haha, im sitting at the balcony with my laptop alone right now. yeahhh. hmmmm. dad should be reaching in another 2 hours time?
one nice thing about condo is that, it's windy and darn, i gotta admit the view from above to the swimming pool and lightings below. Gorgeous =)
Visualise this.
With a tinge of smell of the breeze, slight noise of mrt, lights of a number of houses still light up, aeroplane passes by once in a while, stars sparkling high above ya (it was la, but it kinda get cloudier, probably goina rain tonight)...
You don't feel so lonely anymore =)
which makes me think twice if i should still apply for legal squat in my uni's hall. =/
But an environment too comfortable to study here, dont ya think?
Yes yes! Apply! My only main concern is the toilet :( Oh, you dont wana know why... Trust me.
Newho, here in singapore, hafta save electricity and water MORE. It's like i dont even switch on the fan and here i am in the balcony typing. Such a good girl huh? =P
Wellllllll, no longer a spoilt princess in kl where i can on the air-cond as often as i want u see.. Which is good. Sometimes u need a balance in your life.
Went for karaoke with bobo and kiat today (FINALLY after..probably half a year already! ><) =D
for abt 4 to 5 hours... SGD22 siut!!!!!! free flow of drinks la.. But the drinks sucks.
$22... if u dont convert, then it's fine la... We kinda went all out? I guess? Or was it only me? HAHA! idk! ask bobo and kiat.
And before karaoke, brought them to tiong bahru market for FOOD. slurp~
dinner at mama's place. Watch few episodes of korean drama with chyi, bergor, gorgor and mama.
I miss chyi =)
So yep. That's pretty much all for today. SO, tomorrow's first day of 2nd sem. Uuush. SEMANGAT! Hopefully it doesnt fizzle off half way through. HAHA.
Yup, till then. Lots to keep track on since uni's starting. =/
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有时侯，展开胸怀，开朗地面对，会发现其实事情并没有想象中的难熬。
(Sometimes you gotta take things with open mind and you'll realise thing's arent as bad as you thought it'd be.)
这也是一种解脱，不对吗？
(It's also a kind of breakthrough, dont ya think? :)
退一步，海阔天空。=)
*oh, i forgot to mention im back in singapore but i bet those who're reading my blog would know. AND i had diarrhea since yesterday =.= But better now. So don't worry ;)*
Monday, January 11, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
My Last Day of Holiday (sort of)
Up there, they probably know that today's my last day of holiday here in msia for my first semester in uni.
Weather's gloomy today. Eating my brunch really late (3+pm almost 4pm).
Sitting at the dining table i barely sat for a total of half-an-hour throughout this holiday?
Flipping through the newspaper which I havent seen or touch one since...ever?
StarTwo, my favourite section from The Star newspaper.
The music from the piano... The song "安静(An Jing)" by jay chou.
The noise from the vacuum machine... from the car porch.
Feels like home. Indeed.
Before my brother was playing the piano, he was trying to piss me off. Grh. Typical.
Before my mom went to vacuum the car, she was nagging. Typical 2. =/
Haha. That's home.
And that's how I spend my last day of holiday here in Malaysia. At home.
I am lucky and really really grateful that I am able to stay for a week here before I go back to Singapore again. Cos I bet I'll be feeling miserable like Kiat now if I were to spend this entire week in Singapore.
"5 missed calls and a msg" from his Singapore number tells it all.
Haha, I'm already missing u all. I've been out almost everyday this week. Actually not really. It was only wednesday and thursday. But it felt like everyday for some reason and for my mom too (so she was mad yesterday night, over the phone telling me not to go out today).
I felt kinda guilty. But to come to think of it, i only went out monday night, wednesday noon and thursday. The rest of the days, well, mostly last minute FFKs (i.e. fly kite, bang seh, etc. All sorts of different way of saying it).
And I didnt make it to tara's place this week. Sorry dear.
Time flies. Entire holiday has been spent in the coach or airplane or car, in Europe trip and up & down Singapore-Malaysia. Tired of burning ass. Gahaha.
And my first sem has just passed. Just like that. Haha, remember how reluctant I was to go to NTU initially? AND TADA! I've finished one sem nevertheless.
I did badly for my first sem. For a few reasons which all comes under one word--lazy. Kay la, not that bad la, another reason would be reluctant.
*****okay i typed till this part and i went and do all sorts of other stuff and come back and dont feel like continue typing and forgot how to continue this post ady. SO i give up. =.=*****
Gosh, i really need some fresh air. FRESH AIR! i've been in the room most of the time! My room's filled with carbon dioxide! Gah. I wana go out but i havent pack and clean up my room. @@ Sighs.
Singapore here i come! NTU here i come! Second semester here i come!
I wont forget the promise between me and machok. Ngeh Ngeh. We shall see! XP
Weather's gloomy today. Eating my brunch really late (3+pm almost 4pm).
Sitting at the dining table i barely sat for a total of half-an-hour throughout this holiday?
Flipping through the newspaper which I havent seen or touch one since...ever?
StarTwo, my favourite section from The Star newspaper.
The music from the piano... The song "安静(An Jing)" by jay chou.
The noise from the vacuum machine... from the car porch.
Feels like home. Indeed.
Before my brother was playing the piano, he was trying to piss me off. Grh. Typical.
Before my mom went to vacuum the car, she was nagging. Typical 2. =/
Haha. That's home.
And that's how I spend my last day of holiday here in Malaysia. At home.
I am lucky and really really grateful that I am able to stay for a week here before I go back to Singapore again. Cos I bet I'll be feeling miserable like Kiat now if I were to spend this entire week in Singapore.
"5 missed calls and a msg" from his Singapore number tells it all.
Haha, I'm already missing u all. I've been out almost everyday this week. Actually not really. It was only wednesday and thursday. But it felt like everyday for some reason and for my mom too (so she was mad yesterday night, over the phone telling me not to go out today).
I felt kinda guilty. But to come to think of it, i only went out monday night, wednesday noon and thursday. The rest of the days, well, mostly last minute FFKs (i.e. fly kite, bang seh, etc. All sorts of different way of saying it).
And I didnt make it to tara's place this week. Sorry dear.
Time flies. Entire holiday has been spent in the coach or airplane or car, in Europe trip and up & down Singapore-Malaysia. Tired of burning ass. Gahaha.
And my first sem has just passed. Just like that. Haha, remember how reluctant I was to go to NTU initially? AND TADA! I've finished one sem nevertheless.
I did badly for my first sem. For a few reasons which all comes under one word--lazy. Kay la, not that bad la, another reason would be reluctant.
*****okay i typed till this part and i went and do all sorts of other stuff and come back and dont feel like continue typing and forgot how to continue this post ady. SO i give up. =.=*****
Gosh, i really need some fresh air. FRESH AIR! i've been in the room most of the time! My room's filled with carbon dioxide! Gah. I wana go out but i havent pack and clean up my room. @@ Sighs.
Singapore here i come! NTU here i come! Second semester here i come!
I wont forget the promise between me and machok. Ngeh Ngeh. We shall see! XP
Thursday, January 7, 2010
再见
我们这一次告别，不知何时再见。
可是，我们总算告了一个段落。
哈哈，不知为什么每一次当我说某某事时，你不同意，到了某某时刻，你才会不经意地体会到我所谓的某某事，而我也无话可说地屈服了。
诚心地祝你幸福。
可是，我们总算告了一个段落。
哈哈，不知为什么每一次当我说某某事时，你不同意，到了某某时刻，你才会不经意地体会到我所谓的某某事，而我也无话可说地屈服了。
诚心地祝你幸福。
seriously.
im sick and tired of doing all the planning.
i really dont wana do all these anymore.
i wana just sit and watch and let you all decide whatever you all wana do and just tell me the conclusion.
and then it's a yes or no, that's it.
i really dont wana do all these anymore.
i wana just sit and watch and let you all decide whatever you all wana do and just tell me the conclusion.
and then it's a yes or no, that's it.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
what do you do?
What do you do, when you realise your friends lied about sth to you?
It depends on whether it's a big issue or not right?
But what if you trust them a lot and did not expect they'll lie to you about such things?
Even if it's an issue which does not harm you at all?
The problem is, lying about sth which doesnt harm me is not an issue, not trusting me to be able to understand and accept u as u are is the issue.
Haha, why am I always in these kinda dilemma? I mean it doesnt hafta be friend lying about sth, it could be friend who has hurt me in some sort of way before, etc.
But anyways, I stick by them till today. Till today.
Despite the things they did. Why?
I dont know. Cos Im their friend. If i dont stick by them, whoelse are goina stick by them?
Cos despite all the deep shit, moral support is what they needed most and hence I chose to stick by them at the time where nobody elses would.
So I was asking, why am I always in such dilemmas? Deciding whether to confront them or not?
I believe I've always make a decision that's best for both. Or at least, that's the best I could do.
This time round... I dont know. We'll see how it goes?
Maybe god knows I'm a person who's capable of handling these things and hence tasks were given to me instead of someone else. AHAHAHA. =P
And so, to my friends, no matter what you do, just try to be truthful to me and u know u dont hafta disguise urself in front of me. Nevertheless, I'll forgive you if there were things u did and u'll still be my friend forever ayte?
(as long as what u do is not illegal and like super duper immoral kinda thing la)
At the end of the day, I'm still here for ya. That's why I'm a good friend :p
hugs.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Goodbye teenhood.
Dashes of colours in the sky.
With the cup of sparkling juice in hand, we rushed to the car porch to watch the fireworks.
KeeBen: "There'll be 3 spots with fireworks in the sky. *points to the 3 directions respectively* That is MBPJ side. That is from 1U... *ponders a while* and that is from the Sunway Pyramid side..... Yes yes yes!"
Keecynn whispers loudly to my ear: He says that every new year. EVERY year w/o fail.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Then we went back into the living room, and countdown along with the tv programme.
Was wondering why the show only countdown after the fireworks were released.
AND today dad reminded me that there was telecast delay of 3 minutes. Dang~ We were late by 3 minutes cos we were watching the countdown in taiwan. Shucks. HAHA.
Nevertheless, this is the first time I spent my new year's eve counting down with friends instead of my family.
---2010---
It signifies a lot of things. And it's all in ONE. I left teenhood.
(Though not officially just yet!! =P but still... :( hahaha)
How does it feel like to be 20 (unofficially)?
---> Hmmm... It feels like knocking on the door of the world of adults and say "HI! I'm a newbie!" Lol. and yet it feels like i just had a graduation from the world of teenage.
Looking back, year 2009 has been.. i'd say, phase-changing. It's me entering University.. Leaving family for studies (in a way eventhough it's not too far a distance) .
There were good moments and memories I treasure a lot;
There were really bad moments I'd like to avoid thinking about them BUT i knew i have to face them.
Leaving college was rather sad. 2 years have passed just like that. JUST LIKE THAT. Aint long aint short BUT I've gotta admit i've got a bunch of GREAT friends from there. So much memories with them till sometimes Im so afraid I'll forget my high school friends.
This whole college period..was when I experienced my first love, my first freedom of driving around and lots more of my first.. There were a lot of firsts, whether major or minor.
First love was sweet and painful. Haha. and i had to let it go and let it go i shall
Nevertheless, I learned a lot, so, thank you.
First freedom of driving around and hanging out was awesome of course. ;P
Oh, not forgetting my first gay friend. :)
First time gambling during CNY at choon's place. (Aww memories)
First trip with friends (redang...)
Okay, a lot of firsts. Too much to list. So go figure out urself and check with me. HAHA
Wonderful experience indeed. Fulfilling.
HOWEVER, that also means painful to leave.
Of course, it's not so much on the friends and all that kills me to go to the University.
The first and foremost thing which kills me to go to the University was the time of notification.
There probably wasnt even a time.
It's not so much of the physical preparation (like packing etc) as well, it's more on the mental preparation.
Like a fool knocking left and right on the walls, I came into NTU.
Nope, I didnt get to tell any friends in advance.
Tasha knew cos she happened to call. And she cried. (awww..)
I logged into msn hoping that someone was there for me to let out.
I saw shan and i told her. Not much of a response. But yeah, i probably just got to tell shan over msn.
For those of you who knows me well, you know i didnt came here very willingly cos i had other dreams. Plus all the rush.. I started off my Uni days not-so-happily. Haha.
Despite the fact that I tried to anticipate, the people and the environment..kinda let me down.
BUT of course, knowing who I am, u know I'll have my ways. Cheh~ =P
HAHA. Not that Im saying Im studying in this Uni very happily right now, but well, I know it was my decision and Im responsible for my decision.
I know what I am doing. I believe in myself. That's more than enough right?
Back in Msia, each one of my friends are complaining about their uni life to me. Of course, I had my part of complains as well. But then again, like I said and like my dad said:
"If the environment would not change for you, you shift your mindset to adapt to the environment." (I would say paradigm shift rather than change urself cos that's just not right. U are who u are and u cant just change like that BUT mindset is sth that u can adjust.)
So when we complain, we complain BUT we knew we have to face it sooner or later. So let us all face it with courage alright?
LOL. Yeah, done with the philosophical side of me.
Moving on to the sentimental side of me.
Hmmm, Im a person who tries to look back a lot. Not that I refuse to look forward upon the future. It's more like, I always wana remind myself what I've went through and appreciate them and not forget them.
Chinese always say, dont forget your roots.
Cos I am what I am today with all those memories in mind.
W/o the memories, I'll be like a living zombie walking around with a blank soul. Right?
YEP, that's why I KEEP A LOT OF SMALL LIL THINGS.
Those who've seen my 纪念箱 woud know. =P
AND PICTURES! OH have i mention how it feels like to see photos which reminds you sth you've long forgotten? YES YES, i need to get an external hard disk ASAP before the photos occupied the entire space of my laptop! GRH.
And so it's a brand new year. New year resolutions, anyone?
Ai yai yai... mine? To make a difference.
This time round, I wont list them down. I'll have them in my head instead.
Cos u know how u always list them down and u'll dump it aside after 3 months RIGHT.
Anyways, this is one of my new year resolution and i hope i'll be persistent enough to do this.
With the cup of sparkling juice in hand, we rushed to the car porch to watch the fireworks.
KeeBen: "There'll be 3 spots with fireworks in the sky. *points to the 3 directions respectively* That is MBPJ side. That is from 1U... *ponders a while* and that is from the Sunway Pyramid side..... Yes yes yes!"
Keecynn whispers loudly to my ear: He says that every new year. EVERY year w/o fail.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Then we went back into the living room, and countdown along with the tv programme.
Was wondering why the show only countdown after the fireworks were released.
AND today dad reminded me that there was telecast delay of 3 minutes. Dang~ We were late by 3 minutes cos we were watching the countdown in taiwan. Shucks. HAHA.
Nevertheless, this is the first time I spent my new year's eve counting down with friends instead of my family.
---2010---
It signifies a lot of things. And it's all in ONE. I left teenhood.
(Though not officially just yet!! =P but still... :( hahaha)
How does it feel like to be 20 (unofficially)?
---> Hmmm... It feels like knocking on the door of the world of adults and say "HI! I'm a newbie!" Lol. and yet it feels like i just had a graduation from the world of teenage.
Looking back, year 2009 has been.. i'd say, phase-changing. It's me entering University.. Leaving family for studies (in a way eventhough it's not too far a distance) .
There were good moments and memories I treasure a lot;
There were really bad moments I'd like to avoid thinking about them BUT i knew i have to face them.
Leaving college was rather sad. 2 years have passed just like that. JUST LIKE THAT. Aint long aint short BUT I've gotta admit i've got a bunch of GREAT friends from there. So much memories with them till sometimes Im so afraid I'll forget my high school friends.
This whole college period..was when I experienced my first love, my first freedom of driving around and lots more of my first.. There were a lot of firsts, whether major or minor.
First love was sweet and painful. Haha. and i had to let it go and let it go i shall
Nevertheless, I learned a lot, so, thank you.
First freedom of driving around and hanging out was awesome of course. ;P
Oh, not forgetting my first gay friend. :)
First time gambling during CNY at choon's place. (Aww memories)
First trip with friends (redang...)
Okay, a lot of firsts. Too much to list. So go figure out urself and check with me. HAHA
Wonderful experience indeed. Fulfilling.
HOWEVER, that also means painful to leave.
Of course, it's not so much on the friends and all that kills me to go to the University.
The first and foremost thing which kills me to go to the University was the time of notification.
There probably wasnt even a time.
It's not so much of the physical preparation (like packing etc) as well, it's more on the mental preparation.
Like a fool knocking left and right on the walls, I came into NTU.
Nope, I didnt get to tell any friends in advance.
Tasha knew cos she happened to call. And she cried. (awww..)
I logged into msn hoping that someone was there for me to let out.
I saw shan and i told her. Not much of a response. But yeah, i probably just got to tell shan over msn.
For those of you who knows me well, you know i didnt came here very willingly cos i had other dreams. Plus all the rush.. I started off my Uni days not-so-happily. Haha.
Despite the fact that I tried to anticipate, the people and the environment..kinda let me down.
BUT of course, knowing who I am, u know I'll have my ways. Cheh~ =P
HAHA. Not that Im saying Im studying in this Uni very happily right now, but well, I know it was my decision and Im responsible for my decision.
I know what I am doing. I believe in myself. That's more than enough right?
Back in Msia, each one of my friends are complaining about their uni life to me. Of course, I had my part of complains as well. But then again, like I said and like my dad said:
"If the environment would not change for you, you shift your mindset to adapt to the environment." (I would say paradigm shift rather than change urself cos that's just not right. U are who u are and u cant just change like that BUT mindset is sth that u can adjust.)
So when we complain, we complain BUT we knew we have to face it sooner or later. So let us all face it with courage alright?
LOL. Yeah, done with the philosophical side of me.
Moving on to the sentimental side of me.
Hmmm, Im a person who tries to look back a lot. Not that I refuse to look forward upon the future. It's more like, I always wana remind myself what I've went through and appreciate them and not forget them.
Chinese always say, dont forget your roots.
Cos I am what I am today with all those memories in mind.
W/o the memories, I'll be like a living zombie walking around with a blank soul. Right?
YEP, that's why I KEEP A LOT OF SMALL LIL THINGS.
Those who've seen my 纪念箱 woud know. =P
AND PICTURES! OH have i mention how it feels like to see photos which reminds you sth you've long forgotten? YES YES, i need to get an external hard disk ASAP before the photos occupied the entire space of my laptop! GRH.
And so it's a brand new year. New year resolutions, anyone?
Ai yai yai... mine? To make a difference.
This time round, I wont list them down. I'll have them in my head instead.
Cos u know how u always list them down and u'll dump it aside after 3 months RIGHT.
Anyways, this is one of my new year resolution and i hope i'll be persistent enough to do this.
YES, I've decided to upload pictures of people in my life(with me if possible). Let's see if I could do it for a year. I thought of this on one really random midnight when I was studying alone home in sgpore. I suddenly realised i havent seen my maternal grandparents for very very long time. It kinda struck me to realise I might not even have a photo of just me and my grandpa or grandma. Same goes to my paternal grandparents. AND a lot more important people in my life.
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But it's not goina be just the important people in my life. Random people which I learnt sth from them or I just miss them suddenly. They'll appear too. =P
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Neways, LONG STORY CUT SHORT.
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I decided to start with a picture of me with most important people in my life which i've always taken for granted as an introduction.
"DAD, MOM, I know I haven't been a filial daughter. There are probably many times I've let you all down. And many times I didn't help you all much or lessen ur burden. Nevertheless, I know you all love me. And I love you all. You guys probably think I prioritize my friends more than you guys cos i've been out with my friends more often than spending time at home nowadays. I just wana let you all know that, I love you all and express it in a different way.
Definitely not the way I express to my friends, I dont know why. HAHA. Most likely cos of the way you brought us up. Thanks a lot for bringing me up and guiding me all the while. All the patience and love. I hope I'll be a daughter who makes you guys proud."
---HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE---
兩個世界-張克帆
My brother introduced me this song and i think it's quite nice. Though it's kinda emo-ish. haha
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