:(

I want to talk to someone..BUT...

Study Madness~!

*****My table's so much more organized already! =P*****

And here are some previews to our study madness...

***Chiong-ing in McDonalds in Raffles Place (The couch is super comfy though! :)***

Okay, here comes the essence:

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hahaha.

since im not tired enough to sleep in the mrt, i decided to start blogging.

weeeeeee~

Lol. I'm high. I think.

ahahahhaha.

Lol, forgive me.

cos it felt like i havent been sleeping the whole night.

Weeeeeee~

Okay, by now you should know how high/drowsy I am right now.

HAHA.

Fact is, I didnt really sleep much la.

Haha, lately been chiong-ing. But all these while, as much as I try to chiong, I always have excuses to slack la.

BUT, yesterday night was different.

It was HARDCORE chiong. Weeeeee~

HAHAHA.

From about 7-ish pm till about 5-ish am. With Bobo and Kiat.

In old canteen A.

The weather was good.

I was totally in the mood.

Dang~ I can't wait to get a room in hall for next acad year! =D

Yeah... Kiat left about 6am. Bobo left about 6-ish am.

And hence I was left stranded.

Cos Kiat would need his bed to sleep and his roomie, Hung would be sleeping too.

HENCE, no bed. for me.

Cos Bobo's "AWESOME" roomie doesn't like other people entering their room.

HENCE, don't even think about stepping into the room with her presence.

HENCE THE ULTIMATE HENCE, (lol) I slept at the couch at one side of the Old Canteen A.

Apparently, I wasn't the only one ;) Haha!

Of course, earlier (about 5-ish am) I sms-ed Enrique to let me know as soon as he wakes up. So that I can sleep on his bed!

THANKFULLY:) he woke up about 8am. So the "blur blur" me went to catch a bus to go his room to sleep.

As much as I thought I should and wanted to go for my 10.30am computing tutorial...

Yep, I bet you got it right. I didnt go! (Thanks to Enrique la. For telling me don't need to go la.)

Nevertheless, I didn't read anything for computing. So even if I attended the tutorial, I'd be so blank.

BUT, I already woke up. Didn't know what to do. Jeng jeng jeng~ Yepppp, you got it right again!

Get back to chiong-ing. Weeeeeeeee~

HAHAHA.

It actually felt pretty good. I felt the drive. Despite the slight drowsiness(and also the discomfort cos I don't get to brush my teeth and...OKAY, I shall not go into details for this. XP).

I think I was high. HAHA. But seriously, it felt like everything I study gets into my head and like the revision just speed up. =D

I don't wana lose the drive.

OMG, am I crazy? Are you thinking that I'm crazy?

Aiyoooo, of course I took breaks in between studies la. And if not cos I had to rush home for the air-cond service thingy. I might have staed on to study(and perhaps nap) la.

(Oh shit, I'm using a lot of 'la's... =/)

Hence proven my current hype.

HaHA :p

Okay okay, I should nap.

*Huh...... I'm only half way through the journey... At least 45 mins mroe to reach home =/ Sighs*

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Hahaha, FYI, that was written in the mrt in the afternoon la~

And here are our chiong-ing pics! :p

9.32pm... (Mc! McD!)

2.55am...







6.24am... (Kiat left ady..)

6.25am...

In case u're wondering, that yellow thingy is a small blankie Kiat brought for me. :)

So YUP. I believe that's sufficient info to show that our final's next week.

BTW, for those who don't know what is "chiong", it is basically singlish which means "pok meng" for studies. haha.


LAST BUT NOT LEAST, as requested...

Haha, I guess some of you might not know I cut my hair?

Or you guys know ady?

Some prefers me with fringe, some otherwise.

I didnt like the fringe at first. Now that it's longer. It's a lil better.

Hmmm, fringe and w/o fringe, that big difference?

it's not like you haven't been through this

again and again you face this.
each time stronger than before.
or rather immuned.

no more heart breaks. no more heart aches.
and life's just so dull.

i know i wanted this.
and i know it's the right thing to do.
or at least it's what's best for now.

nevertheless, i long for that kinda feelings again.
it's just. even if the whole world turns upsidedown and against you,
you're not afraid to fall cos u know for sure, there's someone to catch you. Anytime at all.
It's a sense of belonging.

But then again. I know I can be independent.
Increasingly independent.
Only thing is, even the hardest steel melts.
When u're so tired, u just wana fall into one's arms.

I guess, I'll just hafta keep reminding myself about the targets I wana hit, goals I wana achieve and dreams I wana make true.

And day by day,
I'll get numb and number.


p.s. I hate first day of menstrual. urgh.

Bad day?

I had a rough day.

But I'm not complaining.
Actually..Why not!?

Okay..Are you ready..?

WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU! DAMN YOU M!@#$% F!@#$%^&!
what do u all know about what i am going through
so why are u telling me what to do!
what makes u think im obligated to do
and it's not like i dont do anything at all
damn u m@#$%^f#$%^&

dont u put ur freaking words on me!
ONE DAY! one day im goina m$%^&f$%^&* blast it all out!

Phew~ okay. better. A LIL. hahaha! XD
Oops..

okay.. first of all, i felt like a total screwed up. I felt useless.
2nd of all.. Picture below tells u everything..

Haha, I doubt u can see the words, but it says "bruises" and "peel off".

3rd of all, thank you very much for reminding about how I am not good enough. Or at least will never be. T.T

Okayyyyy~ So much so for a rough day.

But im still not complaining. (Fine~ i kinda blasted a lil on top. but i didnt complain...! Did i?)

Lookin' on the bright side:

first of all, i feel the desperate drive to study and work harder. (*cross fingers*)

2nd of all..Im getting organized XP well, at least i cleared up quite some stuff. finally, a nicer and neater table in my room :)

3rd of all..My cough's getting a lot better! Yay! XD

4th of all.......Im off to study now! Woot~

Haha, but I'm getting tired again..Thyroid i guess?

The emotional rides and constant tiredness. =( "Go away!!"

Bites on tight.
Hang on there.

Roar.


I dont feel good. But I will make sure I feel good at the end of the day.