GOODBYE..

i just reached home slightly more than an hour ago.

but im leaving in less than 5 hours time.

can u imagine how i feel?

im F-ing sad.

accepted to the uni should probably be a happy thing.. but im not...

well, i dont even have the time to say goodbye to my friends...
i miss my bedroom.
i miss everything!

hopefully i'll come back to malaysia soon...

i miss u all very very VERY much.. REALLY! *CRY*

im gonna get swollen eyes tomorrow.. sigh

i forgot to tell u guys abt the "JOURNEY" today. It's been exciting, nerve-wrecking and etc.

anyways, it's just us going to midvalley and getting lost. lol. Apparently kiat doesnt remember the way after going there so many times. I've only been there like probably 3 times? and also coming back alone not knowing the way and WITHOUT a phone!
quite some stuff happened before leaving also. so yeah... importance of phone i tell u. But it's not like i cant live without phone la. Seriously though, it's not sth we should all take for granted cos really, with that thing.. life's so much.. simpler.

yesterday ate at murni. yum yum~

for more info abt what i've been doing... please contact me at my hse phone or feel free to e-mail ganjinni@hotmail.com

=P

we are AFTER ALL JUST humans

sometimes shits happen in life, i guess we just hafta remind ourselves it's part of life and that it'll be over soon.

I'm suffering from internet deprivation and also without my mobile phone, it totally feels like... Gosh, it's like u became blind or sth la! I mean, u can still live even u're blind right? But it totally feels like u lost sth and u cant seem to connect with the outer world kinda thing la.

The story is. Hp dropped into toilet bowl in college. THE END.
Now I am still struggling whether to pay my parents for it. Me with the 'responsibilities' principle. And stupid idiot cheque! They freaking paid me RM16 lesser! !@#$%^&* and now I have to wait till month end to get the money. BY THEN, I MIGHT NOT EVEN BE IN MALAYSIA! F F F F F
All happens when I'm going broke.

That's not the main problem. MAIN PROBLEM IS MY BROTHER!
Gosh, u guys may think Im being childish or whatsoever. I AM NOT. FOR GOD SAKE!
I AM NOT.
NEITHER AM I IN DENIAL.

I GIVE UP. I no longer have the energy to talk to him anymore. God forbid!
Do all you want. I don't want to care anymore.

I guess I'll just hafta suffer for a while. After some time, you wont even get to see my face. HAPPY?

u guys can say all u want. what do u understand?
do u know how i feel?
do u really know what's in my mind?
how could you judge me?

seriously, URGH. if my thyroid comes back, it's definitely cos of YOU!
cos i can already feel it hurting!
GDI!


ah... i'll be fine in a while..

moving on to another stage of growing up

1. believing more in myself
2. filter others' perspective
3. handle things with grace, i.e. not to stress myself out too much
4. let go, open up

it comes naturally as we age, as we grow, as we learn.
it's sth worth happy for.
proud of me?
haha, thanks. =P

what kind of world do YOU want? hmmm?

if u could see beyond this.

it is often when im in the situation where i don't feel the excitement anymore that i started to blog.

sigh. don't get it?
don't hafta get it.

this will just be another random post which nobody will understand. Even i dont understand.
it's just a time where i feel like crying but no tears would come out and i dont know who to look for!!

TNJ reunite =D

(was drinkin orange juice that time, nicee~ sundae damnnnnn adorable right? It was me trying to bark at sundae (or Sunday the dog) at the end.. =P)

fetch tasha and then wanni (which decided to tag along this morning) to visit tara.

she had a bad pain attack yesterday evening, for continuous 3 hours!!! Gosh. The whole family cldn't take it anymore and called the master.

yesterday i was in the room to help out the master for a while. It's sth like a massage therapy, pressing on the nerves... From what i've observed, it's her left side that's having problem. The back having the pain and left hand + leg feeling the numb. Auntie sheena said they're most likely goina admit her into hospital again.

really hope this is the time. The real cure for her.

and oh ya, i ate dinner at tasha's place :P chicken cassarole... sth like that.... yummmyummmm~ ;P

HEART TNJ

i have leo club dinner tomorrow night!!! and i sooooooo soooooo almost forgotten! AND im suppose to teach my brother tuition!!!! urgh. i am like changing all the tuition time for this week and parents sure think im going out a lot cos yesterday i was out whole day, then later im going out for dinner, tomorrow wanni might wana come AND kor had to fetch me thursday night (which is already carrying forward the friday's tuition class! and now i hafta make it earlier and my brothers finish school late that day!! aaaaa!! someone say i feel ya homey~ pls?) :(

HENCE, i wont be home from thursday night onwards till next monday... AND we're planning on a genting trip next week, wed and thurs....... DO u think my parents will still let me go?!? eventhough it's like my holidays right now?! Afterthat, might still be planning to go clubbing and also what about kc and hs's birthday? @@ ahhhhh... I'm so DEAD! *grasping for help*