retail therapy with my bro! ;)

Hmmm. Yesterday morning, went to bank to redraw money. Afterthat i went to coffee bean.

That's when i posted the previous post.

Went to pick up kor (vincent) much later from train station. Went to college to settle some stuff and surrender my student card.

Hence the picture below. =D (oh wells, memories)

HAHA. my hairstyle that time damn funny. sumore highlighted. tsk tsk. like those notti girl. yikes.

AFTER EVERYTHING'S DONE, IT'S SHOPPING TIME!!! WOOHOO! RETAIL THERAPY. MUAHAX. MUAHAX!

At pull&bear

kor looking like vampire at fish&co.

i belanja makan. it's his birthday treat. (belated) =P

we ate seafood platter for 2. =D

muahahaha. muahahahaha. Hot hot me~ psssst. at Kitschen. LOL.

The pic above: That freaking dress from Armani Exchange (AX) costs RM669! And i freaking bought it, NOT!!! Crazy ah. Don't u think it's so not worth it. It's like i can buy freaking 11 pieces of the previous dress and they look almost the same to me!!

TSK TSK. brands...



HA. How'd u feel with a piece of dress worth RM669 on u?

(above) It's a corset from Bebe. Price: RM400+.

AND it's not possible to bent ur upper body after wearing it cos it's hard! like wearing a metal arnd u like that. tsk. But it looks pretty hot. =P

me and kor camwhore when the shops were closing. As usual...









RETARDED KOR. AS USUAL.
Kor getting excited with bras. =P


In car, leaving 1U shopping centre.











Aiyerh! sso cute! like small boy!
See that metal butterfly hairband? Nice nice?
awww, such lovely sisters. =P

WAKE UP!!
JUST WOKE UP.


took a few videos. wanted to upload. but nahhhh. sensitive words in it. tsk.

P.S. : i bought none of the clothes above! LOL. But i bought 2 very useful bras. LOL. Useful sounds weird, but it's true and they're nice. AND also that metal butterfly hairband... NICE NOT? i like it a lot =)

kor! remember to get me the white hairband k! HAHA. thanks!

Neways! thanks kor! and u're welcome too!
mua heart u! BIG HUGS.

i'm back =D

HEY MY EVERY BELOVED ONE!!! I AM FINALLY BACK IN MALAYSIA. =D
yesterday night, you came. finally. But the anticipating feeling was replaced by doubts and downs. nevertheless, im glad i get to see u.
but im goina be here for only a week.. =( can't wait to see you all!

it kinda hurt. lol, no, it actually hurts a lot. sobs. haha.
when i hear it from u.
i could feel my heart squinching.
as if someone's squeezing and moulding my heart like a plasticine. -lol- it might sound funny now, but at that moment, it wasnt. trust me. T.T -hahax-
sadly to say, my whole family might shift down to singapore by next year. SIGH. i dont know how to express what i think and feel now.
sigh. it took u so long to realise this huh. that by being friends, we hurt less.
but why do u hafta do it when im ready to expect sth else.
sigh. u always wrong timing la u. idiot. *buekk*
a lot of wrong timing, really.
It's raining heavily here. I am in coffee bean using the internet. All the glass panes are fogged. So cold, so gloomy, but nice.
this morning, when i opened my eyes.
first thing that struck me was the image of u telling me things u told me ystrdy.
while watching the video of my birthday this year (which yee chin tagged me in facebook) with the first 2 songs in my blog playing...

you were in green (t-shirt of course).
you told me you vowed not to hurt me anymore in the sense of romance and that we're better off as friends now.
haha. im crying, silently. i hope nobody sees it. LOL. (urgh, i'm so goina get the video from yeechin and post it in my blog here. hopefully someday soon, i'll reveal some of the photos we had during this one year plus of time.)

It was instantaneous reflex. I teared while feeling my heart squinch again.
Woke up realising we're now, FRIENDS.
Woke up realising im not goina come back to m'sia often.
Neither am i goina see u often.
Sigh. i guess this is life... but no matter what happens, you guys must not forget me k!
i hope i still mean that little something to all of u.
I went to the toilet and cry and cry and cry.
Looking at the mirror, i told myself to be strong.
but I couldnt help myself.
i was like, ah~ cannot. i need someone today. i totally need to get out. i need to make myself feel better.
Remember to always sms me, call me once in a while, or e-mail me if u cant get me. Like how my kor, vincent did k... right, korr?? ahahaha.I called vincent.
As much as I wish to control myself, i think it was damn obvious, that my voice had clearly shown the "I AM NOT OKAY" to kor.
I asked him to meet up today instead of tomorrow.
Always update me please.

One year aint long, aint short either.

But times and memories i had with you all are some of the things i cherished most. Truly.

kevin chan kit yan... i love you. i do.
there are a lot of things i am willing to do for you secretly, unknowingly. just as you would.
but i guess, it's like you said.
Of course, to my high school sweethearts. You're not forgotten as well.our love story, is writing towards an end. our friendship story however, will begin to write a new chapter eventhough it was once risked to write close to an end.
WELL~ at least, the love story ended with me looking fabulous in a dress and our last dance. =P
I love you all!

-first cut is the deepest-
i might apply for a transfer to US university.
i dont know when i am going to do it.
but for now, i'll hafta make sure i do well academically.
HUGS!!
don't u worry. i'll keep my promise.
i'll make myself happy.
you better do the same.
but then i'll still need a LITTLE bit of time to get over this la.
and SO, i am going get a retail therapy later. =P

im goina miss u!!

and i dont see the ring on your finger anymore. congrats for getting over me.

university life

Hey everyone and hi dear bloggie again,

It has been a long time, as usual. =P For people who are curious about what kinda life im going through right now, allow me to let grab a brief idea of how it's like:

Early morning, take mrt to pioneer station.

Take shuttle bus from pioneer station to uni.

Walk to lecture theatre/tutorial room.

This picture should be able to illustrate how a lecture in NTU is like.

Hmmmm... about 600-700 people?

Yep.

And these are some of the food in Uni:

The left picture is actually a dessert called "cotton ice" (direct translation from mandarin). It kinda look gross here cos it's kinda melted and mixed. But it's nice. AND expensive.

Tsk tsk.

Moments in Uni and outside Uni, in singapore:

(mostly with bobo and kiat)

in mrt (train)

We went to ICA for the Student Pass thingy and there was this gallery there. Interesting.

The picture below shows how those people smuggle drugs:

Hiding them in shoes(above) and textbooks(below)

Below are pics taken in the canteen with bobo's laptop webcam:Some other pics of the NTU:
The amount of staircases we had to walk everyday.. Tsk tsk, i tell u.....
Saw the aeroplane? It's a real one! So kewl huh? It's in my school! School of Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering (MAE). But I only passed by there when i go for lab. Cos we only have lectures and tutorials which are all not in my own school. Only had 2 lab sessions in my own school.

Another staircase. There are like 3 continuous plight of staircases here.

Me and bobo in economics lecture. I crashed bobo & kiat's econs lecture cos if i go for my own econs lecture alone, 90% of the time im sleeping.

And below are some of the pics and a video of us in canteen late night, studying and doing stupid stuff:

UH HUH! Caught jaywalking in the middle of the night!!

Of course, it's not all fun and laughters... There were really stressful moments:Listening to lecture/doing assignment on laptop

Studying at Canteen A

Nevertheless, we still have each other during the bad times.

Thank god for that. And I'm glad to have you all by my side.

GOODBYE..

i just reached home slightly more than an hour ago.

but im leaving in less than 5 hours time.

can u imagine how i feel?

im F-ing sad.

accepted to the uni should probably be a happy thing.. but im not...

well, i dont even have the time to say goodbye to my friends...
i miss my bedroom.
i miss everything!

hopefully i'll come back to malaysia soon...

i miss u all very very VERY much.. REALLY! *CRY*

im gonna get swollen eyes tomorrow.. sigh

i forgot to tell u guys abt the "JOURNEY" today. It's been exciting, nerve-wrecking and etc.

anyways, it's just us going to midvalley and getting lost. lol. Apparently kiat doesnt remember the way after going there so many times. I've only been there like probably 3 times? and also coming back alone not knowing the way and WITHOUT a phone!
quite some stuff happened before leaving also. so yeah... importance of phone i tell u. But it's not like i cant live without phone la. Seriously though, it's not sth we should all take for granted cos really, with that thing.. life's so much.. simpler.

yesterday ate at murni. yum yum~

for more info abt what i've been doing... please contact me at my hse phone or feel free to e-mail ganjinni@hotmail.com

=P

we are AFTER ALL JUST humans

sometimes shits happen in life, i guess we just hafta remind ourselves it's part of life and that it'll be over soon.

I'm suffering from internet deprivation and also without my mobile phone, it totally feels like... Gosh, it's like u became blind or sth la! I mean, u can still live even u're blind right? But it totally feels like u lost sth and u cant seem to connect with the outer world kinda thing la.

The story is. Hp dropped into toilet bowl in college. THE END.
Now I am still struggling whether to pay my parents for it. Me with the 'responsibilities' principle. And stupid idiot cheque! They freaking paid me RM16 lesser! !@#$%^&* and now I have to wait till month end to get the money. BY THEN, I MIGHT NOT EVEN BE IN MALAYSIA! F F F F F
All happens when I'm going broke.

That's not the main problem. MAIN PROBLEM IS MY BROTHER!
Gosh, u guys may think Im being childish or whatsoever. I AM NOT. FOR GOD SAKE!
I AM NOT.
NEITHER AM I IN DENIAL.

I GIVE UP. I no longer have the energy to talk to him anymore. God forbid!
Do all you want. I don't want to care anymore.

I guess I'll just hafta suffer for a while. After some time, you wont even get to see my face. HAPPY?

u guys can say all u want. what do u understand?
do u know how i feel?
do u really know what's in my mind?
how could you judge me?

seriously, URGH. if my thyroid comes back, it's definitely cos of YOU!
cos i can already feel it hurting!
GDI!


ah... i'll be fine in a while..

moving on to another stage of growing up

1. believing more in myself
2. filter others' perspective
3. handle things with grace, i.e. not to stress myself out too much
4. let go, open up

it comes naturally as we age, as we grow, as we learn.
it's sth worth happy for.
proud of me?
haha, thanks. =P