it's like another stage altogether..

may 9th was when everything started.
it really came when i least expected it.

it's about 6 weeks from then now.
in a way i'm glad i'm on this europe trip.
so i won't rush through things.

so yes, am currently in prague right now and leaving to vienna in 3.5 hours. meaning i probably won't be sleeping tonight cos we gotta leave apartment in like 1.5 or 2 hours?


mmmm.

this europe trip is not just a fun, young, adventurous trip..

it's recollecting memories, bonding, trying to reconcile, getting to know new ppl, see more stuff in the world and also, reflect.

so much thoughts, ya know.

but yeah, 11 days remaining.. will definitely enjoy every moment here.

and the sun is up! it's about 4.40am now.

maybe i should catch at least an hour sleep..
till then! :)

Shame On You!

Okay, I would have posted about lots of happy stuff that happen today (: more than an hour ago BUT
OMG I HATE IT WHEN GUYS COME AND ASK YOU BLATANTLY WHETHER YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND.

(okay.. be prepared to get some blasting)

FIRST OF ALL, WHEN A GUY BLATANTLY POP THAT QUESTION OR TRY ALL WAYS TO INSERT THAT QUESTION (w/o continuity) IN CONVERSATIONS ALL THE TIME,

YOU KNOW HOW SINCERE IS THIS FELLA (OHH YESSS)

SO WHAT IF SHE SAYS NO, SHE DOESNT HAVE A BF?
SO WHAT IF SHE SAYS YES, SHE HAS A BF?

F! YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HER! DON'T YOU THINK YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE IT THE MORE GENTLEMEN WAY BY ASKING HER OUT FOR MEALS OR WHATEVER TO AT LEAST GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER?

IF YOU BARELY KNOW HER AND YOU ASKED THAT QUESTION,
THAT JUST SHOWS HOW CHEAPO AND DESPERATE YOU ARE!
SERIOUSLYYYYY? GAH.

THAT OBVIOUSLY SHOWS THAT YOU'RE GOING ONLY FOR THE EXTERNAL.
VERY SINCERE, GEE THANKS.

DON'T GIVE ME ALL THAT "OH.. IF SHE HAS A BF, THEN I SHOULD BACK OFF RIGHT AWAY.." "OH.. I NEEDED TO KNOW MY ODDS OF GETTING HER..."

PLAIN BS.

YOU GET TO KNOW A GIRL, IF YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH HER.. YOU WORK FOR IT.
IF YOU BOTH ARE MEANT TO BE, YOU GET HER.
OTHERWISE, BE A MAN AND DEAL WITH IT.

I mean, of course it's not allll guys duty and girls have no responsibilities. The girls shouldn't be bitches and freaking play or fool around with the guys, most importantly be true to themselves la.

SO YES, YOU GET THE POINT!

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Ahhh yes, that's a shoutout to all the desperate guys. Sigh in relief.

Am ending this post with sth more light-hearted :)
It was a very fulfilling day despite the fatigue :D
I've got things I needed, I explored art gallery for the very first time in my life after lunch with Will, I had dinner with family.

The satisfaction and the smile on my face that keeps me going. :) Couldnt ask for more!

Honestly, I think if you were put to go through what I went through, you'd have totally crush.
So stop saying things about it.

THANKS YA.

Relationship? Huh, what's that?

Honestly, I am way pass that stage of "I-feel-so-painful-without-you".

Passed the stage of "Back-to-strangers", all those squinching heartaches.

But still trying to get rid of the awkward stage of "We-are-not-lovers-BUT-YET-we-are-more-than-just-friends-and-it-will-be-so-forever" completely.

I do not wonder why or what happened anymore, so there's no regrets in this so to speak.
In fact, I learn to appreciate that as part of the most beautiful memories I had in my life.
I had one of the most loving man as my bf at that point of time. So very blissful.

Memories that makes me smile and I do miss those moments.

But zooming back from past to current, I guess there's a tinge of we-all-move-on even though there's a lot of coming-back-to-each-other because of the beautiful memories we shared.
And so we are special to each other in that sense.

We had too much of wrong timing which is rather repenting but I guess that's what it's meant to be, for us to let go!

This whole 8-year-journey is 10% of the time of my freaking life! (assuming I live till 80 years old)

And truthfully, this 2nd octant of my life remains impactful thus far (for us both, I'm sure).

For one to move from the ideology of "I believe in the right one" to "I believe in not-the-right-one" (i.e. fine with anyone as long as they dont seem unfit) or maybe even worse, "I believe in neither",

doesn't that make you wonder?

These days, I try to zoom back from past to current instead of looking back from current to past.
No doubt my heart still sway from left to right a lil when I see/hear/think of you but it now sways in millimeters instead of kilometers like how it used to be.

Hmmm.. 3rd module for specialization.. What should I take!

MP4E01 Industrial Design
[Pre-requisites: Nil; Academic Units: 3]
Content: Art and Industry. Basic Industrial Design. Design elements and principles. Colour. Industrial, product and packaging graphics. Design Communications. Human Values in Design. Packaging Design

MP4E02 Human Factors in Design
[Pre-requisite: Nil; Academic Unit: 3]
Content: Introduction to human factors. Physical ergonomics. Cognitive ergonomics. Human-computer interaction. Human factors of product design. Socio-technical aspects of human factors in design.

MP4E03 Strategic Management of Product Development
[Pre-requisite: Nil; Academic Unit: 3]
Content: The course covers topics on critical product development considerations and competition strategies, the role of prototyping in product design and manufacturing, the organization and management of cross functional product development teams, the capture and modeling of customer needs, risk assessment and management, the role of R&D, and the strategies for achieving fast cycle competition and time to market. The teaching approach of a graduate management course will be used, with equal emphasis on lectures and case analysis and presentation by students.

MP4E04 Mechanism Design
[Pre-requisite: MP2002; Academic Unit: 3]
Content: Introduction to mechanism synthesis. graphical and analytical methods. Advanced planar mechanism synthesis. Spatial mechanism fundamentals. Screw theory. Kinematic analysis of spatial mechanisms.

MP4E05 Materials Selection and Design
[Pre-requisite: Nil; Academic Unit: 3]
Content: Review of basic engineering materials properties. Materials selection in  design. Process selection in design.

MP4E06 Visualisation and Virtual Reality in Product Design
[Pre-requisite: Nil; Academic Unit: 3]
Content: Computer Graphics. Volume Visualization. VR Fundamentals. VR Interaction. VR Modeling, Algorithm and Software. VR Hardware Devices. VR Integration and VR Systems.

MP4F02 Manufacturing Systems and Automation
[Pre-requisite: Nil; Academic Unit: 3]
Content: Manufacturing systems. Rapid prototyping & applications. Computer-aided  manufacturing. Industrial robots. Automatic assembly.

Cutting all ties

Cut ties #1 - 25th March 2012
Cut ties #2 - Don't know when did it start or did it even start?
All I know is that I don't think about it all the time but if I do happen to think of it,
I try my best not to look back.

But I suddenly thought about it and so I'm here writing a post...to REMIND MYSELF NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT AND NOT TO GET DISTRACTED!

(I'm not even looking back.. But it's just this sudden feeling haunting me now.. OK SHOO SHOO!)

Another (Sort of) Eureka moment

you know how my inspirations always come?  it's either i'm taking a dung in the toilet (sorry, might sound a lil disgusting, ahahaha) or studying.

yea, cos my mind will always wander off unnoticingly, staring blankly at the notes.

anyways, these are not the main point. main point is that i figured out what i'm gonna do for thathat 6 months window period i gave myself right after graduation. 

just needed to write this down, in case i lose track in the near future. hahs

tr.int.us.